There's a lot of information to take in, and a lot of it uses context-specific terms, so I gather it will take quite the while to grasp just the basics.
I'm absolutely grateful for this new perspective, granted, I'm not going to lie, I still don't quite entirely grasp the implications.
I could share the bodygraph if you'd be curious to have a look at it. I could really use some perspective, as to which way to start digging first.
..agh, here, again, xD I don't know how to approach people gently, I feel like even if I put all the "no pressure, feel free to say no" disclaimers, it doesn't do the trick for people and they feel the pressure anyway, just by me showing up. This is going to be tricky, isn't it?
Well, I knew people were afraid of me, but it never occurred to me to what level or degree. As for the anger.. oh boy. From an early age, I've known the anger as the non-me, but even as I've avoided it as a plague, it still haunts me.. in people, environments, and situations around me and it IS my responsibility, I knew it.
I could ramble on, sorry, but got to get busy.. :D Cause you, know, someone has to do stuff around here. :D :D
Yep, there's alot alright. It took me three years before I was even able to approach it!
Re: grasping the implications... I have the sense that there are layers upon layers upon layers that unfold over the years of going deeper. I'm not even one of seven years into my first round of reconditioning, so couldn't even pretend to know the full implications - though have gotten enough to pique my curiosity to go a bit further, which then opens a bit more, and so on, and so on.
..agh, here, again, xD I don't know how to approach people gently, I feel like even if I put all the "no pressure, feel free to say no" disclaimers, it doesn't do the trick for people and they feel the pressure anyway, just by me showing up. This is going to be tricky, isn't it?
Is this in particular to the Manifestor type you're referring to, and finding it a challenge that has said to be common to Manifestors? I'm guessing so, though not entire certain as have tended to focus more on my personal design rather than learning the details of all the types, and although do have part of that in my Manifesting Generator, don't recall the specific of the Manifestor as has been a while since was learning that.
To offer something of an answer - or really, more just a perspective or possibility...
As cliche as it gets, the matter probably comes back to one of Strategy & Authority.If you're following S&A correctly, I imagine you'd be guided to speak to certain people in certain ways at certain times, such that you wouldn't run into those problems as much - versus if not following your correctness, you'd be more likely to rush that energy inappropriately and thus potentially blow people out because it wasn't the right timing or approach.
If you like, you could share your bodygraph. I'm far from a pro, though might be able to offer at least a few more basic insights if desired...
This is the picture that was used to illustrate how people feel around Manifestors, so that's where informing comes into the picture, so that others can at least get out of the way if not rally behind. So that's why we're scary and intimidating, cause we can easily bulldoze over people's energies and not even notice that if we're not attuned to what is going on.
That's from this one (on the longer side, but quite interesting about all the communication dynamics):
This is me:
p.s. I think I "accidentally" bulldozed someone just today, knocking them way out of the park.. I mean I tried not to..
One major point that sticks out in relation to all that: the defined emotional center.
Thus, following Emotional Authority -making decisions and acting from emotional clarity - is certainly critically important.
If you weren’t, instead bulldozing ahead from either the height of an emotional peak or intensity of a low, that could definitely be a lot for some to handle.
Especially with the 12-22 channel, which is highly passionate. (I’ve got that one, too. Excellent source for creativity and the emotional depth that fuels it. Could come across as somewhat “bi-polar” and unstable if not properly understood and worked with responsibly.)
Also curious how the 45 would play in - Gate of the Queen... definitely good if operating in the higher octaves, as use that energy and resource for the benefit of our tribe; though if not fully aligned and following S&A correctly, I’d imagine there could be times the lower octaves of that Queen energy might come across as the domineering Queen - especially in combo with the 10, which is highly individualistic. (I could be wrong on that.)
A few good perspectives on Emotional Authority, as that is certainly one of your biggest keys... ;-)
I actually.. if something feels uber extra important to me emotionally, I have on several occasions (mostly relationship-related) observed that my solar plexus quite physically goes into overdrive, sending jolts of shockwaves throughout the body. I've always been curious about that phenomenon and now it makes total sense. But now I see that that also means that I have to step back, despite the "Just do it" mentality of a Manifestor.
Could come across as somewhat “bi-polar” and unstable if not properly understood and worked with responsibly.
Oh, yes, such words have been thrown around here and there.
