Bouncing off @abigail-dantes...1)a sad reflection of steemit. 2)screw it... NOT nsfw, but kinda, maybe...

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Just a quick stream of consciousness before my post...

I remember when I joined steemit, I never had enough time in the day to write a couple of posts and engage with all the really interesting people here.
What the hell has happened?
Where have they all gone?
After chatting to @abigail-dantes (if you are not following her, why the hell not? ), it dawned on me the sheer lack of engaging and interesting people on this platform compared to the last two odd years ago, when I joined.
A very sad state of affairs, in my opinion.
It seems the steem ecosystem is getting more insular, and with more navel gazing , talking about how brilliant steem is...

Ok, I had to get that out.

@abigail-dantes always gets my brain cells firing (one of the few people on here nowadays), and the last post she wrote was no exception.

For some reason, my thoughts got around to sex.
(Nothing to do with Abigail, like that - heads out of the gutter!).

But the thought processes sprouting from the post, comments, and later thinking some more - did get me around to thinking about sex.

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Why?
Well, I'll tell you, shall I?

My journey using sex.
It's all about 'know thyself'. ...Nothing to do with sex, bizarrely.

While there are many different journeys and paths to take for different people to discover who they really are, sex was my vehicle of choice that led to me understanding myself.

As Carl Jung said....

”One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light but by making the darkness conscious.”

Oh, he also said this to...

"A man who has not passed through the inferno of his passions has never overcome them".

If you don't have the scars to show from this 'right of passage' - then you've never truly lived. .
Nor are you ever truly the master of yourself.

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My life experiences were borne from a very dysfunctional family, and that has undoubtedly shaped me more than anything else.
I had to face my demons....my dark side.... and my inferno of passions , to find out who I really was...

I don't see many people doing that in real life - It's one reason why I'm becoming a semi recluse as I get older.

Unless you've gone down the road of 'knowing thyself' you really have no idea.
Only you know whether you have - or not.
But here's the kicker - You can't bullshit it.
(maybe you can for a time online - but definitely not in real life).

It's like talking to someone in your teens, once you've got past the dreaded 'virgin hurdle'.
You just know when someone is bullshitting -or not- about their 'virgin status'.
(It's not remotely important of course, but just an example to highlight my point that I'm trying to get across).

Experiencing it, makes the bullshitter just talking about it, stand out like a beacon in the dark. You can't blag it.

To paraphrase from someone ....'you can't teach me nuffin'
Obviously that's not entirely true, not by a long shot - but you do see what I mean?

The important things in life are the real things, and knowing yourself is the real biggie.

I get bored not being real with people, and many people who do not know themselves, bore me.
How could they not, if you think about it?
It's like talking to a two dimensional cardboard figurine. An empty vessel.

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....'So whats the fuckin' point?' I find myself saying 'It's just wasting my time.'

Ok, yeah, back to the sex thingy....

Before I go on about my story, watch this vid clip I've made.

Rather than me saying anything else (for now), you tell me what you think about it...What emotions does it bring out?
Any?
None?
There ain't no right or wrong answers.

I'll do another post (or fifty) about my 'sex journey', and my self realization that came with it.( eventually, I might add).
While wallowing in the 'dark side' of myself, I learned more about me , than possibly anywhere else.
It will not be masturbation material - don't let the vid clip fool you.
(unless you're really twisted that is - in which case, enjoy, and knock yourself one out)

Back to the vid clip.... it's totally sexual, and without a single biological 'naughty bit' in it! (so not nsfw?..mmm)

If you're offended by it - that's your demons, your issues and your shit - but it's not mine.
I know my demons very well.
They don't scare me in the slightest.
I'd invite them around for afternoon tea, anytime!

Sex was my road to the self discovery....And a very interesting one it was to....

....As Mr Jung also said...

“People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own souls.”

(......like doing a job and sucking all your valuable time away from you- just for a few dollars more that you don't need? Now that is truly, truly, absurd.)

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All right, I am always interested in people's self-discovery journey. No matter what kind of path they've taken. So, I watched the video and am now prepared to answer the questions you presented. Plus, I like the way you highlighted that there are no right or wrong answers.

To begin with: No, I was not offended by it.

