The Art of Saying Goodbye

I really wanted to see her for the last time, even when I knew I was late for the train. I ran on those steps upwards to her apartment. Then there was a moment of immovability.

What if she had moved on from me? What if she's with a new guy inside?
Now it's about a year after we broke up, maybe I just came here to ruin her day.

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Anyway, most probably this's gonna be the last time I'm gonna see her. If I don't say goodbye now, I have to live all life regretting at this moment.

I knocked on the door and waited for someone to open it, I could hear some steps reaching towards the door. I could hear some instability in those steps. Something wrong, there's a sound of metal touching the floor along with those feet.

Putting an end to all my doubts, the door opened. It was her, she is in using a walking support stick. I could see her legs, plastered and double as the size of others one. I knew she was bored and alone, it's why she came as fast she can to open the door. She couldn't return any of the visitors who may help her to pass these boring hours.

"Hi..."
I could see the excitement in her face, she was elated.

"Hi
What happened?" Nothing came to my mind other than asking this question.

" It was an accident, it's been two weeks.
Oh sorry, come in. I just forgot that in the excitement while seeing you.

I wanted to say to her that I'm in a hurry, but I couldn't say anything to that face. I felt like it was too harsh to act like that when she was in this kind of state.

I entered the room and directed toward the couch. She was heading towards the kitchen, I knew what she was thinking.

"Could you come here and have a little chat, I am in a hurry. " I was in a way requesting.

"I was just going to pick something for you to drink" she replied like an innocent.

"I knew, but I don't have enough time. I'm leaving this town this evening." I could see the disappointment and darkness arising in her eyes. I knew that even for a moment she was having a hope. Seeing her face like that I felt like I made the wrong decision to come here.

"Oh...
New Job!!!"
She tried hard to find words, I could see the pain she was having. I raised up from the couch and walked towards her.

"Come sit"I helped her.
" Yeah, it' a new job, finally got an opportunity to settle down. You are the only one I have to say goodbye to" I was becoming more emotional when saying each of those words.

We broke up for a small reason, we both thought that it can be solved soon cause we are near in the same town and it's just felt like a matter of time. Now it's just some kind of situation I've never expected to happen.

"So when am I gonna see you again" This time I could see the liquids starting to fill those eyes.

"I don't know, maybe we are not gonna see anymore. I just wanted to say that I still love you. The extreme situation that was in my mind was taking you with me out of this town but in this situation, there's nothing in my mind" I didn't even expect that I'm gonna talk to her this much open-mindedly.

She smiled, I could see what's that eyes were telling me. I hugged her and left the room while closing the door I glanced at her once more. It wasn't a goodbye it was more of an invitation.

[THE END]