Creative Nonfiction: How long does a ghost's shadow last?/ ¿Cuánto dura la sombra de un fantasma?


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How long does a ghost's shadow last?

After my father's death there was a rumour that reached my mother's ears: my father had had a long affair with a co-worker:

"How did your father do this to me? -How did your father do this to me?" was my mother's sobbing question.

"People make up a lot, Mom," I said, running my hand over her head to try to calm her down. I could tell that Mom had stopped crying out of sadness and had started crying out of anger.

"And that woman dared to go to the funeral!" -She exclaimed as if the woman's performance was rude, "Cheeky woman who isn't ashamed to be the other!"

"Who told you she had gone, mamma? People make up a lot". -I repeated to calm the storm that was threatening to tear my mother's soul apart.

"Celia told me! The woman went to the wake and to the burial," she said as if she had the evidence of a crime in her hands.

The woman had indeed gone. I had seen her. She had stood in a corner, surrounded by people, almost all of them my father's co-workers. The woman looked haggard, swollen from crying. It is true that in those moments of grief, one sees or remembers very little. But I remember that the woman came up to me and expressed her condolences:

"You don't know how much I grieve for your father's death. I loved him so much," she said softly, and we both began to cry. My father was so loved by everyone, so special, that I could never have imagined that this demonstration of pain and affection from that woman had a background, but apparently it did.

We later found out that the affair had taken place a long time ago, when my father was just starting to work in that office. Then the woman was transferred to another city because she had had problems with the boss's wife. Celia told this to my mother, who made a point of saying it as many times as she could:

How did your father do this to me? -She repeated it like a broken record, as if her life had stopped in the chorus of a song and she had not been able to move forward at all - and with that woman, God knows what she was like if she even had problems with the boss's wife! -my mother wielded as if she were swallowing crushed stone.


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The woman in question was called Martina. Martina was neither pretty nor ugly, but she did have, despite her age, a good body. She was originally from the Venezuelan plains, but had come to the east in search of a better life and job opportunities. Martina had a son, about 15 years old, but she was not known to have a husband. Celia, who is my mother's best friend, had found out all about the life of this woman who had had the opportunity to meet my father many, many years before and had shared a short time with him.

Like most rumours, that rumour spread like wildfire and reached enormous proportions, so much so that it was said that Martina's son was our brother:

"How could you do this to me! -How did you do this to me?" my mother would exclaim in front of my father's grave, as if my father could hear her and answer her. Her wounded pride as a betrayed woman did not allow her to shed a tear, as she arranged the tulips on the grave.

We, his daughters, were only trying not to make my mother, who had already suffered enough sadness and who, at the end of the day, was the victim of all the gossip, sick. That is why, whenever someone recklessly or maliciously remembered that slip of the tongue, we simply changed the conversation or mercilessly dismissed the indiscreet person.


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Seven years have passed since my father's death. Last year, it was All Souls' Day, and as is customary, we had all gone to the cemetery to mourn our dead. My mother had brought tulips, my father's favourite flowers, and as she filled the vases, she talked to him:

"Look how I brought you your favourite flowers, so that you know that we remember you and love you very much, my beautiful love",_ my mother would say, arranging the flowers with meticulous care and attention to detail.

In the distance we saw Martina coming with her hands full of tulips and next to her was a boy who looked very much like my brother. Martina passed us and greeted us. Her greeting was simple, but cordial. My mother nodded her head, no drama, polite if you like. Then Martina walked away and got lost in the crowd, like a disappearing shadow. No one said anything, we just kept cleaning the grave, on which there is a photograph of my father, which looked like he was smiling.

