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The day before my suicide|

The day before my suicide, I hated my mother
She used to poke me and pressurised me to do something that I wasn’t interested
Giving me no way to breath
She used to tell me that I was the worst child ever

The day before my suicide my father used to beat me
He used to force me to do those things that I hate the most
24/7 he used to scolding me
I had had enough

The day before my suicide I saw my best friend with another friend
She used to ignore me
We were best friends, we were meant to be friends
Whenever i called her she never answered my call
She didn’t wish me on my birthday, I was sad

The day before my suicide my sister taunting me that I was a unwanted child
She used to harassing me in every way
Everyday she told my father that I am a bad child
I never got any opportunity to share my feelings with her
I used to sleep on the floor, and she’s on the bed

The day before my suicide love of my love was with another girl
We used to spent quantity time together
He was there whenever I needed him
But one day he started abuse me
He started ignoring me

The day after my suicide |

The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more
when I saw her crying on the floor of my room
hugging my clothes with my photos scattered around her, I saw so much love past the tears in her eyes.

The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard it was, in the midst of so much sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyesabout how proud he was of me and how much he loved me.

The day after my suicide. I saw that my
best friend was more incredible than I could imagine.
Every time someone came home, he would run to door excited to see me, and seeing that it was not me, would lay down in front of the door and continue waiting for me.

The day after my suicide. I felt the love of my sister when I saw her sitting in her room with eyes full of tears.
She remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. Treasured moments.

The day after my suicide my love started regretting
I felt how guilty he was
He loved me
People’s make mistake

The day after my suicide. I felt how important i was to my best friends. They were looking at all our pictures
together...remembering the laughs we shared.

The day after my suicide. I felt the sorrow in my teachers.
They blamed themselves for not noticing.
At night I went to the morgue to look for myself.
I was upset.
I looked at myself and said: "So many dreams we had", "so many loved ones", "So many people to meet", "You had so many people that loved you, yet you threw it all away?", "You have to have a lot of courage
to take your life. Why didn't you use that courage to win?"

That was just a vision. Remember, You are still here and can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are stronger.

My board exams are coming, that’s why I couldn’t write any blog or post anything. I’m extremely sorry for that. Hope you all are doing well and enjoying your life. Thank you very much❤️