This too Shall Pass...

I never like to discuss about my sickness, I don't like to talk about it because I feel everybody has some health issue more or less. Anyway, from yesterday I am in huge pain and I was feeling like my body was not moving or was not ready to move. Because of pain, my body felt like a stone. It started with leg-muscle pain, I don't know how to describe the entire situation but I felt like someone tied a stone on both legs. I discovered this when I woke up and thought this was temporary, it will go away. Anyway, I am taking medicine, if the condition doesn't improve today, I will visit the doctor. I think this is muscle stiffness but I am not sure...

Anyway, when I feel sick or I am in some kind of physical or mental pain, I start breaking down mentally. I don't know why but whenever I become sick, I just feel worst mentally. Because my last disease is still with me and will be with me forever. There is no exact cure and it's hard to explain people. People just don't understand or many things this pain will go away with the help of medicine. It goes away but slowly after giving so much pain...

Trust me, I try to be brave, strong, maybe I am but considering some specific cases I am weak and I don't deny that. When I cry or feel sad, I just stay alone. If I try to imagine the overall situation I can say, when I feel low, I start building a glass shell around me and keep me inside like a snail... LOL... I wish I could explain how it feels when I am in pain. I don't cry but my soul cry hard but I smile because I always think -

This too Shall Pass...

Many moments of my life were worst, there were hard times, dark moments and I broke down completely. But one thing I have learned observing the pattern of my life, it is no matter how much I broke down, I recreate and rebuild everything. No, I don't use superglue to glue the broken pieces, I start building from zero.

Because I know this is not the end, there is more... The death of my mother taught me many lessons. My fear, my sadness, my dark sides every side left a lesson for me for the future...In fact, I saw death closely so I don't have any fear anymore...

I have heard that it's easy to manipulate an individual if he/she is suffering from mental illness or psychological issues. When I was dealing with a psychological issue after my mom's death, people tried to take advantages and they took. An enemy became friends and poisoned my entire family because my family was broken. Some showed sympathy and some left because of the fear of uncertainty. Perhaps they were thinking that they might have to take the responsibilities of two girls by chance...

My physical pain is nothing according to those mental pains... People are selfish and they will remain selfish. If you are happy they will envy you if you are broken they will laugh at you, if you are a failure they will taunt you and if you are a successful individual they will show jealousy...

This is life, the cycle of life, there will be happiness and sadness, there will be both dark and bright sides. After seeing my entire cycle of life, I just feel that I am living on the basis of one thing... That is Hope, in the hope of a bright future, in the hope of a beautiful happy life...

This pain is temporary and this dark day is also will go away...

My thoughts might be delusional, my thoughts might be confusing... I live in both an imaginary and realistic world but I choose always where I want to spend each moment of my life perfectly. If I wanna spend my 1 min into an imaginary world, there is nothing wrong. The world is so realistic and cruel but it is beautiful too...

^{I can't be calculative, it's a fail project...}

" I saw the waves of the vast sea...
I felt the mesmerizing cool breeze,
I heard the chirping of singing birds,
And I walked on the soft sand of the beach; barefoot...

But in reality...
I found myself lying on the couch
And staring at the white ceiling... "

LOL...

Love

Priyan

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