Intuition. Rhythm, and Blues.

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I'VE NEVER WRITTEN LIKE THIS BEFORE

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This post is going to seem out of context and out of the blue, but I haven't made a post since January and have been wanting to get back to writing so badly, but it's always that first one after a long hiatus that is the hardest for me. So with all these thoughts on my mind today I said "Fuck it" and opened up Peakd to pour it all out.

Once the writing starts each post gets that much easier, until I am back to my regular flow again.


My posts are viewed better in PeakD < -- click to view this post there


Officially my first post on HIVE, as soon as I learned about the fork I never posted or commented on Steem again. Actually my last power down is happening now and I've transferred all my SBI from STEEM over to here as well.

This post is very personal and it's written as if directed to someone specific, but it also could be written as general advice to anyone.

It's about my "Woman's Intuition" and how it's interfering with a new casual relationship between myself and this new guy I've been seeing.

Yeah, and recently I broke up from a relationship of 13 years o_o



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What have I been up to?!


Games and Gambles:

  • Splinterlands - Because, of course!!
  • dcity - Expensive but I am addicted to buying new cards just to see what I'll get.. what can I say, I'm a gacha girl!
  • dominuus but I'm not really supposed to talk about it... 😨

New and Coming Soon:

I've started the world of flight simulation, even going so far as joining the online networks where ATC and pilots work together to role play an authentic(ish) experience.. My big attraction is the ATC side too, but I will dive in and start talking to you about it all very soon, stay tuned and be sure to follow me :)


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Intuition, an uncontrollable nightmare

Now, where was I? 🙊

Right. Intuition.

It's like an ignition that turns on and drives itself into a crash.

It comes to me - why don't I ever have to find it?
I don't need to think, I even try to say it's a lie. It still comes by to tell me "I told ya so!"

This makes me wonder.. Are other woman really so dumb?.. Either they have been so dumb that guys think they are smart, or they are trying to protect themselves by pretending to be dumb so they can win the guy or whatever they think they can accomplish with that..

But guys.. When a girl says that all she cares about is honesty and being care free and open..

Then she hints again one day that she really doesn't care about the "what" or "why", just that what she gets told is 100% true.. that's the cue that dude, she's on to you so maybe you're getting another chance to start telling the truth..

Because it always starts with a fib, and the fibs start to grow.

Here's the other thing..

Even if nothing shady is going on, as soon as you lie, the lie makes the entire thing shady.

You only tell a lie because you feel there is a reason you shouldn't tell the truth.. Yet you are the one imagining that reason, for a reason, no?

That's the problem I have with lieing.

As soon as you tell someone the first white lie, no mstter how small, the same of credibility gets lost.

Up until that moment I had no reason to wonder if what you said is really what you planned to do. Again it's so easy to think that it's about what you'll do - because a lot of girls really do - but I've tried to tell you how important honesty is and I know your lies are because you think you're saving me from something..

But if you actually believe that I believe you (ya, just like everyone believed we weren't sleeping together too ;) ) then my dude you better get a clue.

She's the one who can't handle you being with me.. Remember every time we would get up to leave her place how quick she would turn into anger, obviously about you leaving with me, seconds after treating me so sweetly the entire time we were there?


Monogamy is not me and I try to explain this to men but they think I am lieing to them. Ok, you may have a great 🥒 but what purpose would lieing about something like that serve for me? Why would it be worthwhile to pretend not being jealous? Especially after the courtship phase has long been over?

Lieing makes it a possibility you think I should be jealous, so you keep it from me.. You see where that might actually give me a reason to be?

Well, I can't be, because I know you'll be back to my arms eventually but my worry is how long until she makes it a problem and then you'll feel like you have to choose between...

Sadly, the told ya so will again be telling me, we both know you're too scared to tell her you choose me.. So I get to hear the lame excuses you think I'm going to believe.


This all could have been avoided if you just had been honest with me. Or straight up brave enough to tell her to move on or accept me. Why does she get to come back, I was strong enough to keep my ex-asshole away.. Come on babe, stop BS'in me.

💋 «[Kharma♪Scribbles]» 💋



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