“I only wished and wanted for the painful time to be short” Hello My Future, I Love Me.

Lately, there’s a song that i have been listening a lot.
The title of them is Hello Future by NCT Dream.
Ironically, they were releasing the song right in the moment where i felt in the lowest point if my life.
Since i am someone that believe in the “world’s signal”, i took this song in my hands and kept it inside of my heart.
I try to be strong with listening to this song a lot.
So in this post, i will write it as my experience during those time and how this song accompanied me in those dark side and low point and give me some strength with that.
Now, lets talk about this future that i have been welcoming.

“Can you believe its only the beginning?”
When we were in that dark and low point, we lost our sight if our future.
We might feel so low and as low as thinking like, oh is this the end of me.
I really like these words, can you believe its only the beginning?
Can i believe it?
I should believe it and i should learn to believe it because everything is really only in the beginning.
No matter what happened in my life and your life, its always a new beginning.
There’s always a new beginning all the time.
When we mastered that thought, i think that our life can be more fun and exciting yet content and the same time.

“Ready or not, we’re going, trust me.”
Yes, in this life, we dont get many chance to decided when we’re ready or not when we got exposed by some experience.
No matter what life thrown to us, no matter if we’re ready or not ready yet, we’re going.
We will go.
The life still goes on.
So trust ourself and move on.

“Forget about the war like times, my heart shouts run and fly.”
This is one of the phrase that comfort my heart the most.
Forget about those war like times, the times where my heart and my mind was in a war with each other.
The heart wants one thing and the mind wants another thing.
Times like those are so confusing and i shed so much tears for the war inside of me.
At the end, that war that i had inside of me will only hurt me that getting thorn pieces by pieces by both side.
So this phrase that told me or us to forget about those painful times where we always have a war within us.
The run and fly part is really beautiful too, run and fly to the better life and to the better me that both my heart and mind wants for myself.

“Let my future know, over the whole world for me to say i loved without regrets.”
In this phrase, its another symbol of self love.
I want to reassuring the future me that i will live my life with full of love without regrets.
I will never let myself down.
No natter what, i will choose my love for myself over other things.
So that in the future, when i look back at my life, i will not have any regrets because i love myself a lot.

“I’ve been waiting for you, welcome. Wherever it may be, we’re coming together.
Dont worry about anything, it will be alright, Hello Future.”
Though this looks like someone confessing their love to someone, i do believe that the one that they’re waiting and welcoming in this phrase is themself.
Wherever it may be, we will always be with each other.
Its a lucky thing if we can find ourself through every war that we will have inside of us.
The phrase that said dont worry about anything because it will be alright, for me remind of this famous saying “this too shall pass”.
I chant “this too shall pass” hundreds of times whenever i had trouble happened to me.
Aint the meaning is pretty similar?
Hello future, hello my bright and beautiful future.

“Because i met you, we shine brighter together.”
Again, a sweet love talk phrase.
But its because i met myself that i can be shining brighter than before.
Other people, can help us.
But the one that have the most strength to carry us, is ourself.
We can only be better if we accept and love ourself.

“We’re on the way up, we’re on the way up.”
The “we’re on the way up” phrase repeatedly numerous times.
I think its like an affirmation words.
It got me thinking that its telling me that no matter how much i felt pain at the time, its only happened because i was in my way up.
Up where? The brighter future, of course love.

“Lets build only with beautiful times, we’re going way up.”
The sadness, the never ending sadness and regrets, the despair.
I want to rewrite them to be a beautiful memories.
With acceptance, we can go level up in life.
Accept the pain, make it beautiful, make everything that happened both good and bad beautiful, and then we’re already going way up.

“Fire, like a small flower that has survived in the thick smoke.
Im loving you in the same time.”
This phrase clearly talking about the pain that happened to us.
So survive, i survive.
No matter what happened, i will always love me the same, i just should have forget that ever, though in those times its very hard to see and realized.

“Here we go, spread your wings.
Even if it gets snapped and get hurt again.”
Yes, there was yesterday’s pain, there will be another pain in the future.
Its naive if i think that after i passed those one nightmare, i will have my happily ever after.
Of course not, there will always be pain.
Life will always give us something to suffer about.
But i want to keep spreading my wings and never losing hope no matter if my heart gets broken again and again by life.

“You’re stronger than anyone.
I will still love you even in the future and beyond.”
We’re stronger than what we thought.
I am stronger than what i thought when i was in my lowest point.
The love that we shared with ourselves, aint that beautiful if we can have that?
The love will stay even in the future and beyond future.

“Im tryna center me, where your center be?”
Me too, my center is myself too.

“Will i be able to keep walking unwavering?”
Here they expressed the doubt that they felt, thought this is only one phrase compared to many other strong phrases before.
I think here is the part where its real, yes we’re human we will always have doubt.
Did i do something right?
Is this the right path for me to take?
Will i be happy at the end of my life?
No matter how strong we became, i think its natural to waver a bit.

“Its not far, open your eyes.”
After the short wavering, here they start telling us again that well, open your eyes because the future that you want is not far.
Never close our eyes, it will only makes us lost or just walking in circle.
Open our eyes and aim for the better future then go for it.

“In the burnt ashes with tender warmth, ready to clap back.”
Haha this is pretty funny.
Burnt ashes with tender warmth.
What a beautiful words to describe about surviving.

“Peace isnt so far away. I only wished and wanted for the painful time to be short.”
Last but not least, my most and number one favorite.
I only wished and wanted for the painful time to be short.
When i was in despair, rather than cursing fate, i pray to God that may the pain that i felt at that time will be short.
So i can recover faster, and i can build my life again.
Because peace isnt so far away.
I dont wanto to forced myself to a unready recovery.
I took my time in the pain.

Its naive to think that

without rreg