“Personal Log, Stardate 9.13.16” (from this day 3 yrs ago, and odd synchronicity)
The day was Tuesday, I found I was a morass of conflicting emotions.
I’d had some news, that was on one front surprising and
Both uplifting and confusing.
On the other front, the second bit of news was also surprising
And both Depressing and confusing.
After six years of struggling, should I accept what I got and be
Happy?
Or should I ‘disagree and appeal’ meaning even more years of my
Life spent in struggle with “THE SYSTEM”.
I had barely turned on my computer that day. I got up for a
While, then went back to bed, and I was tempted to go back
There once more.
I had some friends who want me to come out that night, to
Share in the frivolity, but would have I just been a wet blanket? OR
Would that have helped to ‘divert’ me out of that rut?
I hate depression.
I hate being paralyzed, in a rut not
Knowing what to do.
“Personal Log, Stardate 9.13.16”
by
Jerry E Smith
©9/13/16
addendum and explanation:
On this day three years ago, I'd received word that my long sought after disability from the VA
(I had two claims, one for my hearing, the one that EVERYONE said I should have gotten almost without trying,)
and one for "residuals from a broken nose".
The "Former" (hearing) was denied, the Latter (broken nose) was approved at 10% service connected.
That meant I'd get $140 per month, only.
If I had appealed the hearing denial, I may now have a disability payment from that,
but because I was so excited to have that $140 a month,
(plus 3 yrs of back pay on it)
and I did NOT file an appeal within the time limit, and
lost that possible increase of income.
Live and Learn
source
These .gifs were created for me by @coquiunlimited; many thanks
This .gif was created by @elgeko
I’d had some news, that was on one front surprising and
Both uplifting and confusing.
On the other front, the second bit of news was also surprising
And both Depressing and confusing.
After six years of struggling, should I accept what I got and be
Happy?
Or should I ‘disagree and appeal’ meaning even more years of my
Life spent in struggle with “THE SYSTEM”.
I had barely turned on my computer that day. I got up for a
While, then went back to bed, and I was tempted to go back
There once more.
I had some friends who want me to come out that night, to
Share in the frivolity, but would have I just been a wet blanket? OR
Would that have helped to ‘divert’ me out of that rut?
I hate depression.
I hate being paralyzed, in a rut not
Knowing what to do.
“Personal Log, Stardate 9.13.16”
by
Jerry E Smith
©9/13/16
addendum and explanation:
On this day three years ago, I'd received word that my long sought after disability from the VA
(I had two claims, one for my hearing, the one that EVERYONE said I should have gotten almost without trying,)
and one for "residuals from a broken nose".
The "Former" (hearing) was denied, the Latter (broken nose) was approved at 10% service connected.
That meant I'd get $140 per month, only.
If I had appealed the hearing denial, I may now have a disability payment from that,
but because I was so excited to have that $140 a month,
(plus 3 yrs of back pay on it)
and I did NOT file an appeal within the time limit, and
lost that possible increase of income.
Live and Learn
source
These .gifs were created for me by @coquiunlimited; many thanks
This .gif was created by @elgeko