I started this month on a high note.

I had been working all through last month and my salary was due at the beginning of this month.

I never expected that I'd be ending the month unemployed.

I started this month with a boyfriend. Well, by the end of last month I knew I couldn't continue, but I started this month with him. Now, I'm ending this month single.

We never see the twists of life coming. They are unexpected. It's like how we never see how far we've come until we think back to events of our past.

This month has been intense for me.

I use the word 'intense' coz it has had its good and bad.

While I hate to be single again, breaking up gave me a feeling of relief.

I felt for a while that I had been fighting to fix a person and fix myself. And really, we can only fix ourselves.

I consider the break up to be one of the good things that happened this month.

On the other side, I'm single again. I'd been single for 2 years before I decided to agree to date a guy. I did it for all the wrong reasons, I have to admit.

I feel like when you're with the right person or a semblance of the right person, you ought to enjoy being with them more than you enjoy your own company.

Well, I wasn't getting any of that.

The next best thing to happen to me this month was my financial realization.

I quit my job when I realized it would give me no satisfaction whatsoever.

The pay was not worth it.

I put in the work this month, and through my digital works and online clients, I made almost 3 times what the job would have paid me.

I realized I could make money on my own. There's never a greater confidence booster than that.

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I didn't realize today was the last day of the month until a few hours ago.

Earlier today, I was so hellbent on giving myself a treat. I had no idea why I needed to do that, but I did.

Even when the weather got bad, I still had to force myself to go out and get myself shawarma and yoghurt.

I took some time to think through this month and all my activities.

This has been my most active month. And it paid off so well.

While I'm scared because of the bills I have for next month, I have this certainty that moving on from here in out, I'll do what's right for me and I'll make myself happy.

I desire comfort in my work and I've been able to get that for most of this month.

Cheers to the rest of our lives!

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