Broken Confidence Is The Same As Death.

Few days ago I was struggling with writer's block; I wasn't able to create any content on here and also battling a terrible swell on my left eyelid that caused me so much pain anytime I blink or roll my body to the left side on my bed. The pain in the nerves around my eyes is so great that it's only my addiction to stay online that made it seem like nothing was wrong with me and made me endure all the mess. But this issue is measly compared to how I feel right now.

Right now, I am starting to understand what I see in the movies and what I read from people's life experience on military strategy and war outbreak in the past. Prior to a war, some Commander or General usually have many tactics to win or conquer their enemies; sometimes it works and sometimes it backfires but amidst the strategy deployed there's one that's becoming my reality in the now and that's destroying the confidence of your enemy.

Nothing sucks like when you destroy the confidence of your foe before entering the battlefield, that alone is sufficient to usher a victory before slaughtering them. Even if the enemy has skilled soldiers, has a good winning streak in battles, has good weapons and counterattack methods. It does not matter what they have as long as you destroy their confidence, you have broken their soul and left them vulnerable to an open defeat because confidence tilts the feet of high level morale, zeal and patriotism towards an invisible strength and triumph.

This is how I feel right now, in my case there is no attacker or foe; just my confidence to survive the hard times caused by this pandemic was broken this morning. The news that stole my confidence has made me lose my appetite, I feel depressed, even my eyes that were hurting in the past few days can't feel any pain right now. It just feels like all hope keeping me and my family going is under captivity. Why did it even have to happen now? Oddly, I don't know but something within me is advising me to stay positive but I'm pondering how anyone can have faith without an assured confidence? It's like being horse and having a river to drink from when you are thirsty but all of a sudden the water in the river is drying up due to a blockage on the source caused by sudden deposits of used weapons from evil invaders. The flowing river now has to struggle to leak little water to pass through the blockage for those who drink from it until the hindrance is destroyed. Sigh, I hate troubling times.

And there is the issue with Steem ridiculous hardfork scheduled to steal people's funds. First it was a hostile takeover, followed by censorship, followed by a ridiculous softfork and now stealing funds with a hardfork. Justin Sun has really steep so low, his actions is similar to the Night king in game of thrones who loved to turn everything he touched to a dead thing. His management and recent actions has finally turned Steem to the blockchain of the dead, it is synonymous to call Steem the token of the dead. This incoming hardfork is ridiculous and unacceptable. It defeats the purpose of cryptocurrency and why it exists. I wonder who would want to invest in steem after the recent saga. It is breaking the confidence of many things and affecting those on the grass realm. Today is a bloody sad and horrible day. So annoying.