Well...

I am somewhat tired of some situations that I have experienced in these days called "Carnivals" I think that, people change and sometimes for worse, I don't know how to react to destructive criticism. It is a brazenness, I feel a heavy weight that tears my feelings apart, in such a slow way and with no way to stop.

Lately, the people I know have become hostile in certain aspects, again I am feeling in a box of bad energy, the teasing of my appearance and my way of acting have been constantly, I feel weak.

It is true that, my self-esteem of years ago was trampled in every way, but now I feel more tiny than ever. I do not make a difference or call attention to my actions, I am trying to recreate that sense of "self-love" and I feel it will be difficult for me to love my personality again.

Again, this is disgusting, the simple fact of knowing that my attitudes are criticized 100% and without any censorship is questionable, my insecurity can be debated, although the facts are disastrous I think I can continue with my eyes raised and smiling at the life, but sometimes I get stuck and in a way, I fall back down.

I would like my environment to understand my answers to your questions, to my uncontrolled laughter and advice from a 40-year-old woman, maybe being a little quieter than most young girls who are in large groups and demonstrating a lot of self-esteem, I must emphasize that these girls are not bad, but it is wrong for society to force women to be like them...

I want a relaxed life without screaming, without criticism or crying. I have heard that I do not have enough to be an excellent doctor, I think it is very sad that most of my colleagues have thought that way about me but it made me remember the goals and the reason why I wanted what I wanted.

But why do I feel that it is not enough?

Because I, I don't believe in myself, my thoughtful sense was discovered this question, because the answer was simple and sad. Describing the universe of my mind is strange, but I must believe in myself, feel that the things I do are not silly or of little value, I must do it with love and passion. I have to make my dreams come true, I have to be honest with myself and I am glad to discover that sometimes the environment is not the best for me.

And you? What advice could you give me?