I Wished That My Parents Are Good Cooks So I Could Eat Well

Mother gave me some rice noodle soup for my breakfast but I thought that it was not enough because it only has a tiny bit of chicken meat in it and will definitely make me hungry before lunch time, hungry as in my body would shake in hunger and not the appetite to eat food.

So I just thought to have some soy curd to add to my breakfast since the vendor goes by almost everyday and I do not want to have bread with some butter in it so the soy curd is the one as my best option to give me some protein and nutrition.

I have learned that it is not as high in phosphorus and after all I had took some phosphate binder so there isn't much of a worry for me in that regard. One of the good thing is that this has lower sodium then the stir fried noodles which I am beginning to get bored of the taste especially if my father was the one that cooked our rice which often leads to the rice not being cooked well.

I just wished that my parents are good cooks but unfortunately they are not which makes me not to eat in most times because I do not like the meal that they are preparing. Now sometimes I would crave for fired salted fish and salted eggs with tomatoes especially if the rice was cooked well then at least I can eat and give my body some proper nutrition particularly with calories and some protein from the egg.

I already had shed a lot of weight lately and I am finding it very hard to gain it back. I do not really have the clue on why I am losing weight but I do not really eat a lot in the past few years because I could not tolerate a normal amount of food because of my extra water weight issue which makes me gasp for air whenever I would eat lots of food which means a lot of fluids to intake as well and it is one big factor that I had lost weight over the years.

Soon maybe I would be able to gain if I would be able to afford a milk that is specified for Kidney/dialysis patients then I would see some results by then. But right now the struggle to gain some weight is on and I pray that this will have an ending. I just needed a lot of prayers.