My Heart is Breaking
Recently we found out that my parents pup Chloe, had a mass in her lungs. This was several weeks ago and since then, she had a few small seizures, which has now led to her basically going through bouts of lethargy and just not being herself.
I kept trying to convince myself that she would snap out of it as they put her on medication...but it deep down inside I knew where this road was leading to. I just didn’t know we would arrive there so quickly.
My family is super close so Chloe as are all the pets in the household, are naturally all viewed as a part of the family. Chloe especially as my pops brought her everywhere. Birthday party fir one of my nephews...Chloe is there. Visiting my mom in the care facility? You bet Chloe is soaking up all the love from the patients. She’s one of the sweetest things this earth has created.
That’s why when I got the call from my dad tonight telling me that her condition had worsened, my heart sank. I rushed over there and along with my Dad, my sister Marcia, and my nieces and nephew...we all showered Chloe with all the love we could muster when we weren’t balling our eyes out like faucets.
I’ll write up something more detailed and profound tomorrow. I can’t fucking do it right now as I just want to wallow and curse the world for being so cruel...but it looks as if tomorrow morning I’ll be assisting my dad in what is sure to be one of the hardest moments of our lives as we say goodbye to Chloe.
Please give your fur babies a kiss right now and shower them with love. Our time together is never long enough. This just snuck up out of nowhere. She’s only 9 and I was playing catch with her just a couple of weeks back thinking everything was normal. Not a sign in the world that just a short time later, I’d be assisting my dad in saying our final goodbyes.
It’s not fair. It’s fucking brutal. I am almost 40 years old and I still can’t properly comprehend and deal with loss properly. I don’t know how to do it. I know I’m not unique in this. I know I’m
Not the first person to experience loss but I cannot for the life of me figure out how to handle it in a healthy manner.
I’m going to try to get some sleep as tomorrow is going to be draining. Kiss your angels. Cherish every second as one day, you’ll be writing something similar. I just hope that when those moments come for you guys...that you have more heart and strength than I do.
Love you Chloe.
🙏🏽 never easy to let loved ones go
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Aw man, I’m sorry to hear it. I think you can judge people by how they care about their pets... and you’re good people.
I’m glad the family gave Chloe plenty of love. My boy Bixby got ill very suddenly. It was an emergency vet in the evening, and the news I’d have to take him to my regular vet in the morning to be put down. It was a sleepless and despondent night, but I didn’t hold him and spend that time with him, in shock and already trying (unsuccessfully) to divorce myself emotionally for the next day. I regret that still.
A special heart to you and the family tonight, from me, Baxter & Bixby.
I read your post, got a little choked up, browsed these old pictures, & squeezed Baxter until he grunted. Thanks for the reminder to cherish them. And your heart and strength aren’t in question... I think the more you have, the worse you feel.
It's break my heart reading this 😢
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Only nine?!!! My oldest pup is 9. That is fucking terrible. I am so sorry. 😪
Thoughts are with you brother. May Chloe's final journey be peaceful and painless surrounded by those that she loves the most.
Dammit, there's something in my eye......
ao sorry to hear this :( I wish she snaps out of it for real
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Sorry to hear that man. If you need to talk I'm good for it.
Recently I had a few scares with bella. It's an emotional roller coaster man. I'm sorry for chloe. She's and awesome dog, and very sweet. Cherish the memory and just know you help make her life awesome man. It's unfair how the life cycle go, but time is one thing we cant control. Just cherish it man.
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Got thats terrible man! Yeha give some big huggs and kisses...I really read these things without watering eyes. Stay strong!
Sorry for you loss @blewitt...
Hearts out to you! I have felt the same in the past from my losses which is why I have been so hesitant to get another.
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I'm sorry :-( That's rough. Never know what to say. Hug and tell stories and share good memories and have lots and lots of strength for the difficult path ahead of you and your family <3
Dealing with loss is always difficult. A friend of mine lost her mate Tildy today - Her much loved dog. She's inconsolable. It's hard to come to grips with them being gone. 🙏 All the best mate.
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My Furbabies are sending your Furbabies all the good dog-mojo they can muster.
I've had to make that decision twice ... and it's devastating. But, you don't want your furbaby to suffer.
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