How Clinical Depression Had Hit Me When I Was So Young

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Clinical depression is very weird of a brain condition and it makes you feel blue and sad for no apparent reason like when I was very young I would look at my mole on my arm and cry because somebody had told me that it is a sign that I will have a very big burden on my shoulders.

Well it is funny my fear and expectations in that regard had become true, now I am burdened with multiple organ disabilities and complications that I couldn't even imagined happening before and yet it is a reality in my life now.

But back to being depressed when I was a child, it went on for years and I thought that it was just normal and being a child back then maybe helped me cope with it.

You would ask if what is the cause and the cause that I could suspect was my medication for my mild epilepsy. I had been prescribed with the maximum dosage of 90 mg a day and it was tapered two years or so until I was only taking 30 mg of it per day until my mother and I agreed to stop seeing the doctor in the early 90's.

But for a young age of about 5 years old, taking Phenobarbital had made me suffer such a weird brain condition that if I would get it again today the outcome would have been different because there would be a suicidal ideation and all that self-hurt things that a normal person would not even think about.

I say that if you have a family member who are suffering from clinical depression then they needed a medical intervention before it is too late because it is a serious disease where a person is in a condition that they cannot even comprehend because of that helplessness ideas in their thoughts because their brains are not functioning well.