The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: The Art of Self-Sabotage

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It has been nearly two months since I put it all together into one big show.
About two years since the last time my work reached Steemit's trending page, organically.

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Two years is a long time to feel like a failure, daily.

Knowing in advance the work will never be popular, by default...

That's a tough pill to swallow.

So I'm glad I didn't go to my local drug dealer on the corner to get my victim pill prescription filled. Hundreds of posts, hundreds of new and never before seen artworks produced, viewed by people from all over the world, daily.

That's my true reality. Even on my worst days, I focus on my reality.

Far more good has come my way, than bad.

For nearly three years, I've had to ignore all of the naysayers. Little downers rise up from their pits of despair every now and again to attempt to discredit everything I've achieved here. I remember one came at me shortly after I had returned from a lengthy hiatus to tell me, in so many words, all of you out there are my sock puppet accounts. When you vote, that's me voting for myself. When you comment, that's me talking to myself.

That's how far people will go

to attempt to bring others down.

My reality is: I'm not as successful as I want to be, because it's never enough and I have a tough time settling with mediocre, the cards are stacked against me, I got people around me constantly saying the world is ending, majority of those who can, refuse to support my work or even acknowledge my existence even though my posts consistently make the top ten most commented on meaning my blog is one of the most active places on the platform, organically—none of that brings me down.

It drives me crazy!

But it doesn't bring me down.

I need that crazy for some of the things I do here anyway. If it wasn't for this chaos all around me, my blog would be fucking boring.

Anyway. Before I display what nearly two months of hard work and failing consistently looks like, I'd just like to tip my hat to all those folks working hard behind the scenes to give us things like Tribes and those fancy-schmancy Steem Engine tokens.

I realize there are plenty of haters out there but many of them don't come equipped with the perspective of an actual content producer who's been trying to move up the ladder instead of going in reverse. The timing couldn't have been better. The added exposure has helped breathe new life into what I want to achieve here on the STEEM blockchain. And of course the added value generated by my work for me as well as all those who help contribute can be converted into a huge boost of confidence and another reason to carry on rather than give up like so many before me.

Someday some content producer out there is going to need proof this blockchain actually works and I can step forward to say, yup, works fine, as long as you check your entitlement issues at the door and know how to work for it.

I don't plan on striking it rich with the projects I'm invested in but I do plan on doing my part to help build the communities as best I can with the hopes there's something for everyone to enjoy down the road. Call me crazy. I'm used to it.

And now

This:

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What's The Point

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The Gateway

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One Angry Guy and An Asshole

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He's Back

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Why

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Just This

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I Don't Get It Either

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One Minute Window

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The Awkward Thing I Did With My Brain

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All That Is Left

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Two And A Half Hours

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Red on the Walls

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I Have Nothing To Say Today

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Something Else

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Chorkey

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The Artifact

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My Offering to the Silence

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Don't Feel Bad

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Something For Someday

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Nothing Exists Now

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Shattered Realities

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It's The Ocean, Man

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The Flutterby

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It Only Takes One

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Not Finished

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Whatever

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Ohdeer

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Not Everything

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What Happened To You Last Night

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Peering Through The Darkness



All Previous Editions:


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: Finding that Groove Again


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: 25 More Days of Being The Only Me You Have


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: I've Produced Over 200 New Works Of Art This Year — Probably Published Over One Million Words


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: Looking Back to the Invisible Sights While Moving Forward to See What's Next


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: Another Month Worth of Sights To See


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: Staring at This Box, Wondering What to Write


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: Still Willing to Work for Your Support


The State of the @NoNamesLeftToUse Address: What Two Months of Hard Work Looks Like


To Conclude

It never ends.

Have a nice day.

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Credits:
All art and images seen here were produced digitally, by me.
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"I didn't even realize I did better than one new image every two days."
"I guess that explains why I'm so tired today."

© 2019 @NoNamesLeftToUse.  All rights reserved.



