Weekend-Engagement Week #167: Zero Seduction???

There isn't a single sexy or seductive bone in my body!

Since I was young, I have always been one of the boys. My best friend in elementary was a guy who I enjoyed playing basketball with. In high school, I also used to hangout mostly with guy friends. We talk about our favorite rock bands, anime and so on. I even remember helping some of them write letters or surprise the lady they were attracted to. They were too comfortable to be with and I'm quite sure they felt the same. So, even if there was an attraction at some point, we don't move further.


When I switched schools. I spent most of my time with female friends. There, I became their "Love Counselor" despite not having my own love life. I didn't really mind. not having one, though. It was by then that I realized I could be attracted to anyone, but there should be an emotional connection first. I didn't know if there was a name for that back then, but now it's actually called "demiromantic or demisexual".

old photo of bestie and me...

I met my male bestie in the last year of high school. He was such a dork and despite meeting for the first time, we became real close. I gradually started liking him then, but decided to just keep being his friend. I didn't tell him how I felt until it faded away. It's not because I wasn't attracted enough. I just didn't know how things work??? I mean, he was the touchy type of friend where we feel comfortable hugging each other and stuff. Maybe I was just scared that when we became more than friends and didn't work, I'd lose him forever. So, I set aside that attraction and did nothing. We continued being online game and anime buddies!


It's funny because when we became college students, he told me that he once had feelings for me in high school. He has gotten over it, though... just as I did.. and we find it cringe thinking about it now. It's plain incest!!! haha. He's my brother now and I wouldn't want it to be anything else.

stolen shot by one of my friends

I guess the first time I really liked someone was about 9 years ago. He's the person I had a "situationship" with. Despite liking him, I just enjoyed the emotional connection. Sure, we hugged at times and I feel the butterflies, but I don't know how to handle such situation. I guess I'm just so pure? (insert evil laugh here) lol


Imagine, we hang in my room most of the time, but nothing... Guess we just enjoyed each others company and were not sexually attracted. We just emotionally attacked each other for years. I'm just glad that that chapter of my life ended.

a photo he sent me before...

Next I met a guy online who I really had fun talking with. He's also from Japan just like the previous person I mentioned and he went to the Philippines to study for a month and also to meet me in person. I found him attractive and really fun. We had a connection but nothing romantic or sexual. There was just friendship... although there were times when we called each other BF and GF. I guess that was flirting? We sometimes talk about more intimate stuff, but kept it wholesome? (hahaha... am I just in denial or clueless?)


Anyway, we met again when he visited Cebu before the pandemic. He initially invited me to travel with him, but when his friends found out his plan of coming to the Philippines, they decided to go with him. He still wanted me to go, but I politely declined. I didn't like traveling with many people... He was a bit disappointed of me backing out, but he let it slide. His friends went back to Japan first and he stayed for another day, so we could hangout. He visited our house again and later on we went on a "date". Well, it's just the usual... shopping, eating, hanging around, going to the movies type of 'date'.


After that day, I realized that going on a friendly date is pretty much the same as having a romantic date with your special person. Well, minus the "I love you (s)" and the physical or sensual stuff?" (of course) So yeah! I'm not seductive, so it's impossible for me to seduce someone... and as for the opposite? I honestly don't know, either. Am I dense? Or am I not attractive enough to be seduced by someone??? hahaha... There were some point when I thought, "Wait... did he just try to seduce me?"


Flirting can be fun, but it's too tiring at times. So, I believe seducing or getting seduced would be too much! xD Maybe because I need to know the person better before I could act that way? Hopeless romantic much? Send help, please?

Oh well, I'm for being happily single forever. That friend I had a "date" with told me that both of us should just stay single and hangout whenever we can, instead. I wonder if this promise still applies, though. XD He hasn't been back to the Philippines since the pandemic, but I do enjoy being crazy with him.

Anyway, if you have some seduction tips or some *"judgment", please write on the comments. Am I hopeless? hahaha

See you around!!!!