Toiling Night And Day For My Survival And This Community Is On My Rescue (A Short Story)

When I was just starting dialysis about 18 years ago it was the most difficult times of my life because I have no work and never went to one simply because of my illness type, it is hard in all aspects. So the payment of my treatment just comes out of pocket.

It was my second brother who absorbed most of the expenditures by making loans and paying it with his salary considering that he was just starting in his job in those times while my eldest brother decided to go to College again to pursue another career as a teacher while my sister is also in College too.

My father at that time is going out to operate the car as a taxi but its income is not wholly or entirely for us but my Aunt (my Father's sister) had a 50% or so cut and the income by the way is not really something that could sustain my dialysis treatments because we have to also use the income for maintenance cost, for our daily necessities, and the water and electric bills.

The rest of the money generated from it goes for my treatment but my father due to his habit of quitting abruptly on what he is doing just decided to lose interest and sold the "rights" of the taxi and bought an air compressor and an air blower attachment just like that without ever thinking about we needed money for my treatments.

I really could not point that out to my father because he has a different mindset plus actually we are not close since he is away to work when we are just growing up and I really am not in the condition to push a thing to someone who doesn't like doing it anymore.

I am just fortunate to have one brother that supported me right from the start and if I only have two brothers like him I wouldn't be anymore like this, disabled and in a miserable state of health.

So in the process my mother's attention was concentrated on me and there was this instance that she was talking about selling our old appliances then my eldest brother heard it and out of the blue ranted and said "why it is always for me" meaning why is my mother's attention is going to me and not to him to. Mother just cried telling him that I am sick and such and I have no idea if my eldest brother just understood my real situation or not but I really had never gotten any support from him.

But I am also sad about it in robbing my mother's attention away from my other siblings. My youngest sister understands my situation so she never made me feel that issue but my eldest brother who should be supporting me the most among them but really went jealous.

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My sister in her own way is helping me, even buying me fruits sometimes when she gets her salary as an employee but her salary is just too small to help me out even when she worked abroad as a saleslady. After she got married she didn't worked even though she is a very young board passer as a teacher and concentrated in taking care of her family as a housewife because she just chose that degree or course for the reason that my parents could not sustain her first choice of wanting to become a medical technologist.

Then my sister in laws which are both teachers encouraged her to teach so that she can have the money of her own and not rely on her husband's salaries. Thankfully she took the offer of support by her husband's sister and my sister-in-law from my eldest brother and decided to give it a try. Now she is teaching at a local school near us as a high school teacher and now as an online teacher because of the CoViD pandemic.

Anyway from my sibling I never asked them for help especially from my eldest brother, it is not good in my view even if I could not support my self anymore because they are not obligated to help me out. Even my parents are not obligated in supporting me because I am already an adult and should be already figuring it out how to take care of myself. But they are just a loving parents particularly my mother who doesn't want anything bad to happen to me even though she really is one of the barriers of my medical plans.

Right now my other brother and my sister is giving me some money from their salaries, it is not much but enough to cover some of my bills while my eldest brother always complains about having to pay for their loans and such so I never and will never bother him about that. I still of course love him because not all people can get the same capacities.

Now my "work" as a life blogger really has been the determining factor about my survival as a dialysis and leontiasis patient with a very complicated and expensive medical needs because without this platform I wouldn't be able to meet real friends that understands my situation which is why you all are always here and never gets tired of my existence in this community.

So I am always thanking God because he had given me more relatives, Uncles, Aunts, Mothers, brothers, and sisters because in the "real" world no one really cared for me which is why I treasure you all as a part of my real family and you all just give me a sense of security that somehow I will not find myself wanting because I have you all in my back. God bless you all.