Wake Me Up When the Pain is Finally Gone

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Hello beautiful Hivers. It's Monday, although it is already at Night, still Happy Monday y'all. I hope everything is okay at your end.

Anyways, we are at the 4th Week of HivePH contest. As for the theme or more like a question: What does wake me up when September ends mean to you?. This is my own interpretation of that line. For sure you are all familiar to that famous song of Green Day. It's one of my favorite actually.

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And here's my entry for this week's contest:

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"I Like You."

"Thank You."

"Is it okay of I like you?"

"It's your feelings, it's not like I can stop it?"

"Yeah, No. So, is it okay if I just like you? I am not expecting anything or what. I just want to like you."

"It's up to you?" It's your decision."

"Can I send a message to you to greet you Good Morning or about some nonsense stuffs,.?"

"I'm okay with that, but don't expect that I can reply always because I have work."

"I understand that off course. I won't expect anything. I just want to express my feelings tru this. I hope that's okay."

"It's your choice, so whatever you decide."

"Thank You (◍•ᴗ•◍)."

"You're welcome."

I know I said that I will just make him feel what I feel for him tru chatting with him everyday but, I never thought that it will be this tiring.

You know the feeling of when you are trying to convey your feeling to him but it is as if, he doesn't care. I know he is busy, he gave me a warning from the start but I never really thought that waiting on someone can be this tiresome. And I just discover that I am an impatience person.

I can feel his coldness, I thought I can even just get in his system. Like you know, like I can make him like me too. Just through my persistence and always present on his chat box. I also make sure that I let him feel how much I like him. I thought I am making a little progress on all of this. But, I guess I am not.

What we had that time is still the same to when we are just starting. There's no progress, no nothing, zero, nil, nada. I thought I successfully made him feel my real feelings for him but, why we're still the same to when we first started. He's replying to my message sure, but there's nothing in there. And I was in pain halfway through the process of it.

I thought, I can wait no matter how much longer it takes but, if it's you? Can you still wait for him even if you know to yourself that nothing is happening? Won't you feel tired? Or sick of all those specially if you remember those time you imagine that one day, your feeling will be reciprocated?

I even wished to just drop on the ground and sleep indefinitely just until I finally move on. And just wake up when I already accepted everything and the pain is already gone. But that is just a wish from a heartbroken woman. I'm just tired of feeling the pain over and over again that time.

I know it's my fault, and I know too that expecting that something will happen in the end is not right. But, I can't help it. Even if I know it's impossible I still hope that maybe, just a little bit - something will change. But I expected too much that when I finally realize it, I am already drowning on my own feelings for him. That is where I realize that you can't force anybody to like you just because you like them. It doesn't work that way.

So, I decided to end it. I want to move on. I don't want to hate him more because the truth is, even I know it's my fault, I can't stop myself from blaming him. But I know it is just a reason to really hate him. So I can finally move on. I also think that hating him will help me to move on. Well it did help me, in some ways, but it is not that easy.

I feel like shit because I really use that "hate" just to move on. Because to be honest, he is too good and too kind to be hated. He didn't do bad. It's not his fault that he can't reciprocate my feelings. I hated myself more because of those thoughts about him.

The process of moving on is not easy. But I did it. In the end I learn something on that experience, I learn something from him.


"Wake me up when September ends" to me is "Wake me up, when the pain is already gone." Meaning, You already move on and you finally let it go. You are ready to finally face the world again. With the new you and with a happy heart.

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Is this your own experience sis @ruffatotmeee? You really let the guy you have a feeling for him first? Yes, it is sad and its hurting when someone you like or love is so cold towards you. Parang maaawa ka sa sarili mo or yung mahihiya ka na lang.

P.S hahaha fiction lang pala to kasi nasa tag hehehe.. galing naman nito oh

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Hahaha no and yes? Charrr hahah. Yes fiction hehe. Liking someone can give you a great feeling of kilig, laging inspired pero iba na kapag umasa kana so just like them and never expect. I think liking them without them knowing it much much better. Para lang mapanatili yong kilig

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Hahahaha mga crush ko dati di nila alam na crush ko sila peru may isa na inamin ko sa kanya peru that time na inamin ko di ko na sya crush... sabi ko lang.. crush kita noon eh hahahaha

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Hahaha nakaya lang umamin nong lipas na ang feelings haha. Never ko nagawa sa personal ang ganito lelelel

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Let’s wake up sis when the pain is gone. I so feel you. And I wanna sing the Greenday song. Perhaps it is one of my favorites. Wake me up when September ends with the drums. Love you ruffa. A big hug.

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Yes, yong di kana malulungkot lagi
. Greenday is really a great band.

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Napakanta ako nito sis. So perfect ng song noh. I so love the band too.

