The Quiet Lessons December Brings

Though some people usually say that December is just like the rest of the other months, but for me, there is something about this month of the year that always makes me sit in my room for a moment and take a deep reflection quietly on how I am really doing sp far. This time of the year does that to me often, because it is always as if that feeling usually come for me to count my blessings, my loss and be grateful for all my wins.

Now, as I sit to write on this prompt and take a recap on what has happened so far this year, things did not really go as I planned it but I learned a lot of things from everything that has happened. One of the major things that I got to learn from learning how to breathe again....yeah, not the usual breathing where we breathe in and out. That I am talking about learning how to take a pause, not putting too much pressure on myself to much and prioritising my peace of mind and learning to choose myself first above anything else. I used to be the type that goes all in for people and tells them yes to everything. But over time, I have learned how to politely decline what I do not want without feeling remorseful. And to be honest, that alone has felt incredibly awesome, like moving out from something unseen.

Yes, another incredible thing has been consistency. Consistency is not easy, but I told myself that if I want to move to the next stage, I need to be consistent with what I do and achieve my goal. To be honest, even on the days that I had no motivation, emotional down rough days, and pressure here and there, I still kept things moving. And this little thing really affected me in a positive way because I saw myself in a different way.

And there were a lot of small, small wins here and there. Having some savings, spending time with some old buddies from way back, moving on from a disappointment that I never thought I could overcome, and then embracing the fact that I need to take a pause at some time and that rushing always will not solve the problem.

And as the last month of this year is slowly winding up with just a few days left, I have told myself that I will never rush anything again, and that I will always do my things with calm expectations. Because at this point in my life, I want I clarity. A clear path, a clear mind, a clear plan and a clear understanding of what and who im becoming and if disappointment comes, it is fine, and if succes and blessing comes, thar is fine too. Life is about the lessons and the wins.

And like I usually say, no matter what happens, I will always remain grateful, and that is how it will always be for me because I want to end this year with a grateful heart, not regret. Grateful in the sense that I have survived all the challenges that comes my way, this year will end on a good note and grateful for the year that is coming because it is filled with hope, wiser me, and more grounded on my goals.

So like I said earlier, this month is when I take a look at the past and I count my blessings even though the storm rages.

Thank you for reading.

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