HivePH Week 2 Entry: Remembering The Departed

I got notified by a memory on Facebook about a previous event in my life, saw my close friend's face and I clicked on it, scrolled down to see her profile, and ended up checking her Instagram account and saw her bio with a WordPress site where she blogs

Sadness took over me because if she was still alive, she would be on the same platform I’m using right now because she loves to read and write and I happen to be influenced by her since she was the one who pushed me to do blogging, I remember making an account on WordPress and posting one picture with a little caption.

Click Here if you wanna see how good she is at writing.

anyways,

I studied in Davao city for 5 years and I have to rent a boarding house since it’s far away from home, Christine was my roommate she has the same vibe and energy that I have, our landlady gets amused every time she visits because if there's a noise in the second floor she always concludes that it's us,

While I was scrolling through our selfies in my Facebook pictures, I thought “God! I miss our bond

Her words are always

Jude! Can I borrow your phone, can I take selfies?

Jude, let's take a selfie and post it on FB

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I’d gladly command thy majesty’s request! (bet if she reads this she’d laugh.)

Jude, I have a reward for the best writing contest can you come with me, I don’t wanna go alone

she’s far from her family and I’m the only one available to go

You are the best roommate Ever!

she keeps on saying this to me, even though she’s the best roommate.

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Jude Alam mo gud

This is always the first word she says if she shares something with me, I find it cute cause she’s very conyo and I happen to get influenced by her conyo, I get to speak English every time we converse.

Jude I'm so tired I don’t want to go to work but I have to

she’s a call center agent so she wakes up at dawn to go to work, I always witness her preparations because I’m up painting till morning and I get sad every time she says this to me, how I wish she was not a working student.

Jude, Look I bought a color book!

whenever she comes home and goes to work, she always sees me painting, and she wants to do what I do, but she can’t paint or do watercolor so she bought a color book and colored pencils instead.

Jude, this guy is doing ligaw to me ” (asking her out)

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she keeps on sharing, how annoying this one guy was, even though she already said no, and I’m listening to her rants on the side, so since I find it so funny I draw a chibi of us ~

I witnessed her ups and downs, especially her heartbreaks with her ex-boyfriends, as she was also a witness to my 4 years love life that ended last year, while depressed and broken I went back to Davao to heal, and I thought of her and how I wish I could tell her the sad news, because she was very supportive with my love life back then, so I just talked to her in my mind.

Jude Coffee Date?

I only knew coffee dates from her, so we go to the tindahan (store) in our neighborhood to buy our favorite coffee ~ Nescafe creamy latte with a pair of 1 pieces fried chicken for our dinner, since she was on diet and I joined her with it.

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Random conversations always happen through our coffee dates and this situation right here happened, she laughed so hard with the map I drew which made her post on FB

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Convo translation:

Christine: Jude, what does Mindanao look like?
Me: Wait. Let me draw it for you.
Christine: WOW! I UNDERSTAND IT SO WELL JUDE BABES HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS WHAT I’LL USE IN THE FUTURE 😂😂😂

hahaha, good times!! she’s always fun to be around ! she always flexes and shares funny situations with me.

The landlady loved how we get along so well and how jolly we are, she ended up inviting us to her house to have lunch, the two other girls in the pictures are (pink) her sister, and (green) our other roommate.

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I already graduated and I moved to a new boarding house because our current one was so small and my big paintings can’t fit in,

we both miss each other after I moved out but the good thing was, I still got invited to our Christmas party in the dorm, and the usual, we were the noisy ones, it was also the last time I get to talk to her

I remember that night with the last coffee date while catching up with everything, she shared that she finally found the right guy and how lucky she was with him, and I also shared how mine was going on smoothly as well, we just laughed at our broken days and very happy with each other love life that time.

When it was getting late and I need to go I said “ I need to go home “

She was like “ GIVE ME ONE MORE HUG “ and when I hugged her, it felt different from the usual hug we do, it’s like a hug that says I will miss her for so long.

I can still remember how it felt, so every time I get to hug a person while parting ways I compare it to what I felt with Christine, but so far I haven’t had any experience with the same feeling, which I hope I won’t though because if so, it’s scary to know that something bad will happen to that person and I can’t do anything to prevent it,

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If only she survived this Accident.

I was really sad about the tragic news, throughout my life, she was the first friend that died, she was the most special one for me too…

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This is our last selfie, I miss you Christine!

They said if you dream of the person who died, you should go to their funeral and visit,

I remember my dream of her she was in my hometown, and I was with her walking in the streets, she was in front of me and while following her, I noticed she had short hair, and I admire how pretty she was with it, she looked backed and I saw her sweet smile, it was like she’s saying she’s happy.

I woke up with tears in my eyes, I went to her funeral together with our other friends, and I met her boyfriend for the first time but it felt like we already knew each other because of how Christine shared him with me and vice versa.

I felt bad for her boyfriend because losing a loved one is the hardest one to experience in life. even though I haven’t had that experience yet, just by thinking about it, it's like half of yourself is dead. I still admire her boyfriend for smiling and still entertaining Christine's guest even though he looks so tired from all the crying.

