I Ease My Frustrations By Watching Others Do It In The Internet

I have a lot of frustrations in my life, most of them are the things that I was doing in the past and cannot do anymore. Some of my frustrations are the things that I wanted to do like camping, fishing, and going outdoors but with my current situation those things are purely impossible to happen.

Maybe if I would be an #ultrarich person then I will be able to think in straightening out my backbone, having my face reconstructed again into a more satisfactory, non-rubbernecked appearance, and of course having to achieve a Parathyroidectomy if not a Kidney transplant.

Then after that a few months of physical therapy and then going back to what I had left off, maybe going to school or college for the heck of it, I look very young anyway compared to my age lol. I might also meet someone to be my "significant other" too lol. It is just refreshing to think about it all if I would have the means to achieve goals that are really worth all the risk involved including my life.

But what I am doing right now is watching others do what I want to do. It is just amazing how the videos in the Internet entertains you and makes you feel sometimes that you are part of the action, all in the comforts of your own home.

It is like for example I wanted to go camping and experience the outdoors so I would just head on to YouTube and watch others do their own adventure. I also like to shoot a .44 Magnum revolver, then no problem, I will just also watch some redneck shoot some watermelon with it from the Internet. Cooking some kind of dish? I can't cook yet but will just gain watch other people cook and get some ideas from it to make my cooking in the future (May God wills it) more better than before.

That is just the least that I could do for now to console myself about my frustrations. My frustrations really are magnified because I once had been a normal person with my appearance and my ability to do things because I am not born with disabilities which is why it is a painful fact that I cannot do the former things that I am doing and enjoying.

But I am still thankful that I have something that would entertain me at least by watching videos even though of course f]doing the actual thing is way more better. I just pray that in the soonest possible time with a miracle of God I can revert back int what I like to do in my life.