My Wartime Diary. Kyiv, Ukraine. 20th Day

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Today, March 15, I woke up to the sound of explosions at about 5 am. The window glass and the bed trembled. Russian soldiers bombed my Kyiv again. Houses where people live. Where peaceful people sleep. Fascism of the 21st century.


  • After canceling the air raid alert I have few hours to do my job. In the middle Kyiv major announced a long curfew from 8 PM today till 7 AM day after tomorrow.

  • I called Nick to warn him, and he said he need to pick up a lot of stuff around the city today. So, I worked as a driver for a few hours. My colleagues who have left for the western part of the country ask me how Kyiv is. The city has changed. They will not recognize it. 😞 Too many people in military uniform. The streets are patrolled by the military and police. There are few cars on roads, many checkpoints. Burned or crashed vehicles, lots of weapons.

  • Preparing for a long curfew, people stand in line for food. I saw the subway station from afar, where a shell hit this morning. Of the three areas fired, this is the closest to my home. When I look at the shelled houses, I always think - how likely is it that my apartment will suffer from a falling bomb?

  • What a striking contrast of devastation and death and good spring weather. It was +10 here today, nice and sunny. Anyway, I can't enjoy it fully...

  • Oh, by the way. Many of my colleagues are russian-speaking, but now we all communicate only in Ukrainian. 💙💛 I know a lot of Ukrainians who used to speak russian now switch to Ukrainian.

  • It was 5 PM when I parked my car. A neighbor was walking in the street with her dachshund. She inquired about where I'm going to spend the night today. She will be in another basement. It is cold, but safer in the event of a chemical attack. And yet, we were warned to turn off the lights.

  • Almost 9 PM. 2,5 hours since last raid alarm. I don't ignore it, but sitting in my tiny corridor in a folding camping char. Nick got it for me from the top drawer and there's no need to sit on the floor. Explosions can be heard further and closer.

  • Air-clear. I am so sleepy but cannot fall asleep because I hear something constantly. Sometimes sounds like air defense, sometimes like shooting.

  • I talked to my mom. She had an appointment with the cardiologist. Heart and lungs ultrasound showed that there is fluid in her lungs again. In addition, she has laryngitis. But the stitches gradually heal. Every time she say she prays for us, and I say that we are fine.

  • Nat called to check on me. Every time she tries to make me smile. This is nearly the only reason that make me smile these days. Every time I finish our talk saying how much I love her.


March 16.

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  • I had a sleepless night. I spent it sitting in a camping chair or lying in bed, and hearing only three sounds - absolute silence, thud boom and a long, mournful weeping of a siren. Now, in the morning, I think it was silly, and I wish I wasn't so scared and had some nap. Maybe today...

  • Stories of survivals. My girlfriend that's in Germany now says she talk to many Ukrainian people, and in their stories so much grief that her heart is broken. This is why I don't talk to friends these days. Only with those who are still in Kyiv, because we share information and details, not emotions and feeling. Emotions can easily brake me. There is a website that publish stories of survivals, and I read them to understand what to be prepared for, and what to do to survive.

  • This may sound silly, but I often think about garbage. I sort the garbage out of habit, although our garbage has not been taken out since the beginning of the war. They take it out only where there is a lot of it. There are very few people left in our house, so our garbage is still accumulating. We produce so much garbage... Disposable tableware, plastic. This is so sad. And so silly, because people are losing their homes, their loved ones, and I can't stop thinking about sorting garbage.

  • My friend in Germany handed over various little things for Nick and his guys - warm socks and something else. He did not rely on the delivery service, but gave the package to a trusted person. That man came here last night, but didn't make it to Kyiv before the curfew. Since it is impossible (and really dangerous) today, he drove back toward west, took people who were evacuated.

  • I received official volunteer status in the territorial defence division where Nick serves. 👍 And I finally opened my own currency account (USD). There are also requests for help from the previous TDD, so I am fighting on two fronts. At first I wanted to share a photo of the document here. Then I remembered that about a year ago I became a victim of intruders. Now I'm not sure it's safe to publish personal data in the public domain while there is a war going on. I'm getting paranoid. Anyway, for more details, you can contact me by Telegram: @zirochka_ua.


March 17.