Ok, well, new day new insights. And I haven't even read your latest.. will do that after work.
Oh, damn. Is there a way to salvage unnecessarily rushed situations..?
Anyway, I truly appreciate and am utterly grateful for your insight!
Much love,
~Josie~
Yep, acting on the peaks of emotion rarely brings anything good for us with emotional authorities.
Re: how to salvage rushed situations... I'm really not sure. I'd imagine every situation is different. If something is entered into incorrectly, it just just be corrupted from the start and beyond repair. But then again, maybe not. Back to the cliche, "follow Strategy & Authority" again... that'd theoretically be the correct course of action - whether that led to something being salvaged or exited from correctly, I guess we'd find out in/for each situation...
though would probably be wise to wait for the 'haywire' wave to play out and come back to clarity.
I could potentially see such a case where we act from clarity - which is correct - though then the emotional chaos could simply be a result of fear, insecurities, elation, etc - which is certainly NOT always to be trusted as a genuine authoritative response, but rather acknowledged as a product of conditioning.
i.e. you are clear and tell your boyfriend you're doing something independently, but then the solar plexus goes nuts because of some fear of disapproval tracing back to some daddy issue. lol. the initial authority & informing was correct. and the wave of emotion needs to settle before any further decision, unless you wanna backtrack and fuck up what was initially correct out of insecurity.
especially with that 12-22, the waves can be crazy chaotic and seemingly quite bi-polar at times... thus, the critical importance of letting them roll out as they will, not making decisions until clear. can be confusing, especially with different waves occurring simultaneously and for different lengths of time. I sense there are probably some waves that pass super quick, whereas other could potentially take days, weeks, months, or even years - and during such a long period of time, there's gonna be other overlapping waves, so the sea can get pretty damn stormy at times.
Hmm. I guess I have to sit for a while and reflect now.. and maybe rewatch Firefly.
If, as you say, unnecessarily rushed things are unsalvageable, then that's what I need to make peace with. And I'll get there, but that might imply a bit of greaving in the process.
And, I’m curious of whether it might potentially be different for you as a Manifestor, given that you are designed to INITIATE.
Given I’m meant to respond, I can see clearly that where I’ve entered into things incorrectly by trying to initiate, its fucked from the start.
But I wonder, that even if you entered into something incorrectly, given that you can initiate, you might have any different degree of flexibility to initiate a decision in the midst of something that was entered to incorrectly, so as to initiate a revitalization/rebirth. (Of course, waiting the course of emotional waves for the clarity that it would, in fact, be correct for you.)
Surely, there are certain decisions made prematurely that would place you in situations that wouldn’t be worth salvaging. Though rather than just accept all of them as that fate, perhaps it might be worthwhile to reflect from this different perspective on which could potentially be worth initiating a revitalization, restructuring, etc - and waiting for clarity to make the choice on those that are before initiating...
degree of flexibility to initiate a decision in the midst of something that was entered to incorrectly, so as to initiate a revitalization/rebirth.
That sounds reasonable.
After some reflection, I actually know what I have to do.
The thing that was upsetting to me as a Manifestor was that the other party in question did try to put control on me by trying to enforce the side-chick/slut programming on me. And I mean, I understand the fear and motivation behind that but, that's not me. I'm not a one-dimensional character. "I'm not bad, I'm just drawn that way." xD
So what I have to work on now, on my part, is to stay absolutely clear about who I AM. Make that absolutely clear in my energy. Make sure I run my own programs. Cause, honestly, focusing on who I am is the only thing I CAN do.
Sharing the journey, passing along what tips I can and observing your receptivity and innate wisdom play out in response, is a pretty awesome, satisfying experience.
I really had no expectations when coming back to write again here on Steemit that last while, though being able to bounce these ponderings on Human Design the last couple weeks has been an entire reward of its own far more meaningful than any "monetary" rewards or anything else I might've hoped for.
It's an honor, privilege, and pleasure to be able to offer such guidance - and even more so to have it received and appreciated...
As I've said countless times before I admire your level of self-reflection. You're not afraid to call yourself out on possible bullshit, and that is something I highly appreciate, taking into consideration how most people get lost in the maze of their own self-deception. It's refreshing to see someone get stright to the point and be able to point out possible loopholes. I believe it takes tremendous humility and grace.
