Inner Dark Work, April 14th 2022

Some self-work to process internal dark thoughts...

To sit in a blank space uninterrupted by the daily scruples demanded of you and seriously face the internal darkness inside is a necessity for me now. Balancing precariously upon the precipice while a deep abyss yawns up at you, beckoning, is not a sustainable position to remain in.

So I sit down away from abyssal oblivion, I'm aware that the first step has been taken in reclaiming self-control so I'm no longer being trapped inside a stasis where fate is awaited to befall upon me. Unconsciously realized it's untenable when you're already in a painfully fallen state.

I distilled the quagmire of my polluted soul's muck of negativity by a process of inner working through darkness and am rewarded with a precious, simple truth: my greatest fear is that the immense amount of investigative efforts and energies I've expended in the last 2, 3, 4, 5 years ends up wasted.

Wasted because the grandiloquence of my plans that pushed the intensity of superhuman effort I spent in amassing all that knowledge through endless investigations could ultimately be the process that causes my complete collapse. It'd be such a waste, such a loss for my original altruistic intents that I wouldn't know what to do after the entirety of all my efforts (despite good-willed intentions) would be my Achilles Heel. Tailored and bespoke to me, to strike me down thusly - would I end with a permanent limp, walk again or muster the will to want to?

Payday Monsanto - Naked Truth

https://sonichits.com/video/Payday_Monsanto/Naked_Truth

Payday Monsanto's lyrics focus on controversial issues in geopolitics and social architects who've hoodwinked into beLIEving they are "free". The views expressed in his lyrics are largely commentary on issues such as class warfare, poverty, organized religion, institutional racism and the intended systematic usurpation of the world, by means of Usury and other machinations.
Payday Monsanto's uncompromising stance on political issues and biting social commentary have both aided and hindered his quest to bring solid music and messages to the masses with "radical" material that goes against the grain of commercial hip-pop by providing content of substance, touching on subjects ranging from war, police brutality, the looting of the middle-class, Israeli control of US policy (foreign and otherwise), the Money Addict's unrelenting push to demonize and illegally invade nations refusing to submit to the agenda of One World Government/Army/Religion, etc.
He is a Poet, Political Activist and Hip Hop artist who has had several major label contracts in his hand. He has never signed any of them for the following: A; the standard record contract gives an artist 12-18 percent from every unit they sell, AND retains rights to your music (exclusively) or B; Once a greater amount of his catalog was received and the political content discovered there was and immediate excommunication from their church of Genocide Rap

Conclusion

Force a time in each day where you be thankful for something. Today I am thank for the liquor store attendant and other boomer-aged customer who engaged in conversation with me; pleasantries, wisecracks and their intent to include me in their normalcy. I was unmasked, they were both masked and it didn't matter!

All images in this post were photographed and edited by @aagabriel