  • I arranged a place to sleep in the tiny corridor of my apartments. Put sofa cushions on the floor, so I didn't have to move there and back on air-raid. I didn't sleep very well, but at least something.

  • The psychological limit of 21 days has been passed. People are talking and thinking about what they will do after the victory. These are not far-sighted plans, but just ordinary everyday things that now have a different meaning. Friends who have gone abroad can't wait for the day when they return home. As for me, Nick and I plan to go to my hometown and hug my Nat and my mother, and visit Nick's mother too. Also, I dream about the day when I see my good, generous friends from HIVE and thank each of them in person. I will always remember the good that you do for my country. 🙏💙

  • In the morning I found out why my windows were trembling yesterday. I don’t know where they are aiming, but the bomb fell by the sports complex and the medical center where I planned to be operated on. This is my area. The operation was scheduled for March 1st. I managed to take care of all my relatives except myself. Well, I'll have to wait, and until then I try to take care of myself so as not to provoke a deterioration.

  • I spoke with my colleague, who escaped from the ruined Gostomel. He owes the bank 2 payments for a house that no longer exists. Insurance does not cover property destroyed during the war. All he has is a kids backpack, 2 T-shirts and cloth he had on. But he, his wife and kid are all alive. Our company sent him some financial aid.

  • Nick's mother has called to greet me with Purim and tell that they pray for peace and salvation to come soon on our long-suffering land. She has a good feeling about it, so do I.

  • I read and hear frequent messages about misinformation on social networks, and I'm glad I don't see it in my subscription. This means that I signed up for the right resources, and I removed/muted all the questionable ones. I question all information from unofficial resources and do not enter into discussions. So I save my resource to keep doing my job.

  • A few minutes ago, a bomb or shell fell nearby again. 😨 When there is an explosion in the air, you hear a sound and the windows tremble. And when the floor trembles, something falls. This is my observation.

  • Paypal now in Ukraine!


March 18.

  • Another night on sofa cushions on the floor. I didn't sleep well because of backache. I was hoping to see rehabilitation specialist today, but he will be in Kyiv only tomorrow.

  • It was a busy day. Work, online meetings, then a friend asked me to send documents to her friend. I grabbed it and drove to the post office. I was surprised that the they are open. There are quite a few staff there.

  • It was quiet during the day, yesterday and today. I found eggs in my fridge, but I don't eat eggs, so I've been thinking what to do with them. I bought some apples and baked apple charlotte by a simplest prescription - just eggs, sugar and floor.

  • Our multi-flat block has a few entrances. My entrance consists of 15 flats, and there are only me and another family left. I cut off a large piece of cake and was about to take it to a neighbor when I heard an explosion and the work of artillery. I opened my door and saw him on the stairs by the window. Before the war, we didn’t talk much, more often just said hello, but now we talk every time. He tells me where I can buy milk, or fresh bread, or medicine, where I can fill up the tank. Talks about a country house and a past life. And I'm just listening. He took the plate with a pie and brought me two tangerines. I haven't eaten a tangerine in such a long time.

  • Today I heard the story of a man who 2 days ago was able to get out of the devastated Mariupol. What they drank and ate. It's creepy. And it reminded me of my grandmother. Until the last day, she was very worried about the fate of Ukraine. I was very young, brought up in the USSR, and did not understand her concern. At the time, sharing real family stories with children was dangerous. And her story is such that it was almost impossible for me realize the circumstances. Grandmother and her family lived in the village, and the Soviet authorities hated and feared the Ukrainian peasants. They were too independent. During the WW II, her husband was allegedly drafted into the Soviet army (In fact, he died in prison, and my grandmother found out about this by chance after collapse of USSR, shortly before her death). My mom was born a couple of months later. And when my mother was 9 days old (just ponder about), NKVD came to my grandmother and sent her with a baby to Siberia. It was September. She, along with other women, traveled in a boxcar for 4 months. Can you imagine how to survive with a baby in a cold boxcar during 4 months? I'm just saying that these are same people as those who are bombing Mariupol today.

  • I saw neighbors from the next multi-flat block, the wife had a bouquet of flowers. How cute and touching! Today I also saw that small coffee shops are open. Now almost everything that is open closes at 3 o'clock.