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Why is this so painful??? Oh, emgee, Ruff, I feel an arrow pierced in my heart. Hmmm, if I was her, I will just move one and show him that I can forget him. Oh, well. We cannot force someone to reciprocate the feeling. Nice post!

!PIZZA

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Hehehe same with me. Moving on is the best thing to do thsn to hope snd wish that something will happen kapag nag antay. Sa movie lang nangyayari yan.

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OMG road to 9K ┌|o^▽^o|┘♪ thank you, hehe.

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Eh, meron palang ganitong challenge may link ka ba sa details? Haha..

Sakin wake me up when bear market ends, ang sakit na.. pero pinakamsakit halos na sold na mga hold 🤣🤣🤣 pwedi e restart ang 2022?🤣

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Because to be honest, he is too good and too kind to be hated. He didn't do bad.

From my perspective he is rude. Though initially he mentioned na he cannot reply due to his work lame excuse nalang yan eh. Pa fall si kuya mo and he is giving signals to go ahead and pursue him pero kahit anong gawin mo wala parin ikaw mapapala.

Yeah GG ako sa mga ganyan. I mean, ang dali naman sabihin na do not waste time on him as he is not interested ganun tapos. Sasabihin pa na busy sa work, dinamay pa ang trabaho. WAG GANUN.

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You think so? I don't know ha, pero he didn't promise anything naman and maybe he is just replying to the girl out of kindness? Not sure haha but whatever hahahs.

Hmmm, if walang balak nong una palang sana di na nag a okay, ganon? Sabagay nga no, maybe ayaw lang makasakit? Hahaha

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If i where the girl in this fiction story, then maybe I would be brave to let him realize that I can move on and without him. I've seen this in some series amd hindi malabo na nagyare nadin to sa totoong buhay, maybe

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Well kahit naman di sabihin for sure he already knows na specially if di na din ganon kadalas magparamdam?

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That is where I realize that you can't force anybody to like you just because you like them. It doesn't work that way.

This is so true. 💯
It's the truth and it hurts.
I was also once in this situation and I think many people can relate.
At the end of the day, protect yourself and protect your happiness, ruff.
Waiting is fine because sometimes the people who waited will be granted their wish, but you also need to check for signs if waiting will really change something.
Some people are better off as friends.
If he doesn't feel an ounce of desire to want you, then it's time to move on.

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Luhhh, bat happiness ko, lagi naman akong happy ahahaha charree I sound so defensive here no lelelelel.

It's better off as friend pero if it's me it's better if wala nalang paki sa isa't isa. That way mas madali ang mag move on. Some kasi di kaya na maging friend pa talaga dun sa taong gusto nila. Pwd pero maybe after mag heal.

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I am in pain while reading your article ate Ruffa! Sobra naman siyang mapanakit, but by the way you never deserved to be treated like that, because you are precious and you deserve much better who will give you assurance and love that you don't need to ask for in the first place.
Kahit fiction lang eto ate mapanakit talaga hehehehe.

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Mapanakit oo, but it's actually thr girls fault din I think na masyado syang umasa even though una palang nilinaw and may warning na, diba? I mean, sana una palang tumigil na sya? Something like that.

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Aigooooo ansakit naman ng artikul na ituuu anjan pa din ba ung pain?? pain of pangignilo ganun charrrr

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I know he is busy, he gave me a warning from the start but I never really thought that waiting on someone can be this tiresome.

Never expect kasi to be always the center of the universe, hindi lang naman sayo umiikot yung mundo nung tao. Binigyan ka na nga permission mag dm kahit abala ka. Be considerate na lang na iba priorities niya kesa sayo. But bottom line lang talaga nun ay di ka niya type, yun lang yun.

ay teka, supposed to be sad story to pero natatawa ako habang binabasa ko. Familiar yun story eh, parang yung sa kakilala natin, tama ba ako?😆

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BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA hoii 👀 hahaha. Pero tama naman talaga ee diba, makuntento ka kasiiii. Kapag wala talaga move on na. Dami dami pa kasing hanash ahaha. Hindi laging nadadala sa persistence. Need din ng linaw ng isip at baka nag mumukha ng tenge, tenge nga ba ? Hahahaha goiii enebeee fiction lang tuuu hahahaha

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Kunwari pa to. At least, may move on at lesson learned sa ending mo.

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A !PIZZA can sometimes ease away difficult feelings that we have to deal with. Life lessons... 😌 Good that you are mature enough to end the situation. Sometimes, too, closing a door leads you to another door of opportunity. Or maybe, just go through the window. 😆

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Yayyy, sankyuuuu! Pizza is my favorite. Yep, it's just that I saw that there is no future at all. So better just go through the window and jump, not to die but to live a happy with peaceful mind. Hihi

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