And I'm not saying that as empty flattery.
I do appreciate your insights immensely.
Over time, does he see the broader spectrum of you...? (Rhetorical question, for your own contemplation). As in, is that judgement momentary, only a brief snapshot of where he may be at in his dis-ability to comprehend the totality of you - while still demonstrating an openness at other times to take in the fuller spectrum...?
There are certainly moment where we get triggered, that we generalize and put labels on a person as a form of cognitive bias to make sense of what's too much to process all at once. In the midst of heated moments, it may be natural for us/him/you/me to enforce whatever programming on another, merely because of conditioned habit and inability to process the entirely of what actually is...
IF it's one of those moments, and there are several others where he does see and honor the broader spectrum of all you are, then this is where the wisdom of Emotional Authority comes in with its patience to wait out the waves, not getting caught up in the momentary distortion, for the clarity to weigh all sides...
On the other hand, if that pressure of his control mechanisms and trying to enforce a certain (shitty) projection onto you consistently without balance... I can't say. Your Strategy & Authority are key to guiding you.(Cliche as it may be.)
So what I have to work on now, on my part, is to stay absolutely clear about who I AM. Make that absolutely clear in my energy. Make sure I run my own programs. Cause, honestly, focusing on who I am is the only thing I CAN do.
Over time, does he see the broader spectrum of you...? (Rhetorical question, for your own contemplation). As in, is that judgement momentary, only a brief snapshot of where he may be at in his dis-ability to comprehend the totality of you - while still demonstrating an openness at other times to take in the fuller spectrum...?
That is yet to be determined, as there is no truth in the now. But I'm also absolutely in no rush - which is also what I informed about.
On the other hand, if that pressure of his control mechanisms and trying to enforce a certain (shitty) projection onto you consistently without balance... I can't say. Your Strategy & Authority are key to guiding you.
Yes, well, not to worry, I've long since mastered the art of telling when someone tries to control me and I know how to leave such scenarios. :)
I'd like to think that I take the humble approach for the most part. I figure there is always someone out there that is smarter than me. Who knows though. I think it is awesome that you are able to make these realizations about yourself. I hope they help you grow in the way that you want to and give you some more clarity on other aspects of your life.
There's a lot of information to take in, and a lot of it uses context-specific terms, so I gather it will take quite the while to grasp just the basics.
I'm absolutely grateful for this new perspective, granted, I'm not going to lie, I still don't quite entirely grasp the implications.
I could share the bodygraph if you'd be curious to have a look at it. I could really use some perspective, as to which way to start digging first.
..agh, here, again, xD I don't know how to approach people gently, I feel like even if I put all the "no pressure, feel free to say no" disclaimers, it doesn't do the trick for people and they feel the pressure anyway, just by me showing up. This is going to be tricky, isn't it?
Well, I knew people were afraid of me, but it never occurred to me to what level or degree. As for the anger.. oh boy. From an early age, I've known the anger as the non-me, but even as I've avoided it as a plague, it still haunts me.. in people, environments, and situations around me and it IS my responsibility, I knew it.
I could ramble on, sorry, but got to get busy.. :D Cause you, know, someone has to do stuff around here. :D :D
Ramble over
Great gratitude & hugs!
~Josie~
Yep, there's alot alright. It took me three years before I was even able to approach it!
Re: grasping the implications... I have the sense that there are layers upon layers upon layers that unfold over the years of going deeper. I'm not even one of seven years into my first round of reconditioning, so couldn't even pretend to know the full implications - though have gotten enough to pique my curiosity to go a bit further, which then opens a bit more, and so on, and so on.
Is this in particular to the Manifestor type you're referring to, and finding it a challenge that has said to be common to Manifestors? I'm guessing so, though not entire certain as have tended to focus more on my personal design rather than learning the details of all the types, and although do have part of that in my Manifesting Generator, don't recall the specific of the Manifestor as has been a while since was learning that.
To offer something of an answer - or really, more just a perspective or possibility...
As cliche as it gets, the matter probably comes back to one of Strategy & Authority. If you're following S&A correctly, I imagine you'd be guided to speak to certain people in certain ways at certain times, such that you wouldn't run into those problems as much - versus if not following your correctness, you'd be more likely to rush that energy inappropriately and thus potentially blow people out because it wasn't the right timing or approach.
