When things worked
I’ve always felt like my life was mine to run. My decisions and actions give birth to consequences and as long as I make things right, things ought to be okay. My life is mine to control and so are my actions. It’s the only responsibility I was given from birth.
These days it generally doesn’t feel that way. Although my actions are mine, the consequences haven’t been corresponding with my actions. I try to make things right but the process of making things right eludes me.
These past few days have been hopeful for me but also filled with a lot of pain. I’ve been forced to deal with the consequences of someone else’s bad decision. I can’t go into complete details but it’s a lot of physical pain.
The hope of this week is also surrounded by a lack of control. I’ve never had an actual job for a long while so I don’t know how to deal with being placed in a position where I can’t question someone for making certain decisions about my actions. I don’t know how to react.
I make a simple mistake and I get punished without being given enough space to explain myself. I can’t complain or get an actual explanation because I’m not allowed to. It’s so frustrating and I hate how much I need this.
I miss when I could completely depend on Hive. I miss when I didn’t have to hope so much for things that were out of my control. I miss when all I had to do was write and interact with a few people and I could plan my week with the outcome. It’s not like that anymore.
Things were so much better when life just worked that way but it’s not like that anymore and I don’t know when it’ll get like that again. I’ll get back on the job hunting horse soon but this time, I’ll be looking out for something different. Hopefully, I’ll hit some gold.
I hope things get better at your job.
I also hope we see better Hive prices again. I think we will, but it may take several more months to get there, Good luck to all of us! :)
Looks like it might take at least another year. But we'll get there some day
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Sorry, its the life of people in the creative industry. Your well could get dry. Another alternative is to come up with a product that you can sell and have little money coming your way.
It will give you back some of that sense of control. I have been working on fitness shirts I want to put for sale that are Christian-themed. I wish you luck all the same.
That's some expensive venture that'll give me anxiety. But yeah, things are going to start looking up soon enough.
If you could get people to want it then it will be all good
There are always constant changes in life and most time what we need is to adapt to it and keep seeking for improvement.
I hope thay you can hit the gold soon! Best wishes to you 🌺
Thank you. I really hope the gold isn't too far away anymore
Life is certainly challenging but these experiences are ones that we take and put into our library of things to keep in mind for later. It’s painful yes but it’s an important lesson. You will be better in the long run because of it!