What emotions does it bring out?
Any?
None?

Emotions ... uhm ... the song definitely made it more appealing to watch. But no emotions in particular :)

I'm curious to see how you engaged in self-reflection & faced your demons by way of sex .

Ps: thank you very much for the kind words 😊

...I as I said in my post - it has nothing to do with sex, not really - but it was the life (style), I chose, and that led to me to where I am now.

I think I might post them under a separate name ( I have some others - I'll let you know)...I' m not exactly sure how long a 'series' it might turn out to be...

It's a record for myself as much as anything, or at least trying to put it in some semblance of order and context... ....mmm...we will see..( it will probably only be you reading them anyway, in this desert)

The kind words were the truth, not kindness...but you're most welcome.

Hello @lucylin, my old friend. When I was regularly posting here, I did notice a mass exodus of interesting people. I count you as one of those who stayed.

As for the reasons people left?

Any combination of the following, in no specific order:

  1. Competition, due in part to what people claim are poor live-streaming services
  2. sadly meager ROI, a system that primarily functioned on reciprocation and bots, instead of quality content; no measure of time invested
  3. stock rigging: I watched over 6 mos of pump and dumps then crashes, which appears difficult to believe were not intentional manipulations (you can research and find out large chunks of many cryptos were bought up by certain groups)
  4. retard-fest of cowardly keyboard cucks, downvoting truthful content and rival creators
  5. RL shit is getting very real, indeed, allowing less time for the majority who post here in their spare time to produce

Have to admit, I have not had time to investigate what improvements were made in my absence. But hope you're making a few new friends and makin the best of it.

Cheers, brother.

Hello there!

Yeah, but it's strange how some people haven't...(as in, the less interesting ones. Shit - I'm in that group by my own definition!lol)

I took a couple months 'holiday' while I was setting up my new project (not on here), so now the monetary rewards are not that relevant to me anymore.

I'm posting for my own reasons, but I'm not really finding that many engaging people to talk to - which may very will be me, as much as anything.

I'm always making the best of it, my friend, and things are going pretty well for us at the moment.
Paradoxically, it was the frustration and 'anger' over this place, that motivated me to get off my lazy arse and do the 'other thing' - it gave me the energy to actually 'do' something!
I also turned my steem money into....at present day - around $7.90/8.00 per steem.
I calculate the steem I've taken out since I began, and then see the profit made entirely from withdrawing it (and then using it elsewhere), so it has been a big success in that regard.
(and the 'value per steem' will keep going up, as I have a growing income from the extracted steem that I've utilized)

I hope you are doing well, over in cannuck land...

Real life shit is getting real, everywhere.
It's a comin'.....

So you're where all those profits went! Dog gone it! For real, tho, couldn't be more happy to hear you're crushing, brother.

I don't think it is you or your content causing the lack of engaging creators here, but that could be just me, haha.

Will be on here a bit more, not that that will help you in any meaningful way, lol. Your stuff does pop up on my feed, though. And, it's thoroughly appreciated and enjoyed.

Take care.

Cheers matey !!

Life has gotten much easier for us, since I utilized my earned steem - and got it working for me...(NOT hodling, but working it).

My average steem value now (i.e the amount I earned on steem + the profits then earned from using my steem ), continues to grow....my av. price per steem, is now is around the $ 8.10 mark.

(I think, I haven't worked it out for this last week or so)

Well that's impressive. Did shit really go up so much?

Did shit really go up so much?

non of my endeavors involve ctrpyto, as such - it was from using the converted steem and starting other things with the money. Thats where my rewards are coming from.

eg - if i had 100 steem earned @$1, and sold - that's hundred dollars.
I then invested that 100 in something else , and now it's 800.
(based on all the prices of steem that I sold off, over my power downs. The price per steem is now up around the $8 per mark - at the moment.... But rising.)

(It's not that impressive, tbh. If it was I'd tell you! lol.
It's just grinding away at stuff, I just needed to get myself into gear after a few years of cruising semi retirement .
An unintended consequence of joining the steem ecosystem , you might say. I found out that steem had put some petrol in my tank!).

Smart man.

I put a new post up last night. I'll check for any of your new content today, resteem...etc...