I'm Taking A Bath Again And It Is Really Not That Easy Anymore

In a few moments I will have to go to the bathroom to freshen-up myself and also to brush my ugly and weak crooked teeth because I would like to be newly cleaned with my teeth prior to my dialysis.

I am just thankful that currently I am not really that in misery regarding my body pains but still I am in pain nonetheless. I am just keeping my strict diet so that I will not put any reason for my parathyroid to go hyperactive by normalizing my phosphorus levels and medicating my parathyroid with Cinacalcet.

Over the past few years anyway there had been improvements from the peak of my miserable body pains and enlargement of my facial bones to a more tolerable pain and a bit more smaller face relatively.

Had it not been for my Cinacalcet therapy I would not have been able to suppress my body pains because at that time even clenching my fist is also painful and there is no way back then that I am having a break for my body pains even though I can still walk a little at that time.

The only difference right now is my inability to walk anymore, I could still inch my way but with great difficulty and pain especially in my feet's joints and my weakened knees not to mention the overall body weakness and breathlessness.

That is why at dialysis I would like it to have my body's extra water to be removed totally until I see the telltale signs of dehydration as I can correct it anyway with a simple drink.

Breathlessness could not come off from my body now. I thought that with scraping off my extra water would solve the issue but it won't. The problem lies really about my backbone collapse which squeezed my internal organs including my lungs which is now causing me a reduced lung capacity.

So with all these combinations of breathlessness, body pains regarding my joints plus my marked weakness are joining together to make my every steps a miserable activity to do. That is why I am totally dependent on my parents about my needs around and outside the house from buying my food to sending me to and from my dialysis center. May God have mercy on me in these trying times of my life.