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Last Friday I was happy to find out I have one less week on my contract than what I expected. No whining was what I told myself when I started out. Not much anyway and somehow it seems I managed.
For some people, their jobs are part of their identities. They feel as if it is the most important part of their lives and they must dedicate all their energy to perform as a perfect cog in the machine. Out of that pressure comes a lot of frustration, unnecessary stress, and of course whining.
I promised myself never to fall for that trap ever again. No emotional investment, no driving myself crazy with perfectionism, no work friends, and no stressing out of my brain. Doesn’t mean I don’t do my job well. Quite the opposite. There is simply no attachment. Of course, I still had to listen and witness others squeaking in the trap. All unaware of what they do to themselves. Some of them said you seem to enjoy this job. I shrugged it is just a job. I am not my job.
I am glad to be soon done with traveling back and forth to a different city every day, waking up early, looping the same shit different day routines while trying to keep up with my own stuff as well. Sleep was often sacrificed for silly things I still do stress about. Though lately, I am trying to relax and be more chill about those as well for a healthier mental state. Nothing is worth fussing over. Nothing is worth your health and well being. Life will find other ways.
What is the next move? The big plans? No plans. Right now, I don’t really want any plans other than getting home, being home and feeling like home. I am just waiting patiently for the time here to finally run out and that is fine too.
For some people, their jobs are part of their identities. They feel as if it is the most important part of their lives and they must dedicate all their energy to perform as a perfect cog in the machine. Out of that pressure comes a lot of frustration, unnecessary stress, and of course whining.
I promised myself never to fall for that trap ever again. No emotional investment, no driving myself crazy with perfectionism, no work friends, and no stressing out of my brain. Doesn’t mean I don’t do my job well. Quite the opposite. There is simply no attachment. Of course, I still had to listen and witness others squeaking in the trap. All unaware of what they do to themselves. Some of them said you seem to enjoy this job. I shrugged it is just a job. I am not my job.
I am glad to be soon done with traveling back and forth to a different city every day, waking up early, looping the same shit different day routines while trying to keep up with my own stuff as well. Sleep was often sacrificed for silly things I still do stress about. Though lately, I am trying to relax and be more chill about those as well for a healthier mental state. Nothing is worth fussing over. Nothing is worth your health and well being. Life will find other ways.
What is the next move? The big plans? No plans. Right now, I don’t really want any plans other than getting home, being home and feeling like home. I am just waiting patiently for the time here to finally run out and that is fine too.
Song of the day: Candy Says, Marc Canham - Running Up The Hill
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Are you worried that this is what your garden is going to look like when you get home? ;D
Sounds like you survived work well and while I am not defined by my job, I do have a fair bit of tie up in it at the moment. A cog in the machine? a loose one perhaps.
Ahaha! Exactly! xD
Barely. Nah, it wasn't that bad. Draining quite a bit though.
Lot of squeaking? Probably melting one tomorrow :D
Hope it cools off a bit. The hotel better have aircon though :)
Came in my mind while reading this, it's terrifying how many people seem to think every job should be your passion and you'd always need to have big goals in your life.
For me, sometimes a job is just a job and I'm not going towards any grand goals in my life, following some specific plan I have.
Also, really nice pictures. Third one is absolutely soothing.
That's the today's mentality and training. We have to excel at our jobs and basically be part of it when really it is just putting food on the table. Most jobs anyway. Not saying it can never be someone's passion and some certainly find something they want to work for and give it all, but that is not true for most of the population. Yet those silly expectations.
Thank you for stopping by @apsu :)
Enjoy the fruits of your labor at home :)
I have a similar attitude as you for my own job. Some would say that "I'm a mailman", and I might even say that, but really what I think is just being a guy who delivers mail. An interesting thing I remember from a psychology class: the teacher gave us a task to fill in 10 sentences starting with "I am..." After doing it, the teacher said that most of the time people fill them with concept that organize us in our social environment. "I'm a teacher. I'm a husband." etc. Though when I did it, I defined myself with qualitative concepts in 9 of the sentences rather than with social roles.
Thank you @celestal! :) I will.
Oh I've done those kind of things in the past as well. It is interesting how differently people identify themselves. Personally, I am trying to avoid labels and roles unless it is something I am really passionate about. Most of the time I just see myself as this strange being placed here to explore. Perhaps, people put the roles on to belong or be part of something, to feel less lonely.
I have never been really attached to any job I have had in my life. The closest I got was a blog and that was because it was a home office and I had share rooms with several people. You can't be with someone in just your boxer shorts without finding it difficult to be aloof. Besides that, all other jobs had been just jobs and I didn't really like them either.
In the past I've made that mistake a lot. I worried about things I shouldn't have, I have harmed my health because of a job and been through quite toxic work environments where people just constantly whine and complain about every little thing when it was absolutely unnecessary, but those things spread unfortunately and poison even the most optimistic people if they are not careful enough.
People would be better off if they realized that certain things are simply unnecessary waste of energy when it comes to jobs.
Very true. I remember while working with a shop at a mall, my coworkers would gather round to gripe when the boss was not on seat. The moment they start talking, I would walk away to a safe distance and shut all the yammering off. They didn't know that among them, someone was taking their conversations to her and she soon began confronting them and the sacks began. I learnt to do my job and mind my business early so I left the place on my own terms.
great photography and very nice place
So pleased to see someone who thinks the same as I do. A job doesn't define a person, sure it provides some benefit, but true value in life comes from elsewhere.
Nice work on getting out a week early too!
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Hey Galen! ^^ It took me a while to realize this. Not only jobs don't define us as persons, but also we never should allow our jobs to consume us to unhealthy levels. Sometimes we are unaware how negative we are at workplaces. We stress ourselves out for nothing.
Yes! Thank you! So excited about this last week to be over :)
A poor attitude at work can affect our whole lives and I don't believe that's how it should be. If the work-attitude is poor because the situation then change the situation. Our lives are too important not to. Just my thoughts. 😉 All the best for the rest of the week.
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(1st July, so no other choice, otherwise it would be "Run to the Hills" - Iron Maiden ;-) )
Two in one Song of the Grey! ^^ And I got to say, songs of the Grey really rock! Loved both of them
Can't believe it's July already. Time flies and soon it will be November again. Aaaa
Sometimes we ourselves are the reason behind the frustration behind our various jobs we involve ourselves in
Absolutely and it is complete waste of energy. We can do so much better than that if we actually wish so.
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Hey @m31. I read this a few days ago but kept thinking back to what you say. I can relate to this as I tried SO HARD to get the perfect job, and I almost did, but three times to was just taken away and I couldn't understand why. I generally don't think this too often, but think the universe was indeed doing this. I now have a new job, just like the type you describe, not too serious, not perfect, not a go getting company intent of innovating the world. But I realise that this is exactly what I need after the toil and stress of the last few years - i'm not attached! Thanks for sharing so eloquently and thanks as always for the awesome images.