You are not alone, ever
What is your source of power? For me that's easy, it's my belief in God. I know a lot of people question the idea of God and some really smart people believe everything is random. God loves everyone, including non-believers and I too do not judge you at all.
Life has lows and highs, why was that created? Why do we feel anything? To me, it's imperfection that brings meaning to life. If everything was perfect, we would value nothing, so what would be the point in living then. The time we have on earth is sacred and those lessons you learn make you unique, if we all had the answers we would all be the same.
God sacrificed his only son. God gave us a perfect man and we killed him. Why did he do that? Even when Jesus died on the cross his last words were asking his Father why he was forsaken. In fact, this was the only time Jesus ever referred to his father by "Elijah", and I think there is meaning to that. I think it's because Jesus knew he was being abandoned by his father, at the moment Jesus knew what God had planned for him all along because his final words were "Tetelestai" or "it is finished."
If you think about yourself in struggle, you have probably asked God why he has abandoned you. If you don't believe in God you may have blamed someone else for your struggles. There are countless stories of people who do prevail, but also others who do not. The ones who prevail, I think know that God has never abandoned them, it's a source of strength and why they are able to accomplish their dreams. Others are stuck, angry at God but really angry at themselves but do not realize it.
When Jesus asked God why he was forsaken a lot of people might have thought Jesus had a God problem, but WE had a God problem because Jesus died for us.
The point is that if you are self sufficient you do not need a savior, because you learn to only blame yourself. Pain and suffering humbles us, we are weak and needy in our hardest times. By God abandoning his only son, he is really showing us that he will never abandon us. No matter the difficulty, you can only hold yourself accountable otherwise you are discounting why Jesus was sacrificed. God would not have killed his only son otherwise.
Who is your savior?
People are constantly looking for a savior these days. Today it seems a lot of people are looking for the Government to replace God.
They believe someone else can come save them, they are not holding themselves accountable and this is a good reason why they continue to suffer and ask for help. It exemplifies the glory of God even further, because it's no surprise they are stuck and confused with no way out. They feel as if they are abandoned, but by who? They have abandoned God, but most importantly, they have abandoned themselves. We all have the power to learn, grow and hopefully one day accomplish our dreams.
There are things that happen we don't understand. I know personally, since my Dad died before I was born. You think I wasn't angry with God? I learned really early that I couldn't hold onto hate, I couldn't think about what my life could have been like. Instead I knew that my Dad was with God watching me, and no matter the difficulty I went through, I had a guardian angel looking after me.
I have 2 older brothers, we grew up with a single mother. Statistically speaking, we should have become drug addicts and not made much of ourselves. Instead, we are all successful, because we all share this belief and it is our greatest strength. No matter how low things get, we hold ourselves accountable and we learn the tools and skills needed to get through whatever it is. Those skills then enhance us and show us the meaning of our struggles that further invigorate our belief.