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¿Cuanto dura la sombra de un fantasma?
Luego de la muerte de mi padre hubo un rumor que llegó a los oídos de mi madre: mi padre había tenido un amorío largo con una compañera de trabajo:
_¿Cómo tu padre me hizo esto? –fue la pregunta de mi madre entre sollozos.
_La gente inventa mucho, mamá –le dije pasándole la mano por la cabeza para intentar calmarla. Se notaba que mamá había dejado de llorar por la tristeza y había comenzado a llorar de rabia.
_¡Y esa mujer se atrevió a ir al entierro! –exclamó como si la actuación de la mujer fuese una grosería- ¡Mujer descarada que no le da pena ser la otra!
_¿Quién te dijo que había ido, mamá? La gente inventa mucho. –repetí para calmar la tormenta que amenazaba con destrozar el alma de mi madre.
_¡Me dijo Celia! La mujer fue para el velorio y para el entierro –afirmó como si tuviera en sus manos las pruebas de un crimen.
Efectivamente, la mujer había ido. Yo la había visto. Había permanecido en una esquina, rodeada de gente, casi todos compañeros de trabajo de mi padre. La mujer se veía ojerosa, hinchada por el llanto. Es verdad que en esos instantes de dolor, es poco lo que uno ve o recuerda. Pero recuerdo que aquella mujer se acercó a mí y me dio el pésame:
_No sabes el dolor que me causa la muerte de tu padre. Lo quise tanto –me había dicho bajito y nos pusimos a llorar las dos. Mi padre era tan querido por todos, tan especial, que jamás pude imaginar que aquella demostración de dolor y afecto de aquella mujer tuviera un trasfondo, pero por lo visto sí lo tenía.
Luego nos enteramos que aquel amorío había sido hacía mucho tiempo, cuando mi padre comenzaba a trabajar en aquella oficina. Que luego la mujer fue trasladada a otra ciudad porque había tenido problemas con la esposa del jefe. Esto se lo dijo Celia a mi madre que se encargó de decirlo cuántas veces podía:
_¿Cómo tu padre me hizo esto? –repetía como un disco rayado, como si su vida se hubiese detenido en el coro de una canción y no hubiese podido avanzar para nada - ¡Y con esa mujer que sabrá Dios cómo era si hasta tuvo problemas con la esposa del jefe! –esgrimía mi madre como si tuviera tragando piedra molida.
La mujer en cuestión se llamaba Martina. Martina no era bonita ni fea, pero sí tenía, a pesar de su edad, un buen cuerpo. Era oriunda del llano venezolano, pero había venido al oriente buscando mejor vida y oportunidades de trabajo. Martina tenía un hijo, de unos 15 años, pero no se le conocía que tuviera esposo. Celia, que es la mejor amiga de mi madre, le había averiguado toda la vida de aquella mujer que había tenido la oportunidad de coincidir con mi padre muchísimos años antes y había compartido con él un breve tiempo.
Como la mayoría de los rumores, aquel rumor se esparció como pólvora y llegó a dimensiones descomunales, tanto que se llegó a decir que el hijo de Martina era nuestro hermano:
_¡¿Cómo me hiciste esto?! –exclamaba mi madre frente a la tumba de mi padre como si mi padre pudiera escucharle y responderle. Su orgullo herido de mujer traicionada no le permitía botar una lágrima, mientras acomodaba los tulipanes sobre la sepultura.
Nosotras, sus hijas, solo intentábamos que aquello no enfermara a mi madre, que ya bastante tristeza había padecido y que al final de cuenta, era la víctima de todas aquellas murmuraciones. Por eso, cada vez que alguien, de manera imprudente o de manera maliciosa, llegaba a recordar aquel desliz, simplemente cambiábamos la conversación o despachábamos, sin misericordia, a la persona indiscreta.
Desde la muerte de mi padre han pasado siete años. El año pasado, era el día de los difuntos y como es costumbre, todos habíamos ido al cementerio a velar a nuestros muertos. Mi madre había llevado tulipanes, las flores preferidas de mi padre, y a medida que llenaba los floreros, hablaba con él:
_Mira cómo te traje tus flores preferidas, para que sepas que te recordamos y te queremos mucho, mi amor bello –decía mi madre acomodando la flores con minuciosidad y esmero.
En la distancia vimos que Martina venía con las manos llenas de tulipanes y al lado de ella venía un muchacho muy parecido a mi hermano. Martina pasó a nuestro lado y nos saludó. Su saludo fue simple, pero cordial. Mi madre hizo un gesto con la cabeza, sin drama, amable, si se quiere. Luego Martina se alejó y se perdió entre la gente, como una sombra que desaparece Nadie dijo nada, solo seguimos limpiando la tumba, sobre la cual hay una fotografía de mi padre, la cual parecía que sonreía.




























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Nunca falta una Celia en la historia para martirizar todavía más a su amiga 😅. Esas son las peores, no ayudan nada, solo meten más cizaña 🤣. Excelente relato como siempre @nancybriti1 🤗🤗.

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Cieerrrrrrto!!! Se hacen llamar amigas, pero sealegran con la fatalidad del oto. Gracias por tu comentario!! Abrazos

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The last part tho...i thought mom was going to strangle martina when she saw her...but it was good that she was able to keep cool even with the hurt.
Also, i think this thing with men's secret affair being exposed after their death seems like a common occurrence that happens in real life.

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That's right! I think cases like this happen many times in every family. Regards

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That is one of the things I really fear about rumour. Most of the time it spread faster than even the real news

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There is a reason: rumour can be changed, it can be stretched, it can be moulded to the interests of the other; truth, on the other hand, cannot. Rumours are more interesting for people. Greetings

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One finishes this story and ponders the complexity of human nature. Few of us are entirely good, and few are entirely bad. Each of us has at least one secret that is part of our past, one we might wish to forget. Your mother was faced with two losses: her husband, and her belief in her husband's loyalty. It is a tribute to her that she was not consumed with bitterness, but continued to mourn your father and respect his memory.

Was the rumor true? Martina's behavior suggests that it might be. But the reader wonders why no one ever asked her. Why no one ever wanted to know for sure if her son was truly related to your family. Such a hard thing to face. It is understandable that no one wanted to confront it. And yet, is the mystery not more difficult to bear than clarity would be?

Human beings are complex. There is no road map that tells us how to be happy. You do a remarkable job of illustrating the complexity of human nature, and the complexity of real-life relationships.

Thank you for sharing this piece with us, @nancybriti1.

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I am pleased that my text has given rise to such an intelligent analysis. I think the complexity of being human makes us so unpredictable. What I do believe is that time helps the water to flow under the bridge and carry away the debris of some tragedies. Thank you very much for your support and best regards.

Ah, there is some likelihood that the rumour is true.

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Amazing, simply amazing. Your mother who carried the grip of the loss of her husband and the unexpected woman showing up still had the courage of showing respect to her husband even after 7years and still kept calm when the unexpected woman shows up once again.

Not everyone could keep her cool in such a situation.

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Undoubtedly, one of the things I admire most about my mother is her strength, her resilience. Sometimes I think she is made of a material that is no longer available. For better or for worse, women in the past had other ways of perceiving men and their families. Greetings and thank you for your comment.

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Such a secret could be painful. Your mum was mourning her husband and at the same time angry with the 'relationship.' I would have loved to know if the son of Martina is truly your relative. Did you guys just allow everything to go like that?

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This is a long story, but we think so. Unfortunately, out of respect for my mother and my father's memory, we have decided to put it behind us. The idea that the waters carry and bring some things is perfect. Mum is fine now. Also some waters remain calm, even if there are deadly currents at the bottom. Greetings, friend

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In the distance we saw Martina coming with her hands full of tulips and next to her was a boy who looked very much like my brother.

Do you mean in age or appearance? This makes me go hmm... 🤔

Gripping story with some intriguing events.

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