If I Could Just—

: I wanna go back.

: To where?

: To that place where my first memories were created.
A time when nothing felt too heavy or too painful.

: But that place has been long gone. Time has already washed it away. Aren't you contented with what you have now? Aren't you happy with what you've achieved nowadays?

: I know. And it's sad because I only got to taste it for a mere second. I wasn't able to satisfy it till the end.
Contented? I am. kinda? I don't know. I often think in my mind that reality sucks. That yes, you now have the permission to do things but you don't have the license to live it.
Happy? Kinda. I don't know. I don't even know how happiness feels anymore.

: Well...hmm. There's that.

: You know what makes me sad today?

: No, what?

: I flipped through my old album where all my childhood photos were stacked. There were family photos of us too; photographed in the first house we lived in.

: Yeah, I remember that.

: As I was flipping through the pages, I felt an itch in my heart; a little ache throbbing inside.
Everything felt nostalgic.
The clothes, the smiles, the house, the people—they were nostalgic.
It made me realize how wonderful life was back then.
Life was so, so, so simple. Yet we didn't see any problem with it.
We just smiled the day away.
Getting to eat completely with three meals a day and getting to sleep under a comfortable house was more than enough to call it a perfect life.
Money wasn't the one controlling our family.
It was music, laughter, friends, relatives.
What was important back then—was us.
....
(laughs) I even cried.

: (tearing up) You're making me cry right now you know. I got snot all over my shirt.
(wipes tears) So why'd you cry?

: When I saw our family picture.
My parents and I were all tucked in tightly, smiling and goofing off in front of the camera.
(tears up) I don't know. It just...it just made me tear up.
I wanna go back. I just wanna preserve that moment.

: Well there's nothing we could do about it, hun.
Time changes. People changes. We don't have the power to go back and re-live life in the past.
We only get to move forward.
Even if it means it'll just get darker and darker as we go deeper through it.
Life is still beautiful you know. We just gotta have the right eyes to see it.

: I know... I know... (cries)