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Every failure is just another attempt at success. Or some other bullshit response here. :)

I like this one the best

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I saw a meme once and it said something like, "I've failed more times than some have tried." I think I saved it somewhere.

I like that one as well. I have a few others with the same style and it's all supposed to go into a long-ass story I plan to write someday. I might publish it here or I might take it to the next level. We'll see.

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Let's hope you're tired is a good tired. Yes a lot of artistry and faces within faces expressing their sentiments. Thanks for not selling out or being shot down. I appreciate it when you're around.

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I'm feeling drained. Seeing the results here so far I'm starting think maybe this weekend would be a good one to take some time off, get some rest, think about things.

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Your method to the madness is cool and scary at the same time. Fuck the naysayers.

Tell them to go fuck yourself

But. Even negative feedback is something to drive you forward.

I hate having to repeat myself but your posts are a good read. At times it's too dark for my liking but entertaining to read.

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It's not often someone comes to be a dickhead. Behind the scenes is probably far worse and if that's the case it's probably better for everyone they keep it to themselves so at least they can feel good.

I think what's darker are those who pretend to be light. The darkness disguised as light. Those are the ones you have to watch out for.

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Virtue signallers, fairies, snowflakes, cucks, the list can go on and on... But who's counting.

I think Jordan Peterson covers what you have just described above in depth on one is his podcasts

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Doesn't everyone get one the trending page if you scroll down for long enough? I did that once, when I first came here.

I think my favourite in the recap is The Gateway.

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That sock puppet master 🤣 says a lot about someone that isn’t you 🤣

Perhaps whatever mission they had is accomplished because it may be a while before I stop internally laughing (I’ve stopped externally now).

Um...good job on failing consistently? I need to haul my carcass up and have coffee now I think 😅

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I feel like I'm the only one on this platform who only has one account.

Today feels like a pretty big fail. I'm not really sure what I did wrong either.

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If it’s any consolation I only have one account (I do have the keys for my kids’ accounts but they’re still their accounts, only thing I do is help them post when they feel like posting which I’m trying to get them back into and make them beneficiaries of my homeschool miscellanies).

I don’t understand how you’re measuring success, I have a feeling you mentioned it multiple times in the post and I’ve forgotten already (still working on getting up to make that coffee 😅), but probably a lot different from me as I don’t think you’ve failed 🙃

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I can't really talk about it today.

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That's okay, when/ifever you feel like it :)

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It's all catching up to me and I'm tired. Probably going to go quiet for a few days.

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I like these big posts of yours. I wasn't posting as much last week because I had a house guest but as he brought me the recipe for ice cubes which I had lost, life is good again! It's the small things...

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Well I'm glad it's still liked. Maybe I'll do it again in a couple months!

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That is a crazy amount of work for two months. I don't recall seeing What's the Point before. I like it. Purple is my color. I can see how it would be easy to put a negative spin on all that is going on inside it, but being the sort of person that prefers purple, I see a positive message.

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This is insane already and it finally caught up to me today, or I'm getting sick; something's happening, can't move much... so tired.

It is a lot, and anyone who hasn't been paying attention lately wouldn't even know about the amount of words I published as well in that time.

One could follow those links provided and see how much has been put into this blog. But I'm tired now. Steemit has spoken as well... LOL! sigh

I think it's about time I put this down for a few days so if I'm quiet; just taking a break.

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It is that time for summer colds. I think Chinese Medicine explains this but I don't remember how. Something about too much heat gets in the body, making it susceptible.

Certainly sounds like a good time for a break.

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well....haters are everywhere, that's why we must do what we wanted to do. Do not do what others wanted for us to do. Someday they'll be just mocking us because they're jealous.

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What's The Point

It that pictures fault. i was unable to really concentrate enough to actually look closely at the other pictures. S a really really good title for the title piece.

Now you may ask why? Why was I unable to concentrate on seeing the other pictures? You will be surprised, or maybe not being you, but the reason is very simple, most of your work has a slightly dark or funny connotation to me, not What's The Point picture. It shouted at me as no other picture I have seen from an artist mind on steemit of Happiness.

