Doing My Best To Stay Positive And To Accept What Is
I guess this will be more of a general update since I haven't posted in a while. I have been thinking about it, but the inspiration hasn't been there. And I'm learning more and more not to force things. Instead, I'm trusting that it will return, the inspiration.
And now, towards the end of the year, it feels good to kind of summarize my last 3 months or so. It was 3 months since I finished my job. So I have had much more free time. In the beginning, I was so relieved. Finally free of that soul-crushing job. And I had a plan. To get back into coaching and to do a new training. I actually ended up doing 3 new trainings, investing quite a bit in myself. (By the way, in my opinion, the best investment you can make).
But what also happened was that I couldn't shake the feeling of feeling uninspired. And since I didn't have to do anything if I didn't want to, I ended up a lot on the couch watching Netflix. I'm still struggling a lot with my health so it's always tempting to just rest. But of course that's not the life I want!
Then there's still the ongoing process of trying to get my flat sold. I have been living in a staged home now for 6 months and as a person who is really sensitive to my environment (I really appreciate beauty), it hasn't been good for me.
And now it's winter. The season I always dread. I really hoped I would be someplace warm by now. But it is what it is.
Ok but wait. Enough with this complaining, haha. It's not all bad. Even though I had hoped (and to be honest also had expected from myself) to have done more, I have been in a rather deep process. The trainings I have done have been very deep. All with the amazing Sofia Sundari. And I know that if I were to embody everything that I learned and realized in these containers, my life would look very different. They are all leadership trainings. Deep spiritual work. How to live in alignment with your dharma, going after your deepest desires, shadow work, erotic embodiment, etc. They were also very intense. So I haven't fully dived into all of the material. And done the inner work. But I have some time. I still have access to the trainings for 1-2 months. So that's my plan really. To continue. Even though it's more of a challenge when the training isn't live anymore.
I have also completed one more coach training, all about women's empowerment. I submitted my portfolio before Christmas. This also means that I received coaching around this topic. So well, a lot of inner work when I think about it.
I guess I just feel a bit frustrated because I still haven't unleashed my creativity and inspiration. The plan was really to focus more on my coaching business again. But I think something is brewing. Things will fall into place. Again, it's all about trust.
I also have to decide whether to take a break from trying to sell my flat so I can relax more or if it's better to just keep trying. I still want to leave Stockholm and I'm actually surprised that the Universe is keeping me here. There must be a reason after all.
Since my flat isn't sold I also need to find a new job quite soon. I actually really thought it would be sold by the end of the year and that's why I 'gave' myself these 3 months of not working. But of course, that's not a long-term solution. Not with increasing interest rates...
Even so, in general, I feel really good about the new year. I'm so ready to leave 2022 behind. I'll do some rituals and I already feel a lot of new energy coming in.
And yes, for 2023, I'll have some resolutions. (Usually, I don't but this year I really desire to). One of them (I haven't decided on all yet) will be to not watch Netflix (or any streaming services) for one year. I know I can do it (I have done so before). When I'm bored I can always read and when I'm too tired for that I can always, always connect to my body in some way.
There is probably a lot more I wanted to write about but I'll leave it like this for now. More posts coming up soon 🙂
Thanks for reading 🌸
Love and blessings to you all 💚
You know sometimes, the best thing we can do, is to do nothing at all. We don't always have to fill our time. But it sounds like you have been doing a lot of inner work and that really does call on you to surrender, which you seem to be doing.
I struggle with not being active, forgetting that the most powerful work is when we embrace stillness.
Everything will fall into place, here's to a wonderful 2023 @mamrita, much love xxxxx
Thank you for your kind words, @trucklife-family 💚 I hope you are doing well!
Yes, surrender is the key. Still so hard though, at least sometimes.
xx
If you have it you have it eyy.. I know it's somewhat unrelated but if you jave a talent for taking photos.... The most random photos of random objects even have a nack to turn out great.
What I'm trying to say is, I absolutely love the way you take photos!
Keep at it..
Ohh and keep focusing on those positives
Thank you, that's really kind 🙂 I actually love taking photos, even though I only use my phone these days.
No stress I mostly also use my phone!
But if those were taken with a phone then I'm even more impressed 😂📱😎👏
Thanks, yes taken with my iPhone 12 mini.
Winter is such a time for going deep into this stuff, which isn't always an easy ride - in fact, it can be painful. So there is that temptation to go into bear mode - hibernate, distract with netflix - so you don't have to deal. But it doesn't sound like you are avoiding, not for the future anyway. You've been through a tough time so it's okay to just rest even if it doesn't look like you think it SHOULD look.
I couldn't do without streaming. I think I watch series now like I used to read fiction. That's okay. I've come to terms with that to and it still feeds me. WE only watch in the evening though. xx
Besides, if we don't Netflix, we Midjourney bahahaha....
I'm definitely facing some challenging stuff at the moment, and I'm mostly dealing with it. I do. But I guess I use my health issues a lot as an excuse to distract myself. And that doesn't help.
I can relate to this. I truly believe though that for me, a year without Netflix will do me good. In fact, I want to change my whole evening routine.
Haha. Midjourney is the new Netflix 😂
I second Trucklife on this one, doing nothing at all is sometimes all that is needed.
That's how the best ideas come to fruition.
And...There's nothing wrong with a little bit of Netflix while it's snowing out there 😉
Everyone seems to be so forgiving when it comes to my binge-watching, haha.
I have been making some small adjustments in my flat this week. I actually sold my TV today. The energy shifted a lot.
With all the shit people went through lately, I reckon binging tv isn't the worst we can do haha.
That's a ballsy move!!! I would have bought it from you, we're looking for one. 😄
I guess you are right, I could have done way worse...
But I still think it was a great choice to get rid of the TV 🙂
Ah not many times I get to see some snow from people here on hive! It’s a lot of warm climate stuff lol. As difficult as the winters are with snow, it is a refreshing feeling walking outside when it’s a few degrees below freezing and the crisp, cold air hits your face and lungs. For me it is anyway hahaha. I think my wife would disagree..
Good luck on selling the flat and getting the coaching thing started up! I know that 2022 was a difficult year for many and I think 2023 will have it’s challenges as well but I think we can make decent improvements with it!
Haha, yes that's true.
I actually agree with you, it's a refreshing feeling. I think it would do me good to surrender more to the cold temperature, for sure.
Thank you so much for the well wishes.
I hope 2023 will be a great year for all of us 🙂
So many expectations yet life happens.
Just take things at a normal pace, don't try to rush anything and everything would work out just fine.
Thank you for your kind words 🙏🏽
I wish you a beautiful day 🌸
It's always a pleasure.
Thank you. Do have a great day too.