What I am 'Eating' is not Important, but what I am "Thinking" is.

After taking the dip in holy Ganga river and attended the morning rituals at temple, we felt hungry. Another best part of Varanasi is that one do not need to bother about the food as many food items were readilly available all the times. Especially, the street foods were simply amazing. There were variety of them, and one just choose the item as per choice. While we ordered dosas, my mind again shifted towards my Dad's demise. I was missing him deeply.

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My nephew took these picture without my knowledge. I would have given some nice poses even if I was aware about it. But at tge moment of eating my mind was looking for my Dad. In the entire I was missing him and his absence is nailing me hard. The reason was his caring nature. He always used to ask about my whereabouts, whether I had my food or not or when I would be reaching home. He always used to enquire but this is my first trip, where no one was calling neither anyone is concerned about my well being.

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This is not only one sided affair, I also used to show him the new places through video call and love to share other things. He had his concerns while I had my interest in sharing things with him. But this trip was my first solo trip of a kind. Many I times I took out my mobile to see if there is any miss call from my dad or not. Only to realize he is not anymore

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It hurts his absence does made a huge impact in my life. I used to be free under his supervision but now I have to supervise everything of my own. Nobody take care of me anymore and I have to look after many things. Time has come to move a step ahead in life. Noone fill his absence, but it is important to keep his values and let his head high all the time. I am alone now, and it took me enough time to reduce, a new chapter begun, where all the character will be me itself. And I have to execute them nicely. miss you dad

Peace!!

Namaste @steemflow



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Be strong my friend. The dosas looks delicious though!

I just had mine yesterday with a glass of masala tea.

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Dosas are quick and easy to prepare and eat....which one you like most?

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I have an inkling of an idea of what you are going through as I myself have lost my dad for 13years now, his absence has been greatly felt. I still miss him, the difference is that it’s less heart wrenching or numbing. The values learnt and memories are yours to keep as well implement. Do take heart💕

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The legacy of thoughts , learning, and k owledge need to be carried on. But his absence can never be filled and it is hard to be like him and maintain his stature in society....I understand it take time to recover but the wound is fresh it doesn't heel so easily

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I am so sorry for your loss, I lost both my parents and they were both very good and loving to me... their absence, even after so many years, still hurts me a lot. Life goes on, but we are always missing those who are no longer with us and whom we love. What I would give for a conversation with my mother, to see her eyes, to enjoy her coffee and food as always. When my mom got sick I knew it wouldn't last forever and I became what she told me, her superwoman, a warrior who took care of her and defended her. Sadly, I couldn't do more for her and her illness, but I feel good that I took care of her for 18 years of her illness and she stayed well.

Your experience touches me so much, because I know what it feels like. I send you all the encouragement you may need. We are human beings, life is short, like a sigh, we must go on living, in the future we become what our parents were for us, in other people's hearts.

A big hug.

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They were a generation of different time and it will hard to find any other people like them. Their knowledge, experince, and many things were alway helpful. I even doubt if I could ever be like him. Their caring, their understanding of things were quite brilliant. Sudden losses are hard to recover...but we have to cope with it...which I am trying and that is why we went out for a trip ...still he always remain with me.

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I'm so sorry, I can imagine the feeling of sadness. My dad is as caring as yours too.

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Sorry, I'm also interested in what you're eating because it looks quite sumptuous 😂

Ouch... I think I understand what you're feeling.. the lost of a love one so dear to us atimes is very difficult to handle but what can we do.... The deed is done
May God give you the heart to bear this loss
Peace

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