30-Day Blogging Challenge Day 5 | What scares me the most

over 3 years ago

Hi Hivers!

Good Morning!

I have seen this 30-Day Blogging Challenge going around in Hive, and I have decided to join the fun. I have seen @straykat having his own 30-Day Blogging Challenge and got led me to the person whom initiated this, @tegoshei, thanks for this great idea and interesting topics that you have plotted for this challenge.

If you guys want to join the fun, you can see @tegoshei's post in here.

Today is day 5 of the challenge

What Am I afraid of

What does today's topic means? Is it pertaining to things that I was afraid of? Or phobias that I have?

As human, we can be afraid of a lot of things: from crawling insects to venomous snakes, from darkness to lightning strikes, from tight spaces to heights. One couldn't count the potential things a human can be afraid of.

So where should I focus with today's topic?

I will be focusing on the feelings/scenarios I am afraid of.

Why focus on that? and not on the things that scares you the most?

Because it is not cool for you guys to know that I am afraid of flying cockroaches, snakes, and frogs. I also do not want for you to know that I am afraid of heights, deep body of water and presenting in front of a big crowd.

I do not want anyone to know that these things scared the hell of me😂😂😂😂😂. Those were the things that only me should know 😂

So let's focus on my topic at hand, 3 things that I am afraid of: being left out, not appreciated, and being rejected.

Being Left Out

As an introvert, I am used to being alone. I only have a little circle of friends, a few number and groups of friends.

Being left alone really scares me, being left behind by those group of friends. Imagine having a circle of friends that I always hangout with almost everyday, then they will make a plan and forgot to make you became of that plan. It was really painful and a very terrifying feeling.

Take note that I have feel this a lot of times

I was being left out by the circle of friends that I have, by that tiny number of friends.

This makes me think that they were not my real friends, that they only hangout with me whenever they needed my help, whenever they need something with me.

Not Appreciated

I consider myself a Jack of ~~all trades~~ nothing.

I do not have anything to offer, I do not know how to draw nor paint, I do not have a good voice for singing nor the talent to dance. Basically, I am talent-less introvert trying hard to have skills to those things I do not have.

So what am I really good into? I do know how to code (computer programming), but guess what? I even didn't get my chance to be on that field 😂. Sad but true, I cannot make myself be in the very field I am proud of and feel that I belong.

This is the reason why I am scared of the feeling that I was not appreciated, I do know that I am not good at anything, I do not have the skills, but I make efforts to try and practice by the things that I am doing. I wrote stories, poems, I try to wrote my thoughts and feelings, I try to draw, will try to make calligraphy (planning) and many more that I am aware is out of my comfort zone. I am afraid that no one would appreciate me to what I am doing, I am scared that no one will give a damn care about who I am or what I do.

That scares me....

Being Rejected

We all were scared of rejection, it can be rejections of the things that you have done or it could be rejections of our opinions.

So what kind of rejection I am afraid of?

I am afraid of being rejected as a person, being rejected by the people that I will be caring, being rejected with those people that I love the most.

I was scared that no one would accept me from who I am, from what I do.

With the three scenarios/feelings that I have listed, what would you prefer not to feel?

I someone will ask me this question, I will prefer to be left alone and not appreciated. For me the most terrifying would be the feeling of rejection.

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This is for today's topic, what scares @aguadz the most.

Hope to see you tomorrow for my new post 😊

To be updated with my entry for this challenge, please visit the links below. I also plan to make weekly posts for this challenge, making the full list of this challenge. Hope to see you in there.

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@aguadz, known as Zai in the real world was a Fish Lover, a Cat Lover, a Self proclaimed Writer, Poet and Programmer.
An Introvert who uses Steem/Steemit to make a trademark of himself in the blockchain allowing him to stay alive forever.

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