The autopilot part of me experienced a spontaneous approach

Recently, I went on a shopping spree for shoes, which are truly long overdue, as I have managed to use three pairs of shoes for about two years. I have always desired to have some new pairs of shoes, and spontaneously, I did some shopping (though online) for mostly shoes and a few other items. This, I would say, was a result of some cash I got, which was not well planned for and helped me clear a significant part of my long-term debts. I considered living a little; however, I lost caution and bought shoes I eventually felt were in excess, even though I loved them. My mind played the trick on me; I wanted to satiate it, perhaps a deviant autopilot of a calculated or regular lifestyle. That was how I spent about $100 buying shoes of different designs, and I consoled myself that, for the next few years, I would not need to buy any new pairs of shoes for the over 15 new pairs I acquired within the space of two weeks. The average cost of shoes in Nigeria ranges from $5 to $25, but of course, I shopped for shoes that did not cost much yet gave me some confidence in style.

A second part of my life is my clothes. Recently, I sewed two pairs of clothes, and both were because of occasions I was invited to. Other than that, I have managed my wardrobe for a little over two years. My pattern of living as regards clothing is such that I get a good number of clothes for a period of time and forget the need to stock new clothes. Occasionally my body size increases or reduces, just like two months ago when I felt sick and lost some weight. This, however, is not enough reason to opt for new clothes. Hopefully, early next year, I could change my wardrobe and find some less privileged friends I could donate the ones I'm using to.

Each day of my life gets mentally planned out, and oftentimes, beyond the routine of work and home, I have the allowance of visiting a few friends or places as a leisure activity; however, impromptu or spontaneous shifts in my autopilot life are generally not welcomed. I prefer to have my mind prepared for an outing or a visit, and worse is an emergency. This lifestyle is perhaps the reason why I make my purchases at regular and planned intervals, where I purchase in bulk and only need to top up when a few items are exhausted. Perhaps my shoe shopping spree is a mix of both, purchasing in bulk even though it was spontaneous and unplanned.

I practically have an idea of how much I spend each day, knowing fully well that I do not buy what I do not need. I sometimes do not leave the house with money or an ATM card, and I prefer to have my account balance at zero or near zero. That way, I also do not have the push to source money to spend spontaneously.

Personally, I prefer the autopilot life; however, the mind plays the game of wanting some things spontaneously, and like I fell into the trap of a recent shopping spree, we may free our minds occasionally into a spontaneous lifestyle, which oftentimes will not be routine.

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