Silent blog from war zone: everyday issues

Hi, guys!

Today I don't have any new sketches to show yet, but I hope they will appear by tomorrow. Now we have to do them very quickly, because the first section of the course is coming to an end, the second section will begin on Saturday, and before that time we need to have time to pay off all the debts. I don’t have a lot of them, only two, but just the two that I least want to draw. In the next section, you will need to create full-fledged portraits, and this is much more interesting, but of course I'm worried about how I will cope with the task.

I still have the same problem that I came to the course with. I still gravitate closer to realism and I'm afraid to go into stylization. I discussed this issue with a teacher, with a curator, even with a psychologist, and I can’t get rid of the feeling that if I do something not in realism, then this is not real art, despite the fact that I myself admire artists, who make cool styling.

Sooner or later I will deal with this problem, but for now it is. And since there is a war going on now, and I can’t talk to a psychologist, I can only hope that some time should just pass so that I can become comfortable working in a different direction. In fact, I have a similar problem with many areas of my life. As if something is serious and real, but something is not, but in fact, of course, this is all nonsense. What looks good looks good.

Our city is relatively quiet, and this is good news. In any case, nothing frightens me much and does not prevent me from restoring my rhythm of life. I made another attempt on Monday to sign up for aerial gymnastics, maybe this time I will still be able to wake up on time, and even get to training in the unbearable heat.