Things Will Never Be The Same Now: Everything Is Temporary

My childhood days were equipped and full-packed of memories of my grandparents. I'm a grandchild who is very close to her grandparents, both sides actually. That's why losing them one by one is such a tough challenge to me. It is severely heartbreaking. The last few moments I had with Grandma were not so good. Those days were very stressful and emotionally exhausting. We both didn't want to be put in such a difficult situation but we still chose each other no matter what.

The House We Are About to Abandon

If before, I was always excited to visit the city where my grandparents lived, now, it feels like I'm being stabbed in my heart whenever I land in the city. A bittersweet feeling, I should say. All the memories I had in that city were very precious. But the thought of not seeing them anymore, and everything left as memories pains me a lot. Well, that's reality. We're all gonna die. We're all gonna reach to that day we have feared so much. It made me realize a lot about life.

So I'm sharing with you some photos of the house that I took. The house really feels empty and gloomy now that it is about to be abandoned. I'm sad right now, I can't help it but that's life. We need to keep moving forward. But if there's one thing I'm grateful for, it is to relive the memories I had with them in my mind countless times. That's why it made me realize how valuable it is to spend time with your loved ones and create good memories with them. Those things that you may find ordinary at the moment become extra special when someone leaves.

This house used to be so pleasant and lively. My grandparents have maintained its order and cleanliness while they're still living in that house. Too bad, we had to leave last August 8, 2023, because it's out for sale. From then on, just months passed, and the grasses in the yard have grown relentlessly. We had to double our time in cleaning when we last had our vigil for Grandma 2 weeks ago.

The Bookshelves and The Memories Behind Them

I have so many fond memories behind this portion of the house. This was where we learned many stories from the Bible, general knowledge, science books, and fiction pocketbooks. I must say, we are a family of bookworms and that explains the photo a lot.

Baby, Family, and Graduation Photos

This corner of the house is where I feel nostalgic the most. I can't hide but feel sad especially now that the OGs are gone. But then again, like I said, it's nice to have pictures with us because you can always go back to the memories behind them. Oh, how precious they have become when you treasure them at most now.

The Living Room

It pains me to know that we'll never get to decorate the house like this. As time passed by, especially when Grandma lost Grandpa, she showed less excitement during Christmas because it was after New Year when Grandpa died. And so, the memories that lingered with her were painful.

The Last Photo I Had That They Were Together

This was taken last December 2019. Sunny was with my grandparents in that photo. She was still a puppy. That photo was just so random. It was a perfect shot that I had to take because it was so cute. I had no idea that could be my grandpa's last.

Everything is so painful. I apologize my dear readers. This blog is full of grief. I couldn't handle the pain if I didn't express it. Things are slowly moving forward and I can't imagine what's going to happen in the future. It's making me anxious.

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So I guess that's it for today's blog. I just came here to create and publish this. I have so many things to do at work, I need to catch up with my absences. So, you guys should take care!