Thanks Google Assistant For The Reminder

This evening when I took my phone in my hand found the reminder and it was a reminder of my birthday. Yes, its in 4th of July and when my mom was alive she celebrate it almost in a grand way. She woke me up with her warm hugs and kisses which was surprising in the morning of the day. Without my mom these is none who can make my birthday special.

It almost 7.5 years I've lost my mom. Now only social media and Google assistant remember it well. My nearest people like my sister,Brother in law and some close friends wish me over phone but there is none to hug me to wish me on this day as my mom did. There would be no day when I don't miss her. She is my source of life but she is no more in this earth. Birthday is just an ordinary day and no one here to make me feel special.

No grief that none to make it special but the biggest blessing in my life is missing and that is my mom. Nothing can fill up the emptiness I have in my life without mom. If ever Almighty ask me about my wish I wish for my mom's heaven and include me in the heaven too someday. Life is not a heaven so I don't want her to be back in such hell life she had. I would love to go to her where we can stay together forever.

Sometimes life seems so much complicated that I wish for death and heaven after death. Life mostly show us difficulties and problems and that makes us feel like we are in hell. No one wants to be in the hell for sure and I'm not alter to it. Sometimes we can't blame anyone for our worse life and we are responsible for our own bad luck. We neither can move on nor can stay properly. We are just floating inside ocean and accept everything as our fate.

Anyway, one more year going to be pass from my life and I'm one step ahead to my death. People celebrate birthdays but does it worth to celebrate? Who loves to be a step ahead to death? There's nothing to celebrate but if we want to live full on before the rest of life, we can celebrate it the way we like it.

Thanks google assistant for the reminder that I'm going to one step ahead to my end. Sorry I'm telling negative but that's all my feeling I need to share.

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