Times Are Tough But I Have To Get Tougher

Well I realized that I have another problem burdening me and it is not just a simple illness it is a TB for crying out loud. I do not know how I can get through this one but the body has its limitations and I am talking about taking the medicine for tuberculosis that I supposed to be suffering from because I do not know if or how it would affect my health considering that I have to take it for an extended period of time and this will just take maybe even half a year.

It is just ridiculous and still I am like an energizer battery that keeps on going on and on and wondering why I am still alive. I know that there is a passage or verse in the bible that fearing God and respecting your parents will make you live long but it is not just living long, it also comes with living with ease and definitely I am not experiencing the latter.

But what can I do? I just have to move on and take the medicine. I could be really suffering from Tuberculosis, it could be the reason of my marked weakness and my being too skinny. So this is another big hurdle for me and I guess maybe I will die not being able to reach my goals.

It is very unfortunate for me to ever had lived this kind of life and the only things that I really liked about my life really is knowing that some people loves me no matter what I am and what I had came to be.

I cannot just cry here on my bed but I have to still toughen up my mind even though there are many times that my spirit or inner self is wanting to give up. I am just so crazy enough choosing life and to long seeing the light of another day. May God help me.