"Power House Creative Contest": Why you choose to live?

Hi, hello the old me. Isn't it funny that I'm thinking of you while I'm writing this. I imagine that both of us facing each other. It's fine because I used to talk myself alone.

Did you know that @zord189 is hosting a contest? It's about writing my old self, I think you don't mind reading my letter for you, right? I wanted to write you a letter long time ago. I just want you to know that because of your decision from before. I have regrets in life why I'm still here stuck in this kind of life. If I have regrets, I have happiness to share to you also that I should be thankful to you.

You don't mind reading it, right? Okay here I go...

If I became smart like this according to the people's words right now. Why you never showed to the people before, especially your classmates? That's why I experienced bullying because you didn't take studies seriously during highachool days. You remained quiet like there's nothing happened at all. Even though my classmates laughed at you, you chose to ignore it.

You had experience agony during younger days but you chose to ignore it. You did ignored it but yourself couldn't deny about the pain you felt. You couldn't ignore that everytime you went home from school you cried. Why I never became a brave person when I was young. That was the reason that they always making fun of you. Did you know that even in my age like now. I still wanted to enjoy my life because I haven't enjoyed it that much when I was young.

Yes, I know, I knew it all along that even if you encountered pain too much. I still chose to smile to the people who were dear to you. You knew that your classmates were laughing at you when you pariticipated some school activities. You knew that they underestimated you when you joined the dance contest. You knew it very well but you still chose to participate and showed to the people that you were happy. You chose to ignore it because what's important to you was the reason to make yourself happy sometimes. You never regretted it because that was one of the reasons that your highschool days was fun.

I'm not being biased here because I told you also that it made me happy despite from the bad experience in my life. What if I'm going to ask you right now? This question will kind of emotional as I am thinking how's my life before. This make's me ask you now just to compare how my life turned to be opposite just like before. Did you know that I chose to isolate myself from many people but they chose to be with me most of the time. They never tried of making fun of me because they're afraid of what I will do to them in return. That's why I'm going to ask you now, "WHY YOU CHOSE TO LIVE?"

It might be nonsense to ask you with this kind of question. It's nonsense because I already knew the answer. You chose to live and enjoyed life because you value the small things that made you happy, right? I knew that those pain you felt were just part of your life that made me stronger the present me now. I knew it that if you haven't experienced those pain's I won't be calm and kind person like now.

To tell you the truth I didn't blame you of what kind of attitude you had before. Maybe just a little regrets because there were many things I wanted to enjoy I did not. I understand that you did not want to be a bad person like those people who bullies. Sorry for telling you my regrets, you also knew me. There were times that I became emotional and sometimes thinking that why I am like this. Before my letter will end, I want you to know that all you endured not to be bad is worth it.

You the old me, and me the present is almost the same. There might some changes because people will grow but don't worry I didn't become a bad person and I have no plans to be a bad person. Now, rest assured and leave the present life to me. I can handle it with confidence that no one should be bullied. I will be a protector if I'll see someone being bullied. I'm braver now, stronger and smarter. But still I chose to live with my own dreams that's why I called myself mrnightmare.

thank you for reading

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