If you like, you could share your bodygraph. I'm far from a pro, though might be able to offer at least a few more basic insights if desired...
This is the picture that was used to illustrate how people feel around Manifestors, so that's where informing comes into the picture, so that others can at least get out of the way if not rally behind. So that's why we're scary and intimidating, cause we can easily bulldoze over people's energies and not even notice that if we're not attuned to what is going on.
That's from this one (on the longer side, but quite interesting about all the communication dynamics):
This is me:
p.s. I think I "accidentally" bulldozed someone just today, knocking them way out of the park.. I mean I tried not to..
One major point that sticks out in relation to all that: the defined emotional center.
Thus, following Emotional Authority -making decisions and acting from emotional clarity - is certainly critically important.
If you weren’t, instead bulldozing ahead from either the height of an emotional peak or intensity of a low, that could definitely be a lot for some to handle.
Especially with the 12-22 channel, which is highly passionate. (I’ve got that one, too. Excellent source for creativity and the emotional depth that fuels it. Could come across as somewhat “bi-polar” and unstable if not properly understood and worked with responsibly.)
Also curious how the 45 would play in - Gate of the Queen... definitely good if operating in the higher octaves, as use that energy and resource for the benefit of our tribe; though if not fully aligned and following S&A correctly, I’d imagine there could be times the lower octaves of that Queen energy might come across as the domineering Queen - especially in combo with the 10, which is highly individualistic. (I could be wrong on that.)
A few good perspectives on Emotional Authority, as that is certainly one of your biggest keys... ;-)
EMOTIONAL AUTHORITY
Oh, snap, ok, this makes sense.
I actually.. if something feels uber extra important to me emotionally, I have on several occasions (mostly relationship-related) observed that my solar plexus quite physically goes into overdrive, sending jolts of shockwaves throughout the body. I've always been curious about that phenomenon and now it makes total sense. But now I see that that also means that I have to step back, despite the "Just do it" mentality of a Manifestor.
Oh, yes, such words have been thrown around here and there.
Ok, well, new day new insights. And I haven't even read your latest.. will do that after work. Oh, damn. Is there a way to salvage unnecessarily rushed situations..?
Anyway, I truly appreciate and am utterly grateful for your insight!
Much love,
~Josie~
Yep, acting on the peaks of emotion rarely brings anything good for us with emotional authorities.
Re: how to salvage rushed situations... I'm really not sure. I'd imagine every situation is different. If something is entered into incorrectly, it just just be corrupted from the start and beyond repair. But then again, maybe not. Back to the cliche, "follow Strategy & Authority" again... that'd theoretically be the correct course of action - whether that led to something being salvaged or exited from correctly, I guess we'd find out in/for each situation...
What about situations, where you act from emotional clarity, yet as soon as you have, say, informed someone, then the solar plexus goes haywire?
shaking
mmm... not sure exactly.
though would probably be wise to wait for the 'haywire' wave to play out and come back to clarity.
I could potentially see such a case where we act from clarity - which is correct - though then the emotional chaos could simply be a result of fear, insecurities, elation, etc - which is certainly NOT always to be trusted as a genuine authoritative response, but rather acknowledged as a product of conditioning.
i.e. you are clear and tell your boyfriend you're doing something independently, but then the solar plexus goes nuts because of some fear of disapproval tracing back to some daddy issue. lol. the initial authority & informing was correct. and the wave of emotion needs to settle before any further decision, unless you wanna backtrack and fuck up what was initially correct out of insecurity.
especially with that 12-22, the waves can be crazy chaotic and seemingly quite bi-polar at times... thus, the critical importance of letting them roll out as they will, not making decisions until clear. can be confusing, especially with different waves occurring simultaneously and for different lengths of time. I sense there are probably some waves that pass super quick, whereas other could potentially take days, weeks, months, or even years - and during such a long period of time, there's gonna be other overlapping waves, so the sea can get pretty damn stormy at times.
hope that all makes sense... :-)
Ah, yes, fear, insecurities, elation, I find that it's usually probably a sum total of at least these three..
Makes sense, yes.
Loved your example, made me chuckle! :D
This is one more REALLY great quick one on Emotional Authority...
(ALL of Laveena’s stuff is great!)
And...
Also this one...
Start at 15:55, everything before that is just for Generators. After is Emotional Authority...
