Thoughts of the Day, 15th July, 2020
I am not that type of person who easily loses hope or gives up. I do give up but obviously for specific reasons. I give up when I feel there is nothing to gain and my time is just being wasted. Recently, I have mentioned in one of my posts that I am sick. I personally think that I am becoming sicker mentally rather than physically which means, I am sick but I am also feeling weak mentally more than physically. I am taking high doses of medicines every day because of my body pain which are recommended from doctor obviously. But these powerful medicines are making me weak inside also. Anyway, this is just a current update of my recent condition though I am not going to stop living my life. This sickness is temporary I know.
Nowadays I stopped talking to my dad every day, I know he is a concern for me but his concern creating some kind of pressure inside me. Actually I feel pressure whenever I talk to him. The main reason is the comparison I mean I personally think he is frustrated and gave up on me. Either he gave up or he is just not happy who I am...
My hand is still shivering while writing this post because I am not so sure whether I should write this post or not. I always talk about mental health and issue because I believe many people suffer from mental illness, frustration more or less. I and my friend always talk about personal problems of our life, we try to solve each other's issues through discussion. I love discussion, a productive discussion where actually people listen and try to solve each other's points.
Anyway, my mentality is completely different from my dad in fact I personally feel he is never satisfied whatever I do. He is a parent so on that note maybe he is right, he wants best for her daughter but everything needs time right. He never agreed with me, when I decided to live here, he was not agreed with me and said come back. Get married and make family... Now, his recent concern is job, migration. Whatever job I did in the past few years, he was never happy either with the company or the salary and often started a comparison with another person...
Still the same, his focus is always on other's people, what they are doing, how much salary they are getting, where they are doing a job, etc. This is the main problem of my society where I belong. In my society, a kid has to go through so much pressure, first maintaining status, then rules, academic life, job, career, etc. Trust me, this was the main reason why I left my country and decided to live alone...I always wanted to do something with my life according to my choice. When my mother was alive, she fought for me but...
I really don't understand why people love to compare or create comparisons. Someone will be first and someone will be last right, someone will reach high and someone will be happy whatever he/she has. Why people create life so complicated in the name of career, money, status, power position...
Nah, I am not going to say my dad never loved me, he does but his insecurity and concern create a lot of pressure on me.
Anyway, everything has a solution, just need time, hope the situation will be better soon...
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Priyan
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Hmm. Yeah I totally understand, what happens to you also happens to others.
But what people don't know is everybody runs a different race. I can be working in a less paid work today does not mean I won't tomorrow, anyhow I understand parents can be pressuring at times in situations like this and that's primarily because they want the best for us, they feel we deserve more than what we have that's why sometimes your dad complains at everything.
I hope you get better soon
Honestly speaking I can understand everyone's thoughts especially parent's thoughts and philosophy, their concern. But What exactly a child demands from their parents, support right. But many parents failed to play a supportive role, that doesn't mean they don't love their kids, they do but sometimes excess love makes things worst...
Aswear!!! That's right.. most times excess love could also lead to overprotective parents.
But wait oh!!! Took time before you could reply to my comment.
Sometimes my dad like your dad too. But in the end, I know he always love me but with different way
Well, I can completely understand perspective but you know everything needs time, I just want some co-operation that's it... But yes I know he loves me too...
hello dear friend @priyanarc good night
I am very sorry to know that you feel bad, maybe you should take at least a day to rest and rest, although you are medicated, you have to do a follow-up, if you do not see improvement, maybe you should consult with another professional, two opinions never hurt
I'm sorry about your father's demand, don't push yourself too much, that's how parents are
I wish you get well soon dear friend
I am doing better physically now, medicines worked nicely...
Well, I am just taking everything slowly about life, career because the current situation is not perfect to build a career plus everything needs time...
I just need to wait, ignore, and keep patience...
Have a nice day my friend...
Thanks for sharing.
Firstly, I agree we must not compare. Each job is valuable, the important thing is that you work and don't sit on the street begging.
Mental health is very important and you need to work on it. Try to surround you with people who lift you up rather than pulling down. I don't know what sickness you have, but mental health is also important to heal physical health.
Hope you feel better soon!!
Comparison creates issue especially psychologically...Because I personally think human psychology is different and their way of seeing life is different. I have seen many people were unable to take the pressure and did some accidents because of mental illness. I know the family concern and how it works, but instead of pushing, one needs to play a supportive role.
Thank you so much for stopping by... :)
I began to understand my parents when I became a father at an early age. When I was not a father. I also think that my thinking is a bit different from my mother's, but no. Just understand your parents, especially your father, because every parent wants to see their children succeed.
Well, I agree with you and I can understand my dad's concern. But his concern is not going to solve anything and you know everything needs time. There was a certain age where push was needed for me but now I don't think he should push me. All I want a little support, trust, and patience from my family...
Because their overthinking concern will not solve anything now especially in this pandemic situation...