Ladies On Hive Contest #74. MY PERSONALITY

Personality has to do with one's actual makeup, that means it's what makes a human what he or she is. As humans with different faces and looks, we all have differenct personalities and that is what makes us unique in our different ways. Just imagine if we all had same looks and act alike, how would the world be? So boring right? Exactly.

Everyone has a different perspective to life and everything there in, and that's why we act the way we do. Sometimes it's not necessarily our making and we wish and hope to do something about about it, while other times it's just the way we are so we accept it as our fate.

So back to the question ****If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be?****

One thing I'll love to change about me is prolly becoming a stronger person cause I cry for basically everything, it's never something I do intentionally and I'm not proud of it at all. I hate those moments I cry being sad, being angry, missing a loved one, being in pain or even being confused. Yes it's true that sometimes letting the tears flow may be one of the solutions to that problem, cause after that I feel so much better but how about when those tears ain't necessary?

I remember my last day in secondary school, normally I travel home myself but because I was done with school and needed to bring back my luggages and all my belongings my dad came to pick me. The moment he came into my class he met me in tears, he asked my classmates around " did anyone die? Did a teacher beat her?" Cause he needed to know why I was in so much tears. My bunk mate had come to bid me farewell and as I saw her in tears,I couldn't control mine but followed suit.

My father laughed so hard that he couldn't wait to reach home and told my mum what happened, promising not to tell my younger siblings otherwise they'll laugh at me forever. I felt so ashamed of myself, yes I didn't mean to cry but before I knew it I already had the tears rolling.

Back then I'll cry while returning back to school, cry during visiting days, cry when I got punished and as well cry when I missed home. Up till this moment I'll cry at silly things as little as when I get scolded, when I get angry and that's actually the one I hate so much. I don't wanna talk about when being betrayed, heartbroken or loosing a loved one cause I feel those are actually normal.

I'll look at myself in the mirror, speak to my inner self as being a strong and hard girl, that these things can't get me overwhelmed and that it can't affect my mood at all in anyway but the next second I wail. Could it be that I'm too emotional? Being a full grown adult yet still sobbing about petty things, my friends even make mockery of me cause of that and it doesn't make me feel good in anyway.

Maybe I'll go borrow a part of "Stone cold Steve Austin's" heart to be stronger and not get emotional about everything happening around me, or maybe I'll try to ignore them more and not put it to heart but then I've exhausted almost all the options I have. Maybe this is just me but I still wish to change it regardless.

I'm glad I she this contest on @princessbusayo's page do I decided to write on it, I hereby call upon @zellypearl to join the contest.