  • We are more and more being asked not to ignore the air raid and hide in a shelter. And I think about it a lot. It takes me 15 minutes to walk to the nearest shelter. I don’t know if it’s possible to sleep there at night, but sometimes you need to buy food, take a shower. And that means getting out. But an air raid can catch me anywhere. I can not go to the shelter, but go down to the basement. But there is a chance that the basement become a mass grave. Which means my apartment is about as dangerous as the basement. Therefore, I stay at home.

  • Nick has called. He saw a psychologist today, and had some test. They should all talk to a psychologist. He's discovered many new things about himself. 🤔



Twenty days. Many of you are tired of the same news from us. Destruction, victims, shelled humanitarian corridors and refugees, cities without water and light. I know and I understand. I used to be like that too. I was tired of politics and just wanted to live, enjoy the life. I traveled and loved photography, I saw gorgeous and exciting things everywhere. And that's where I am now. I no longer feel beauty. I don't relax even in my dream. Before I do something, I always ask myself: if a bomb falls nearby in a minute, what is the most important thing to do?


However, only together can we deal with the threats we face today and stop this horrible war. Yes, this is WAR, not an incident, not a military operation, not an annoying misunderstanding. Open war.


I am impressed by the huge number of good, kind people here on Hive. Many of them support us even against the official position of their governments. I want to THANK YOU on behalf of all Ukrainians.💖






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I was watching a journalist live from Kyiv on his FB a couple of hours ago and he had to interrupt suddenly to run for shelter cause he heard the air raid siren. Still he hasn't come back live. What you guys experience there is beyond belief and imagination. Wishing you the best is the least obvious we can do.

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Oh, Gog, hope that guy is okay.

Agree with you, but also I think that we do not fully realize what we are capable of until the time comes.

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He didn't return to continue his live but he posted something later so I guess and hope he is OK.
It is true what you say, we never know our limits till we reach them, often only to find that we can do even more.

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I might not be commenting on every single post lately but I do have your profile open all day and refresh every hour to see if you posted an update already. It always calms me down to read that you are ok, or as ok as you can be in this horrible situation. I'm also glad to hear that Nick is ok too.

I wish that this war will come to the end soon to stop suffering of innocent people. I don't even know what to tell you as words will not help you or make you feel safe. Stay strong, my dear friend.

PS: I hope that Vlad received my donation.

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PS: I hope that Vlad received my donation.

He said that he received a SWIFT payment worth about $1000, a week ago, was it you?

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Yes, happy to hear it came 😊

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My God, this is SO GENEROUS OF YOU! No words to express how grateful I am to you! God bless you, my dear! I have receipts and even some photographs, because most of what is bought does not sit and wait, but immediately leaves for its intended purpose.

I know my thank you sounds stupid but THANK YOU AGAIN! 💖 Hope to say it to you in person, one day

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It doesn't sound stupid at all and you are very welcome! This is the least I could do. I wish I could be at the border helping the refugees but my situation doesn't allow me to be there, so I can at least support financially those who bravely fight for Ukraine and its freedom!

PLEASE, let me know should you need to purchase anything bigger again. I will see how much I can support :) It's really my pleasure.

I would love to meet you in person! And not for you to thank me but simply because you are a cool person! :)

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Superb help and attitude, you have my admiration!

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Hey there! I need your help. Can you please contact me on Discord erikah#8879

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I just saw on the news what happened today and I was thinking of you and checking for your updates. I am worried about you. So nice to see your face on the next post.

Please, stay safe!

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Yes, I'm safe, thank goodness. My safe might look boring after a while, but I don't even know what else can I use as a cover. We are advised not to take photos for safety reasons..

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Wow what an impressive story you tell, how your normal life of 3 weeks ago had been torn apart by this crazy war. I wish you all the best and hope you will be safe

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I'm not tired of your news. It is very important - and I look every day for your posts, and read every word. I cant sympathise enough with whats going on - its just awful. Please be safe. All the best from the UK.

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I hope people are able to reach foods, drinks there. Stay safe!

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Many of you are tired of the same news from us.

That is not true. Trust me, I know about the curfew you have, I'm watching the news and worrying for you and for so many that are in Ukraine, under attack, and for those that are out of Ukraine and have nowhere to go.

