Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

where is my life now? It wasn't always like this; I had better days and moments. I used to be so happy and carefree. I don't know what happened to me. I am still determining how I got here. But I'm not going to let this define me.

I'm going to find my way back to the person I was before.

It's not easy to go back to who you were. And it's challenging to figure out how to get there. But time, patience, and hard work will take you back there - because you're stronger than you think.

Dear Diary,

I don't know how to get there or see myself back there as I was before. But I know I'll find my way back because I'm better now.

I know you feel it—that feeling.
The one that doesn't stop tugging at your insides, no matter how hard you try to shake it off. It's like a storm inside you, and you won't let up.

It wants to rip out your insides and leave you bleeding out on the ground. So it tells you, "just give up," and don't bother trying to save yourself from the wreckage.

Every day, you're a little bit stronger. And every day, you feel a little more yourself. Yesterday was hard. But today, you're standing in the mirror and seeing someone new.

Today is a new opportunity to embrace your memories, stories, journeys, and the trials and tribulations that made you who you are. So go out there and find the person who was always in the building somewhere — find her again.

Dear Diary,

life is always beautiful and always was, but it suddenly got changed.

The past few months have been hard, and I don't know what to do anymore. Harder than before. More complicated than it's ever been. It could be because everyone else is so happy, and I'm not. I may be happy for them and accept my own happiness. But life was hard before, so why does it have to change? I feel like I'm suffocating.

Dear Diary,

I don't know what life is anymore. I know it's not the same anymore. That life is all beautiful and always was, but suddenly got changed, or maybe I did.⁣

I try to find the beauty in life, but it's so hard when it's not there when even my own world has turned into a nightmare.⁣

What am I supposed to do? Maybe one

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