RE: My Doctors are trying to kill me

I cannot tell you what to do but I can encourage you to put your mind and your physical body in harmony and in balance.
Illnesses of the body are a product (in large part) of the weaknesses of our mind and our spiritual deficiencies.
Medications should be gradually reduced (as you say) but your mind should be aware that it is for the well-being of your body. When you can achieve this axiom you will be able to help yourself fully.