I hope you will still have water, electricity, gas and internet. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Don't risk anything! Praying for you and Nick and everyone! Drop us a line when you can so we know you are safe. 🙏

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This is probably because sometimes I feel like tired of myself... You are amazing person, Erikah!.. When this all ends, I hope to meet you in person, one day. Sorry, I can't express my feelings and my gratitude now, but one day ...

I have water, and hot water (thank you, Almighty), and electricity. Wasn't sure about gas, but probably it's my stove. And I have Internet. So far so good.

Tomorrow I stay home, so will update my post during the day. Don't worry, sweetheart, and sleep well. 🤗

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Thank God you at least have the basics. Thank you for your reply, this is what keeps us relatively calm, at least we know you are alive.

Don't worry, sweetheart, and sleep well. 🤗

I wish you the same, although I know your night will be anything but calm.

We will meet one day, you can be sure of that! You're my hero and Nick too! What you two have done ... ♥️

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Thank you for sharing this incredible ordeal on the "live" stream!
I can never imagine the pain and suffering you are going through, but I will try and support the Ukrainians brave fight for independence in all manners possible, I will share this post in hope that some of my followers will see and also upvote!

You guys need the $ more than us now!

We will NEVER tire from hearing about your struggles, i just hope the next news we get is from the Russian military drawing back and stopping this nonsense! War betwene brothers? War in general?

F***K WAR!

your brother in spirit

Eythorphoto!

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We definitely won't tire of your news. We love to hear from you as that means you are safe. I can't wait for you to be properly safe though. 💓

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Many of you are tired of the same news from us.

Nobody I know of.

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I think back to all your beautiful travel posts and can hardly believe that you are now living this life under these horrible circumstances.
Sending more strength and hope.
!LUV

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i will never tire of your heroic efforts for your country, your words speak the truth without the sensationalism of the western media. I just worry for you, each day I worry that you will not post, then I relax when you post. I feel very humble to know you @zirochka

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Glad to see you and hear from you! I'm not bored of your news, I watch TV and see all kinds of news but yours are the most valuable, being so close to what is happening in Kyiv. Please be careful!

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My prayers are with you and all of Ukraine.

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Oh beautiful friend, what a joy to hear from you and read you. But at the same time I feel so sad, and I have so many mixed feelings when I read your writings, my heart is filled with so much pain and helplessness. I wish I had the power to do something for all of you, for all of your country and put an end to so much destruction, evil, death. Enough of so much suffering. I only ask you to stay strong, protected, alive, please. Take care of yourself in every possible way, this has to end and you have to be masters of your destiny in a favorable way. Dream of a beautiful rebirth for you, your family and your whole country. I can only continue to pray for you day by day, asking for blessings and mercy. I always tell you that I will be watching over you, your family and your country, and it will be so until all this is over and it has to end for everyone to be happy. God bless you greatly my friend, take care of yourself, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. A big, hugs and a kiss from here from Venezuela, if I don't know what you feel for sure, I have a notion of it, believe me. Peace and Freedom to Ukraine. 💙💛

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Too many people in military uniform. The streets are patrolled by the military and police.

It's inevitable during the current circumstances, but as long as it's patrolled by Ukranians and not Russians that's what matters most.

And I think everyone (bar a couple of idiots whom we can ignore) reading your post will feel the same - we will never be tired of the same news from you. It's important that we know what is happening inside of Ukraine, we just wish that these type of updates didn't exist. One day they will stop, and you will be telling us about how beautiful Ukraine is again, and how everyone is rebuilding their lives.

Btw, I see you are starting to power down. If you looking to withdraw Hive quickly now, set your post beneficiary 100% to @reward.app to get all your post payout in liquid rewards instead of 50/50.
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Take care as always 💙💛

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If you looking to withdraw Hive quickly now, set your post beneficiary 100% to @reward.app to get all your post payout in liquid rewards instead of 50/50.

This is exactly what I need, thanks for the clue!

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Its a total war, as you're on the Internet.

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Please stay strong. The hardships will surely end. not now but maybe soon. Everything will fall into its place. Stay safe.

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Sigo orando por el pueblo de Ucrania, estoy pendiente de toda tus actualizaciones y rezo porque estén bien dentro de todo esté horror que están viviendo.

