Now Feel As If I Am Split In Two - Blockchain Coffee "Cleft"

about 4 years ago

I have been at it for 2 years as of today, two years on STEEM and what a ride it has been. I have also been on many other platforms over the last year largely trying to promote the projects and people I support. Along this journey came my last reach for the goal of becoming a STEEM witness and with cost of a witness machine keeping it just outside of my reach I went with an option I could start learning on, Smoke Blockchain. It has been good over there for the most part, hard for me too keep up multiple platforms and with this year being largely focused on video creation im noticing its not the flavor of smoke they are looking for... that and my #420freewrite... I hate saying it but since 4 months ago when I was last running the contest, much like what @mariannewest does here, it is now a ghost town over there!

This last little situation on Smoke.io with someone causing trouble exposed how cleft our cannabis community really is at the root over something as simple and potentially ridiculous as someones desires to participate in a negative atmosphere. I have put a fair amount into my activities there and here... I have achieved my goal of becoming a witness on Smoke.io I originally set out for on STEEM and I have by far more "perceived" influence on the platform as a whole then here yet I have noticed the supportive individuals that I enjoyed from the platform have largely left and congregated here on STEEM in the @canna-community and Weedcash Tribe.

In these moments I can't help but recognize how I feel as if I have been left behind due to my unwillingness to let go of something I enjoy. Am I staying? am I leaving? I have a tendency not to give up on anything such as @OneLoveDTube but I also recognize that in these moments I also now feel...