Love: The Twist, The Twirls & The Experiences (What's Your Story?)
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So many times the issue of love has come into play in my life and no matter how much I listen to PRINCE EA, or try to Make sense of love, my life and how it's turned out over the years I think it's been a complete and utter disaster and why is this? First of all we have the issue of endearment. Countless times we would be endeared to people who wouldn't even feel the slightest of spark in our direction and vice versa and this would continue till the end of time.
When I was 17 I thought I probably found the right person, it was beautiful and as young as I was, I was dreaming big, I never really asked the lady in question if she was dreaming as big as I was, I never really asked if she was getting the vibe I was, she was probably in it for reasons I didn't know but then when she found a better reason to leave, she left and left a heartbroken me unsure if I want to stay alive again.
That was probably a long time ago but nevertheless sometimes age doesn't bring experience when it comes to love. Truth is, love makes you feel like a baby, it takes away how old you are, your experience or expertise you're hardly reasoning like the man or woman you are, it tickles you, makes you do questionable things.
Sometimes you might find yourself being the best at giving advice when it comes to love to others, but then when it comes to you, you're knackered, drained and brainless. I probably repeated a lot of the mistakes I made when I was 17 in my early 20's as well and it was difficult to find a resolve, I make up my mind to make a decision and boom! It happens to me again and I'm always left in ruins asking myself how the hell I made the same mistakes again.
It's simple; no one is immune to the whims and caprices of love especially when we are hooked into people that can manipulate our deepest desires. I have probably been in love like twice or thrice in my life and the rest were just filmsy stuffs. These three times, it felt like de ja vu left me asking if I was ever going to attract the right person.
While love can be exciting, it's dangerous waters that can make or mar you, I dived in at an early age of my life, I guess my taste for sugary things (that was a metaphor) was really way up there, it felt like I miscued what true understanding, true commitments and true desire was, i was just a teenager seeking for things that would blow my mind, I kinda felt like I misinterpreted this for love. But oh no! I felt it. It sickened me in the belly it made me have bumps on my skin, I could lay down my life. But after many years I just take a laugh at myself and think... How has my definition of love been redefined?
A picture of me, I guess caught up in thoughts
At this age currently; I feel like I want something unconditional, sacrificial and understanding. In my early 20's i guess. I felt like I found it but then there's one thing about love. When you fail at it many times, it makes you numb. You can see something you want and unwant at the same time. You're choking, but it feels you're breathing fine. But then I realised the moment I stopped feeling those things, the better it would be for me. I mean... No one can really control what we they feel.
Sometimes we feel things for people out of our wildest estacy but then as time goes on, it becomes solid, it's no longer a fling. We begin to feel it: it's becoming solid but then we fell for this wrong thing which means we've dedicated strong emotions to things we felt they wouldn't last and POOF! heartbroken again.
I mean for some other people it's not as complex as it is, a lot of people have it easier Nevertheless this doesn't mean others cannot relate, I like talking about my experience, I feel that sometimes when I talk, it resonates deep inside. when I was on a meet-up with @k-banti and @starstrings01 I kinda shared the 18+ version of these experiences of mine and well the moment I feel I no longer cared about going in deep into one of these cancerous experiences because trust me, being in the wrong environment can make you think love isn't a beautiful thing.
Believe me it is. Nevertheless, it's having a little more of these experiences that somehow jolts me, while I am not that teenager anymore, I believe both teenagers and adults can still make the same mistakes when it comes to love. It's what it is, our emotions are us, no matter how misleading it can be, but then sometimes it's always us fighting; our deepest desires and our reasonable sense of logic.
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Sometimes, when we look back at our earlier love experience, it shoots a lot of thoughts on our face and makes us to feel as if we would have done better if we found love at a more mature time in our life.
I still feel the same sometime because there are some scarifices l made in the name of love even when l was getting a signal that this was a waste of time. I guess, the adrenaline of being a teen in addition to the wishful thinking that follows suit made me to feel like she will change for good.
But then, after all said and done, when the deadlock broke, it became clear that l was just building Castle in the air. This is kinda enough to make to build a wall around myself whenever love talks were being raised.
Well, all those are in the past but the fact remains that love has two sides so, we just need to aim for it's good side.
Brotherly we definitely make these mistakes in our teen age, I guess the pressure to feel loved, wanted and among played a huge role. Nevertheless I still felt these experiences kind of like refined us. Love is complex, people who didn't have it complex might never understand. I'm definitely happy that you could relate. Thanks for the engagement as always.
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