I hope 2020 will be a better year

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If you have been following my posts for some time now, then you may have noticed that other than my usual @appics posts, I have not been really posting much this past few days. I have not been feeling well emotionally, and to be honest, I still feel a bit off of late. I am trying my very best to center myself and to have a more stable footing. Watching 'Friends' on Netflix is helping, but other than that, it is becoming difficult for me to really smile. The harsh reality of life mixed with pure mishaps, disasters, and accidents is taking much toll on me, my mental health, and my family.

I was ill, caught a really bad doze of colds, that turned to flu a few months ago. And for the very first time, I panicked. I felt like I was really going to die. I am usually composed when I get sick, but this time around, I was really panicking. I was hyperventilating, my temperature was very high, and asked my partner to rush me to the hospital for treatment. I think I was out sick for an entire week. Good thing, we had the long holiday so I was not really out of the office that long. I was diagnosed with systemic viral infection, and I was told to just rest and let my body heal itself. I felt much better after a few days. A good dose of rest and antibiotics can really make wonders.

But that's not just it, 2019 has not really been kind to my family and some close friends, and to be quite frank, I cannot wait for it to end. Although, my health turned out to be okay, and I healed in just a few days; two of my favourite people were recently diagnosed with critical illnesses. Finding out about their condition made me feel frustrated, anger and sad. I also felt that sense of lost and defeat since we really cannot do anything other than to let time run its course.

Although, they are both fighting their conditions bravely. Because both of them are important to me, I feel sad that I can't really do much to help other than to be there for them. I honestly want them to be better in no time.

I hope that 2020 will be brighter for all of us. All I can do now is to be stronger for them both, and to look forward the coming new year with hope and trust that things will be better.