Hmm. I guess I have to sit for a while and reflect now.. and maybe rewatch Firefly.
If, as you say, unnecessarily rushed things are unsalvageable, then that's what I need to make peace with. And I'll get there, but that might imply a bit of greaving in the process.
I didn’t say that 100%...
And, I’m curious of whether it might potentially be different for you as a Manifestor, given that you are designed to INITIATE.
Given I’m meant to respond, I can see clearly that where I’ve entered into things incorrectly by trying to initiate, its fucked from the start.
But I wonder, that even if you entered into something incorrectly, given that you can initiate, you might have any different degree of flexibility to initiate a decision in the midst of something that was entered to incorrectly, so as to initiate a revitalization/rebirth. (Of course, waiting the course of emotional waves for the clarity that it would, in fact, be correct for you.)
Surely, there are certain decisions made prematurely that would place you in situations that wouldn’t be worth salvaging. Though rather than just accept all of them as that fate, perhaps it might be worthwhile to reflect from this different perspective on which could potentially be worth initiating a revitalization, restructuring, etc - and waiting for clarity to make the choice on those that are before initiating...
🤔😇💓
After some reflection, I actually know what I have to do.
The thing that was upsetting to me as a Manifestor was that the other party in question did try to put control on me by trying to enforce the side-chick/slut programming on me. And I mean, I understand the fear and motivation behind that but, that's not me. I'm not a one-dimensional character. "I'm not bad, I'm just drawn that way." xD
So what I have to work on now, on my part, is to stay absolutely clear about who I AM. Make that absolutely clear in my energy. Make sure I run my own programs. Cause, honestly, focusing on who I am is the only thing I CAN do.
Thank you for your guidance.
Means a lot!
Hugs,
~Josie~
☺️
I appreciate the opportunity.
Sharing the journey, passing along what tips I can and observing your receptivity and innate wisdom play out in response, is a pretty awesome, satisfying experience.
I really had no expectations when coming back to write again here on Steemit that last while, though being able to bounce these ponderings on Human Design the last couple weeks has been an entire reward of its own far more meaningful than any "monetary" rewards or anything else I might've hoped for.
It's an honor, privilege, and pleasure to be able to offer such guidance - and even more so to have it received and appreciated...
🙏💖
I'm glad that you find it worthwhile.
As I've said countless times before I admire your level of self-reflection. You're not afraid to call yourself out on possible bullshit, and that is something I highly appreciate, taking into consideration how most people get lost in the maze of their own self-deception. It's refreshing to see someone get stright to the point and be able to point out possible loopholes. I believe it takes tremendous humility and grace.
And I'm not saying that as empty flattery.
I do appreciate your insights immensely.
Hugs,
~Josie~
I appreciate that feedback - especially as it’s a great sign I’m on the right track with the book project I’ve just begun picking up again...
You’ll love it, in that case... 😊
I know. I'm looking forward to reading it one day! ^^
None of us are.
Re: other people painting us out to be...
Given our emotional authorities... take it slow.
Over time, does he see the broader spectrum of you...? (Rhetorical question, for your own contemplation). As in, is that judgement momentary, only a brief snapshot of where he may be at in his dis-ability to comprehend the totality of you - while still demonstrating an openness at other times to take in the fuller spectrum...?
There are certainly moment where we get triggered, that we generalize and put labels on a person as a form of cognitive bias to make sense of what's too much to process all at once. In the midst of heated moments, it may be natural for us/him/you/me to enforce whatever programming on another, merely because of conditioned habit and inability to process the entirely of what actually is...
IF it's one of those moments, and there are several others where he does see and honor the broader spectrum of all you are, then this is where the wisdom of Emotional Authority comes in with its patience to wait out the waves, not getting caught up in the momentary distortion, for the clarity to weigh all sides...
On the other hand, if that pressure of his control mechanisms and trying to enforce a certain (shitty) projection onto you consistently without balance... I can't say. Your Strategy & Authority are key to guiding you. (Cliche as it may be.)
You're on the right track. NO DOUBT.
💖
I'd like to think that I take the humble approach for the most part. I figure there is always someone out there that is smarter than me. Who knows though. I think it is awesome that you are able to make these realizations about yourself. I hope they help you grow in the way that you want to and give you some more clarity on other aspects of your life.