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Many of you are tired of the same news from us. Destruction, victims, shelled humanitarian corridors and refugees, cities without water and light.

It's only possible after the war is over and we meet in person and you talk too much for too long. Yeah, at the time, we might. 😉

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I watched the news in horror today, just got back home and had to see how you were doing. How are you doing?

I never tire of hearing about the war, you, Nick, your mom, and Natalie, how you feel, what you are doing, if you are eating, how your back is... it is all built into our days. Get up, have coffee, check out our people in Ukraine.

If I could help any differently, I would. I hate seeing what I see, and I dislike that you will never get these days back. I worry that you are still there and yet, I understand this need. Just promise that if it gets too much, you will leave.

Everyone thinks of you and so many appreciate the up-to-date news. I want to thank you personally for your service to your country and your work as a humanitarian. Love to you always. Denise

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Just promise that if it gets too much, you will leave.

I promise you...

I want to thank you personally for your service to your country and your work as a humanitarian.

I constantly feel like I have to do more than I do. I know that many people feel the same way now, but I can't get rid of this feeling.

I'm so grateful for your donation, dear Denise. Hugs and !LUV

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"Many of you are tired of the same news from us."

We are not tired of the news and updates, they are very much appreciated! We definitely look forward to brighter days for you again, though. So glad you have a camping chair instead of the hard floor! It's the little things that make life bearable sometimes. We love you and will hold you in our hearts! ❤️
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Well, as many people already said, we do not tire of your news. Your writing is very personal and immediate and reminds me to be grateful. We forget that life, peace, safety, liberty... these are not things we can take for granted.

I hope your Mom recovers well. My father just had fluid removed from his lungs twice and a triple bypass. I cannot imagine having to face the stress of having a parent who is ill at the same time that you are facing war!

How is it going at work? I would imagine it would be challenging to concentrate, but possibly a good distraction if you can concentrate.

You mentioned that Nick got you a camp chair. Could you obtain a folding, lightweight camp cot? I wonder whether that would help your back... is that something you could even take with you to the shelter? You have probably considered this already. I feel so bad for you because the situation is hard enough without back pain and lack of sleep.

I hope things improve soon. Someone mentioned leaving Kyiv -- is that something you are considering? As much as we appreciate the updates, I worry for you. It is such a stressful time, and no one knows what will happen.

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I work using modified "pomodoro technique". 😊 When I hear sirene, I take a break and go to my tiny corridor. And wait. Make calls. Then go back to my "home office".

The shelter is too far from my place, about 15 min walk. This is a metro station. I don't go there. In the beginning, I went down to the basement of my flat-block. Now I found a pkace in my apartments that follow the rulr of two walls, and I wait there. Today I am going to make a place for sleep in my corridor. I have no cot, only sleeping bag, but i think i can find something useful at home.

About leaving Kyiv, I am not sure how safe is it. Besides, I will be alone. I so much hope that I won't have to leave. 😰

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People that are tired reading about it should just tune out. All the others still concerned and watching. The world has changed dramatically and you all need to be aware that PTSD will be part of your life once this shit is over.

I suffer from PTSD so I know what I'm talking about. But you will deal with it.

We hear news from Russians speaking up and I feel for them just like I feel for UA. They are brave people too and I hope their voices will be heard.

None the less you still have to endure war first hand so stay alert, safe and sound. Warm hugs!

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My heart is with you. I read your words and tears come to my eyes.

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Візьму на озброєння фразу "я люблю тебе" в кінці телефоних розмов із рідними та близькими. Тримайтесь!!!

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I am not tired of your posts.
It gives me a perspective from someone that is living there.
Someone that has a bias towards the place that is in turmoil.
A historical account from one resident in a place that one day will help shape future people when they look back at this madness.
An entry that is immutable and permanent by the existence of hive the blockchain.
Keep it up.
We are all praying for all of you.

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I am not tired of your posts.
It gives me a perspective from someone that is living there.
Someone that has a bias towards the place that is in turmoil.
A historical account from one resident in a place that one day will help shape future people when they look back at this madness.
An entry that is immutable and permanent by the existence of hive the blockchain.
Keep it up.
We are all praying for all of you.

