Good news at the wrong time

Hello everyone, I hope you are doing well.

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This morning when I woke up, I saw clouds covering the morning sun. There's no wind blowing, just a chill that creeps between my thin clothes. Like my daily activities after waking up, I relax before doing my homework. Even if I only live alone, I won't let trash litter my room. because I'm one of those people who would be bothered by such things. Make the bed, sweep the floor even if it's not dirty, and wash the dishes even if it's only one dirty plate. I don't know, I've been used to doing that since childhood. My mother always taught me the basics when I was very young, and now it has become a habit that I have never left.

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By noon, the atmosphere changed. The sun slowly began to emerge from behind the thick clouds. Little by little warm atmosphere began to spread along with the wind that started to blow. After finishing cleaning the room, this weekend I'm just spent my day listening to music and watching movies until the afternoon.

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It's around six in the afternoon when I was about to take a shower, my cell phone rang. Not sure who's calling me, but one thing I know I hate when I see an incoming call on my phone screen. After I looked, the screen showed that the call was from my father. I knew when my father called, my little sister would speak first. I'm not very good at talking on the phone even though it's my own immediate family except with my sister, because whenever she calls, she's just discussing things going on around her, and I like to listen when she starts talking.

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About two weeks ago, the last time my family contacted me. There are no important topics to talk about. Today we are discussing durian fruit that has started to fall from the tree in my house. My sister said she got a lot of durians today, and she has eaten about five durians. For the rest, they will make porridge. After being satisfied with the durian discussion, she told me about three kittens that had just been born about three weeks ago. They have grown so big quickly. Until a discussion, my sister told me about something that surprised me, no, I was shocked. At first, I didn't understand what he meant. He says I will have another brother and I am confused by his words. I think the cat in my house will give birth again because I have two female cats at home where one has given birth and the other is pregnant and they are considered family. Still confused by the statement, just to be sure I finally asked my sister and she said that my mother was going to have a baby. Hearing that surprised me a little. From the other end of the phone, I heard my mother just laugh when my sister said that to me. I was very happy, angry, disappointed, and scared to hear it. It was strange to hear that when I was no longer a child.

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It was about eleven years ago when my first sister was born. I was ten years old at the time. I was happy when I heard the news that I would have a sister because I would have friends when I was home and not alone anymore. But this time for some reason I felt like crying, wanting to scream, and wanting to laugh. I still do not understand. Instantly the thoughts in my head dispersed. I didn't know what to say after hearing the news. I was just silent after hearing that until the phone hung up and just listened to them talking on the other end of the phone.

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I didn't mind, but my mother never told me that she wanted to have more children, and this meant there would be a new resident in our house. I'm not very interested in babies because I don't know what to do when I'm dealing with them. I don't know what will happen in the future, I don't know what to do next. I've been in a bad mood lately, and this news makes it even worse. I thought it would be strange for me to have another sibling when I was no longer young. But I hope everything will be fine with the addition of one more member of my family.