Motherhood

Becoming a mother is a blessing from God. It's the desire of every woman to be a mom.
After six months of my marriage, I was not feeling well. My husband decided to go to visit the hospital. We don't even know where we go. We go to the medical department. They refer me to the gyne department. The doctor asks me why you must come here first.
They took some blood examinations. The doctor did an ultrasound and asked me to wait for reports. We are very curious about what happened to me. Why am I feeling so sick? After 2 hours, the doctor calls us and tells us the report is positive. My husband was puzzled about what was transpired. Which report is positive? Tell me. I was crying and asked him if we were having a baby.
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He was jumping and said tell me once again. We are so happy. We don't even notice that we are in hospital in front of the doctor. But we can't hide our feelings.
After some time the doctor told him to give me some multivitamin. And ask my husband to take care of me. I was very happy to know that I'm going to become a mother.
I came to my home and called my mother and mother-in-law to confirm that they are now going to become grandmothers. They were happy to know all this. They give me some tips to take care of myself. And ask me to call them at any time for their assistance.
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But after three months. I got a miscarriage. This time was exceedingly not forgettable and painful. I cried a lot. Nothing pleased me. I don't find anything attractive. Feels very vacant. But my husband and my family were with me. They take good care of me. But after 7 years of my marriage. I asked my husband if that baby was alive he would be 5 years old.
After a passage of time. Our grief overcomes but is never finished. I got three consecutive miscarriages. These are extremely painful. People often say you must do something wrong. You did it yourself. Blablabla…..
Whenever I visit my friends. They had kids. They used to talk about their kids. Their mischievous moments. Their growing age, achievements ,tooth problems and much more like this.And ask me how you don't have kids and how you can understand. You don't have feelings and experience. These things pinch me from inside. I refused to go outside at parties or gatherings.
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I can't bear these types of rubbish things. I ask my husband what I can do. It's not in my hand. He just asked me to not worry about anything when I'm with you. Soon I will have babies. They were very naughty. They don't give you time for yourself. Wait for that time.
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After 2 years of our marriage. I got pregnant again. Same feeling, the same happiness but fear is added in this time. I was very conscious. I was totally on bed rest in my first trimester. The Doctor asked me not to worry but I was afraid. The time flew away. Now it's time for delivery. I had a cesarean section. Everyone was happy. It's a girl. I was happy to see her. Incredible moment. Can't express my feelings in words.she is like my little Angela. I can't live without her.
The lesson learnt from my life is not to be impatient. Now I go to the parties and enjoying it alot. My girl gave me confidence. Besides this whenever I saw any lady who don't have kids. I never taunt them. I read I talk to them on other topics not kids. They feel Very comfortable with me.
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Now I am a mother of two kids. Both are very naughty. But I am very happy to see them. I thank God to give me that beautiful blessing. It's true, every good thing comes with time. But we have to wait for it. I remembered my husband saying that you can't get time for yourself.

I write this blog in three hours. All because of my naughty kids. They just need their mom every time😊😊😊😊😊😊😊