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I found it interesting to read about your garbage sorting routine (not a joke). I think it's a healthy sign actually. During extreme stress and anxiety provoking situations, one of the best things you can do is to embrace the mundane (like sorting garbage). And as I'm sure you know, also (if possible) getting enough sleep, food, hydration, sun light, and spend time with close ones – and avoid digging for evidence to support your worst fears, or find ways to rationalize/suppress your anxiety (just make it worse if you tell yourself "I shouldn't be afraid", for instance).

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Words of wisdom. Telling to myself "I shouldn't be afraid" or "I should calm down" never work.

The first 2 or 3 days were the hardest, i was terrified and distracted. It's 21th day already, air-raid sirenes don't make my blood run cold anymore. But this can be also a sign that the fear went down deeper. Well, very much hope things will change soon, to better

Thank you so much for your comment.

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I think that's pretty normal as well – humans are surprisingly malleable, and can get used to even the most extreme situations. I've never been in a war zone myself, but I've certainly experienced how voilence on a smaller scale can become normalized. You seem mentally strong (which is not to be confused with not being emotional), so I believe and hope that you will be able to transition to a normal life again, when the time comes. :)

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I think so. Today I am going to make a chicken soup, the first real cooking. Something not sandwitches or cheese or cookies. This is a good sign 😉 Hope my enthusiasm will not gone in an hour 🤞

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Chicken soup sounds delicious! 😋

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I don't tire of your news. It is REAL news - what is happening to the people. I look forward to seeing your posts, because I know you are still with us when I see one.

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The people doing V2K with remote neural monitoring want me to believe this lady @battleaxe is an operator. She is involved deeply with her group and @fyrstikken . Her discord is Battleaxe#1003. I cant prove she is the one directly doing the V2K and RNM. Doing it requires more than one person at the least. It cant be done alone. She cant prove she is not one of the ones doing it. I was drugged in my home covertly, it ended badly. They have tried to kill me and are still trying to kill me. I bet nobody does anything at all. Ask @battleaxe to prove it. I bet she wont. They want me to believe the V2K and RNM in me is being broadcast from her location. And what the fuck is "HOMELAND SECURITY" doing about this shit? I think stumbling over their own dicks maybe? Just like they did and are doing with the Havana Syndrome.

They are reckless and should have shown the proper media what they had before taking me hostage for 5 years.

What would you say while having a gun pointed at your head from an undisclosed location? Have people find it? My hands are tied while they play like children with a gun to my head. Its a terrorist act on American soil while some yawn and say its not real or Im a mental case. Many know its real. This is an ignored detrimental to humanity domestic threat. Ask informed soldiers in the American military what their oath is and tell them about the day you asked me why. Nobody has I guess. Maybe someone told ill informed soldiers they cant protect America from military leaders in control with ill intent. How do we protect locked up soldiers from telling the truth? https://ecency.com/fyrstikken/@fairandbalanced/i-am-the-only-motherfucker-on-the-internet-pointing-to-a-direct-source-for-voice-to-skull-electronic-terrorism

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No offence, but why aren't you trying to get away from there? Just curious...

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I am in prayer with God and the Virgin of Peace for you, that you respect everything that belongs to you and your lives, what you are suffering is very painful. May God take care of you and may this war end soon and may peace, love and respect reign everywhere in Ukraine and throughout the world.,❤️

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I am awestruck by the courage and determination of your refusal to flee, particularly in the face of an oncoming threat to occupy the city. I am also extremely grateful for your reporting of conditions there. Only wish there was something in my power to help.

Prayers and best wishes for your continued safety and well being, and all of your countrymen. From an American ally.

Blessed be.

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There are many of us who await your daily publication and we are not tired of your news. I am glad to read you day by day and to know that you continue to fight bravely.
I hope this nightmare ends soon!

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Good must win! I'm hoping this horrible period will end very soon and you can return to build your life back up again, slowly. I wish for you and for your family to reunite soon. I'm glad all of you are ok and still have strength to go on. I'm not sure how much you know about what's going on in the world outside Ukraine, but except a few countries, the whole world is working on finding a solution to stop the war.