After seeing all that happiness blast into my brain, I was unable to concentrate on the other images. I was also unable to really significantly look at and view all of What's The Point. that first purplish looking over the top happy face just stuck, I could not look beyond it, yet.

A wonderful image, and I would go so far as to say one of your most unique ones I have seen thus far.

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That one has the word happy encoded within. The easiest letter to make out is the 'y' but the tail is on the opposite side.

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I guess that I am subject, like a lot of people, to subliminal messaging.

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I enjoyed going through these artworks, although there are more great ones, this one I stood up, probably because of the colours and the eyes.. reminds me of my bird that I had once (just kidding)

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It's supposed to look bird-like, especially from a distance. The closer you get, the more you'll see. That one took the most time out of everything here.

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Thanks being a friend around here! Need to say you've made a good job putting it all together....
I'm very tired too...today. Cannot understand what's happening to me, but don't like to hold this bug in my mind believing getting sick...
It is probably food related or some kind of malnutrition...
Anyway, can't move a lot too.. and cannot think, it's very hard...
This post of yours gave me some power to feel inspired and continue over here.
Staking again! Recently needed to transfer some $teem$BD to a friend who's helping me financially and not only... It is very hard where I live to get a real good job, where I'm worthy at. It was kind of my dream to get out of the system/matrix... and now i see the results, not very awesome to be an outsider for the socium.
Excuse me for bothering you with my shit, but I share it here how I feel, because that's my community. The moment we think it the money way it becomes a burden and inspiration goes off.
So let's forget the numbers and move on EVERYBODY! :)
..or at least the folks who care about this new tribal networks..
It's ALL new and we build it on the go/fly! :)
Thanks again! ;)

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I'm with you on the tribes bringing new life to what was beginning to feel like a dead man's walk for content creation. Now we have niches of musicians, writers, poets, all forms of content creation can get a nice "top up" of additional tokens (I'll be staking them most likely) rather than the measly cents a lot used to get for hours of effort. It may still be cents, who knows.

Love your digital art, it crashed Partiko a few times whilst trying to load them which is a sure fire sign that they are awesome!

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Unfortunately a lot of folks dump those tokens the moment they receive them so there's some selling pressure happening. Staking would make more sense because then people can increase the value of the post that gave them the tokens by curating other posts and earning more tokens. Many don't understand the benefits of these systems though. Tomorrow doesn't seem to exist. I hope these things work out but as an individual, I can only do so much.

That's too bad the images do that. Steemit forces all images to be low quality so using png format makes them look as good as possible and I have to hide the actual higher quality but smaller file size images behind. Doesn't make much sense but that's what they get for not asking content producers how to go about doing these things. If I put the higher quality smaller file directly into the post, it shows up blurry and makes the work look terrible.

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Yes it's like their eyes light up over seeing a free $8 (if that) in the short term and don't think about what it could turn into 6 months down the line, a year, 5 years. Sonicgroove and creativecoin tokens are ones I'll be looking to get more of and looking at the new tunes token (bless Amy) there's suddenly a few options to get stuck in to!

I know what you mean as an individual can only do so much but I do feel that these niches are going to bring together like minded people who enjoy creating and those who enjoy curating creative works.

I'm personally on a mission to grow my account beyond minnowhood in at least one of these tribes haha! Would love to join the dolphin club on steem and this dolphin council I've heard about (if it's still a thing). By loading up and staking everywhere, one upvote can make a splash in many tribes.

As for the images and image quality. Steemit SUCKS for that! When I've tried to do travel posts direct to steemit, it wouldn't accept anything bigger than 8MB! That seemed to be the cut off. I just moved over to a website (WordPress) and posted from there on steempress, seemed to work somehow so I don't know they condense the images. Otherwise, you could use a website called "postimages.org", upload your pictures there and then insert the url to your steem post. I don't know what the size limit is (or even if there is one) but could be an option for you.

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