Running Out Of Myself, Seriously In Deep Sorrow.

It has been a cosine to me today, that after helping and taking care of someone that same person remains ungrateful, I have lost my peace since I heard what that person said behind me, it makes me feel depressed throughout yesterday through this morning couldn't sleep at night just thinking how someone one is trying to help is turning around to destroy peace, you know when one is depressed he loses some qualities in his or her life, as am writing now it is with pain in my heart, this has been going on for some time now and its peace me up.

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I have been taking care of my stepmom since after the death of my dad now, though she has been very ill for over a year, after all, the struggling to make sure she is okay but she will turn back and manipulate the rest of my siblings to the point were we will start fighting each to the point that four of us are not in good time with each other.

This has been a serious pain in my ass and has affected the things around my life and family negatively, I am in a dilemma right now, so many questions in my heart, trying to harmonize things in the house. What should I do with that woman? Knowing that she is old and has no children but is very cunning, each time I try to help it turns to hurt me.

She has been there for me since childhood, my mom left me when I was still an infant, and she has been the one that has practically raised me, but it was hell while coming up, that will be for another day.

Before the demise of my dad, he pleaded with me to please come back home because while he was still sick I and my wife took care of him after his last breath. After all, my older brother has been at home with him but can't take care of him, sometimes he will stay for like few days without bathing and my dad will pup on his body with no one to clean him up, sometimes he will travel and lived home for days I need to come home to take care of him sometimes I sent my wife before we decided to come over, myself and my wife took it has a privilege taking care of him, my dad said to me that if we live my oldest brother at home he will end up selling the land because my mom's sister did something like that, those were his words before he died.

My biological mother is not helpful at all because she has not been with my father for over twenty years, I don't know I only feel hate toward her because of her inpatient lifestyle, and that has caused a lot of harm to the four of us, my stepmom has no child for my dad but she is very cunning on how to win his heart, now the fire is my house is affecting everything I do, I should say I only short myself in my room to avoid everyone around, my stepmom is my problems now because she my father favorite and I don't want her to suffer because she has no child, this alone is the biggest pain in my heart.

Thanks for your time