I started to study in March 2018, and had prior to that worked as a full time freelancer for several years. That transition, to go from being my own boss and working my own hours and going back to school was extreme. Not only did my financial situation change dramatically. I wasn't used to study what others told, and I wasn't used to being told what to do...
I am now an assistant nurse specialized in psychiatry, and I finished school with well-above average grades. I graduated last thursday and during friday, when I had been "unemployed" for about 17 hours after leaving school, I received a phone call.
They called me from the psychiatry department I did my APL at, (workplace-based learning that is included in the education), and they asked me if I were interested in a full time job. They were in need of a psychiatric nurse, or an assistant nurse specialized in psychiatry from January 2020, and they called me. Me.
I obviously told them that I was interested and we'll have a meeting in the beginning of 2020 to discuss salary, work hours etc.
They called me, and I didn't even apply for a job. They called me because I had done a great job and I obviously had an impact when I was there the first time. That is obviously an amazing confidence boost and it's also extremely uplifting and equally important for my self esteem.
You see, none of this was easy for me and I had more than a handful of moments where I was inches away from throwing in the towel. I have fought for several years with my mental health. I have fought my inner demons and I have been knee-deep in shit several times, but I have never given up. Despite me being one foot out on the street multiple times, I clenched my fists and kept holding on to my dreams and my goals. I promised myself to hold on to it until my very last breath, no matter what...
- And I did.
This is one of my favorite quotes of all times:
“Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!”
― Sylvester Stallone, Rocky Balboa
I am proud to say that I continued to move forward despite having literally all the odds against me. I had no income at all during the last 3.5 months, and everyone has bills to pay. I've struggled with a shit ton of anxiety and I've been stressed out for various reasons during my education, but I stood there last week shaking hands with teachers when I received my Diploma.
I am now one step closer to my goal in life, and December has given me some of my happiest moments in several years.