Writing this is giving me mixed feelings, I’m happy at remembering our moments together at the same time sad because those days will never happen again.

I miss you so much christine! :’(

-LOVE JUDE
YOUR BEST ROOMMATE EVER.



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There is nothing more painful than losing someone in unexpected way. Make us realize to treasure every moment with someone coz we never know when will be the last. This is so heartfelt. I can feel the longing for every line you wrote.

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I just feel all the emotions after reading your post. It must be so tough when you learned that she's already gone. That's why we have to cherish all our relationships and be grateful that we are alive day by day because we don't know when's our last day.

I hope that your week is going well po

!PIZZA

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was hurting while writing this, but still happy sharing the fun memories with her ..

my week is doing well.. i hope yours too !PIZZA

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At least you were able to bring your emotions out and I bet if she reads this she's proud of what you've become

Have a great weekend ahead!

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This was really heartbreaking... Knowing they were there working while the lower floor was already burning and no one notified them.. It makes me so mad to think somebody could have done something. I still remember the feeling while watching the news. So sorry for your loss. This is why I'm angry with the world. Big players are winning and there's no justice. If the ones responsible get away with this on earth then maybe on the other side if it exists, they will suffer.

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true! let karma do its thing and hope they suffer 1000x the amount the victims experienced

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Shet, sis, this is too early for me. Yung ang happy niyo sa first pics tapos pag sroll down ko, you are looking at her grave. :(( Kaya iwas muna ako magbasa ng entries ngayon e... I get emotional na naman huhu.

The news was fucking tragic 2 days before xmas haaayss

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sorry madam ji, but thank you for taking the time to read this even though its a sad blog,

it was tragic tlga, the christmas that time wasn’t a happy one at all, it was a sad one for me.

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I cry while reading... It is really heartbreaking when someone is gone too soon.. The sadness is unexplainable..

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Oh! I hate reading this @jude.villarta because it reminds me of my father. Upon reading this contest, I don't know if I have the courage to write about it. I miss my father and I am teary eyed right now. Oh! i hate this feeling.

We always miss the memories that we had with those people who sleep earlier than us.

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same ate jen, but i took courage to blog this since i already planned to share about her here, it was a timing that the contest had a theme of remembering the departed , so inisa ko nalang..

thank you for reading ate jen kahit nasaktan ka .. love lots <3

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Normal lang naman ang pain andyan lang sya eh, na tritrigger lang sa mga memories.

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Nalungkot ako habang binabasa ko to. Kung nasan man siya ngayon sana masaya siya't naalala mo padin siya magpa hanggang ngayon. 🤧

Nakakatakot talaga yung mga actions yung kahit normal lang naman dapat talaga pero minsan nararamdaman nating may pahiwatig. 🥲

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she always remain in my heart jam , coz she’s very special to me..

truee jam it was a weird feeling .. but i still remember it.. katakot nga eh maulit

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Ano ba yan. so sad. I feel for you. When they visit us in dreams just when they died, means that you were special to them and letting you know that they are happy where they are.

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yes.. i am happy she visited my dream nga coz na feel ko na special din ako sakanya pala .. thanks claire love love <3

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This is our last selfie, I miss you Christine!

This gets me teary-eyed. I admire your courage in writing this.
If that was me I'm not really sure if I can. Parang ang hirap umpisahan at tapusin.
May mga bagay talaga dito sa earth na ndi mo magets why it had to happen but we we are left with no choice but to accept and just keep going.

XXX @jude.villarta

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ayon, mixed feelings while writing this ate chi, because I enjoyed recalling every memory of her until the last which made me miss her even more, thank you sa pag basa ate chi love love

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Goosebumps!

it felt different from the usual hug we do, it’s like a hug that says I will miss her for so long.

It takes forever to move on from this kind of heartbreak.
My heart's heavy after reading this huhu

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Grabi naman, aga aga nag papaiyak ka mae mae 🥺 and, napaka sad naman ng nangyari sa kanya. Because of someone's kapabayaan, tsk. Ang aga nyang lumisam pero I'm sure sa ilang taon na nabuhay sya, naging masaya din sya. With everyone and wit you 🥺

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yes ruffaaaa she was happy naman din, ayon gone too soon lang because she could have done so much more in her life… thank you sa pag basa ruffatot, late reply though natabonan sa mga notif.

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This really hits me really hard, I do feel the same way. Losing one of your loved ones. I got teary-eyed and about to cry yet I stopped it that's why my throat hurts jaja. but really, I as well dreamt about my lolo and it was his birthday. For sure, their souls are wandering freely up there. ganda nito ate jim!😢🤧🌸

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aww breee thank you for reading.. sige lang let’s be thankful that they were part of us in life and gave color to it even in a short amount of time.

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Reading this reminds me of my batchmate in ROTC. 😢 He's the first friend na iniyakan ko ng bongga coz it was so sudden.
I checked the accident and read the headline only. I remember seeing this news and it's so sad and tragic. She may not be around physically, but your memories together will always be with you, Jude.

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awww.. kneel, what happend to him? accident din ba?

It was very tragic indeed, her memories will forever be in my heart. she’s very unforgettable

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