Melancholic Sunday and Therapeutic Walk
October 31, 2023
-Walt Disney
As much as I wanted to stay optimistic as I returned to work, I just couldn't. I still find it difficult to overcome this moving on stage, especially during solitude when all I think about is the recent incident in my life. I would question myself, "Am I okay?" I seem to be fine, but dark hours still hit my clock, and I become emotional in those moments.
I'll be fine. I know. Joy will come after the pain, just like how the sun reappears after the rain.
My first Sunday morning was spent recuperating in bed, then I opted to have a walk in the afternoon to take some fresher air and sunlight. I visited a restaurant located adjacent to the park, where I intended to go, and had my lunch. I left after eating my food, and drinking my papaya soup.
There are things that I missed, but there are things that changed as well. I could no longer feel the desire to travel far like I used to. At least for now. I know the desire will be back soon.
The truth is, each time I see places I wish to revisit with my parents, I just feel sad since my father can no longer see them. The park where I used to stay every Sunday is one of them. Emotions can't be controlled every time I remember my dreams for them and the places I wanted to show them. "Was I too late to plan them?" Only if I knew that he would leave us too soon. I should have planned earlier.
But then they said, "Things are meant to happen." I just questioned myself, "Was it?" It was certainly his own choice and nothing about fate.
There were a lot of travel plans that I made before I went back home, but I still don't know when I can get my feet back on the roads and trails. The thought of him just made me sad, and I lost the desire to pursue it. I thought it was inappropriate, and I still want to mourn.
At the park, there were groups of domestic workers having Halloween photoshoots. Looking at them happy made me sad. Why can't I just be like them? Why can't I just enjoy my life?
I traced the pathway in between lush trees to navigate my mind into something else. Something good and positive, because I don't want to be emotional in public. Then I headed toward the pebbled pathway to have a therapeutic walk. Even though I had almost a month's break from work, I felt exhausted. Every step onto the sharp edges of pebbles gives me pain in my soles, yet it relieves tension and pressure, which was relaxing in the end. I tried to form an upward curve in my lips, yet sadness was still drawn in my eyes, which I couldn't keep.
I stayed in this place while watching the sun slowly settle below the horizon. Soon the dusk came, but the thought of the sun reminded me that the next day it would rise again, which symbolizes life and hope. While many want to live longer, some choose to end their day. I wish they would appreciate how life is worth living and how beautiful the world is. And we all know that death is inevitable. So why not cherish each day and fight for life for as long as we can? Questions. I have a lot of questions. As for now, I'll keep them in mind and try to get back on track. Because, as I mentioned, "Life is worth living."
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I can understand the loss of your father still bothering you and it's very natural. You may need some more time to come out from it. Time is the great healer and I hope it will heal you also.
Food is looking good and it must be very tasty. I think you enjoyed the walk.
By the way, you are looking cuter than before 🥰. What's the secret?
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I lose pounds due to stress. Do you think it is a secret? 😅 I saw a white strand in my hair for the first time. Circles around the eyes are darker.. Cuter? Maybe stressed? Lol.
I am trying to find the beauty and so I can see the beauty 😉.
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Yes indeed life is beautiful. As they say YOLO! So let's live as long as we can.
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Grief is a complex journey, and it's perfectly normal to have moments of sadness. Your realization about cherishing moments with loved ones is valuable. In time, you'll find new ways to enjoy life while keeping your cherished memories alive.
Hope it's easy, but it's not.. A different one from all sorrow I encountered.. Thanks for the kind words..
Perhaps this is what we all need as an escape from the mundane tiresome chores.
Time is a healer and keeping ourselves busy by doing the daily activities can distract our minds. Doing new things can help as well. It's completely normal you our exhausted after being off for a month. You have been through a heck of a lot. !HUG !LUV
I get your idea of life is worth living, be a fighter. My father passing was after once everyone had time to see him. The moment everyone was gone he was. We got the news from the doctor a week before he passed that he had days left. I don't know if our perspective change when we are on our death bed. I guess there are a lot variables that we won't experience until that time comes.
The foods look good especially the soup. It's cold here and I will get some today. It's Tuesday here so it's buffet day so I will be enjoying your cuisine. Hopefully I refrain from eating too much. !LOLZ Take care and hope things get better for you soon 💚 🙏
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I understood his health condition..
But when he said he wanted to see us, he didn't wait for us 😭...
And he had a chance to treat his illness, but he didn't tell us about it earlier, not until it started to eat up his organs..he was so unfair.. I still can't move on from it.. But then, that was his choice... And I hope he is now in peace..
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Very hard thing to deal with, I feel for you Jane. One day you will move foward from it. The pain will reside but the scars will remain. I wrote about my father's passing about a year ago it was the hardiest article I've ever written. You have written several already and I can only imagine your emotions each time. May God bless you and all of your family. 🤗 ♥️ 🙏
What made it harder to move on was when I read her notebook which seemed like a diary... I want to share it here, but rather not.. I might become too emotional..
I completely understand not wanting to share. Somethings are not for everyone to read.
I know it's really a big loss of you and your family. No words, no one, no day and night can heal your pain but you have to be always be optimistic and just pray for your father. May Allah bless you.
Friend,
I saw the title of your post, I looked at the photos and that, melancholy, is what they convey to me. Everything has a time. Let time help. I know it's hard and that feeling will come back again and again, until you begin to accept it. But just think... how would your father have liked you to be?
I send you a big hug.
You made me emotional with this question. Perhaps he's sad seeing me sad. But I just want him to visit me in my dreams to clarify everything. Til then, I'll be at peace too..
Sorry 😔. Just wait then. We always get the answers.
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