Today I came home and found out there's no water. This is highly unusual as maintenance is announced in advance, so I knew there must be something big an unexpected. Then I thought how are those, who have been left with nothing living now. We tend to take everything for granted, that's the truth, but with this war we all had to rethink what we have and what we can lose.

Take care of yourself and try to stay strong. Also, please let me know if you need more financial support. Thinking of you every single day, every hour! ♥️🤗

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I'm not sure how much you know about what's going on in the world outside Ukraine

You feel it right, I know almost nothing. My friend from UK sometimes inform me. I watched BBC several times, but what they say makes me very sad, so I quit. So thank you for the update, and personally I very much hope that the rest of the world will help us to stop the war.

So what was wrong with your water provider? A kind of accident?

I'm making soup. I thought that if I'd lost electricity, all those food in my fridge will not be good for eating. And I decided to make a soup. I miss soup so much! And a home made food in general.

Also, please let me know if you need more financial support.

You are so nice, Erikah! Thank you for asking, I have no need so far, and I hope that it will be so in the future :) Take care, my dear! 🖤

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Cooking food at home will make you feel better, trust me. Especially that you haven't had a proper meal for so long. It can calm you and give you a little bit of comfort. I hope you liked it.

We had no water for 8 hours or so. Some workers broke a pipe and the damage was quite big. I had the plumber at my house twice as had to buy a new tap and with no water, there was no way to test it, so he had to come back as it was leaking. But this is nothing compared to what you are going through.

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Not in a million years I will be bored reading your posts and updates. Everyday and not just once, I check to see if you are all right and safe.
The other day I talked with my insurance broker and he told me the same, no insurance company covers damages caused by war. All those who lost their homes, everything, will need a lot of help to rebuild and get back to normal life.
The scenes on the news are heartbreaking. I only wish this to be over.
Sending !LUV
And hugs ❤

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Yes, this is what is called force majeure.

Thank you, dear Neli, and I'm sending you my virtual hug too! 🤗

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Friend, how have you been? I hope with all my heart that you are well. Kisses and blessings. Take care💗

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You and Yours are in every Prayer of mine!
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Not to worry - Please keep posting so we know
Your still OK!
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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Not tired of what you have to say - we need people like you to document so the world sees the truth - stay strong -

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@zirochka Що там у вас?

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Живем, звикаєм ) А як ви? Сподіваюсь, ви не з того боку? 🙏

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Ви хоча б просто виходьте на зв'язок і пишіть все ок. Бо переживаємо за вас? Ми вдома. В нас більше диверсанти працюють і ракетні удари дуже зрідка

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Намагаюсь писати, але деколи відчуття, що просто пусто на душі, і сказати нічого. Так чекаю хороших новин, всі ми чекаємо...

Бережіть себе!

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Те саме відчуття. І ви бережіть себе!

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Oh dear, still having you in my thoughts. Keep up with the circumstances. I hope things will change soon. Glad you keep updates.

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Thank you so much, dear!

!LUV

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Stay safe! We can see what is going on. There is reporters in the cities still. I pray politicians get their shit together asap. So long be brave and take reasonable decisions. I know it is hard but you managed already. I cannot give you what you need right now, I only have my thoughts. If there is anything you want to know or need, pls ask. Feel hugged!

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Presidents and prime ministers are trying to talk to this lunatic for weeks now and they won't give up. Sanctions against Russia are coming every day. This madness has to end soon. It's terrible what's happened to your grandparents, heartbreaking. I'm glad can stay home as you have a little bit of comfort. Take care of yourself and stay strong! ♥️🤗

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Presidents and prime ministers are trying to talk to this lunatic for weeks now and they won't give up.

And I wish they make it, but to say the truth, I don't believe he will listen. He no longer recognizes any rules, and I don't believe there is a diplimatic solution 😧 Don't believe but wish to be mistaken

!LUV
!BEER

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You're not far from the truth. He totally lost is and when one has nothing to lose (like him), becomes extremely dangerous. However, isolated as he is, no help is given to him, which at some point it will make him weak.

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You know, we, who didn't leave and stay in Kyiv, sometimes talk about what we will do after the victory. Yes, we don't say "after the war ends", but "after the victory". And it's like a ray of a peaceful life, or a dream, and one more reason to stay strong.

Thank you so much for your comments, you are my support! ❤🤗

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